10-3-24   1:24pm

you have so much to live for
you have so much to learn

where have you been?
you drifted far
but the things you love
still wait for you

life waits for you
like a branch on a tree
waits for a bluejay

10-4-24

i get to have you
stuck in my head
all day

lucky me
lucky me


like a record
on repeat
the ending scratches
it's repeating
your name
over and over


well guess what
I'm barging into
your favorite movie theater
and raining on your parade
ruining your favorite film
twisting the memory
of your favorite place
into your least favorite
it'll make you sick
to your stomach
to go back there
to go anywhere near there


lucky me
to have myself

poor you
poor poor
you

10-7-24   1:07pm

certain sounds
and certain movies
certain shows
with certain scents

you're engraved
in my memory


my heart still beats
so fast
when you come
to mind
it goes back in time
it remembers your touch
your smile
your kiss
your laugh
your passion
your eyes
those eyes
filled with wonder
and curiosity

you don't find many people
like that
few and far
in between



perhaps you're also thinking of me
as much as I am about you

maybe not

so many maybes
so many questions
left
unanswered

just to run into you
maybe you'll think it's fate

10-12-24

when do you stop crossing my mind
what day
what hour
what time

10-13-24

making mom a cup of coffee. wearing dad's t-shirts he gives me. listening. offering advice. falling asleep in my sister's bed next to her. "I'll drop you off at the airport." quality time. sharing a secret. "text me when you get home." paying for the bill. waiting by the door for my sister to come home from a first date.

10-24-24   9:41pm

find me within the meadows, where the grass grows tall and birds migrate to escape winter

hear me between each verse of your favorite song, the one that replays and brings you peace

remember me like the feeling of nostalgia, how it sneaks up on you when you smell the scent of blown out birthday candles


I'm the laughter you dream of that echos off the walls
the bird song of evening as the sun sets
the ticking clock on your nightstand that never dies

someone you will never forget
even if you tried