Little do you know how I'm breaking while you fall asleep,
Little do you know I'm still haunted by the memories,
Little do you know I'm trying to pick myself up, piece by piece
Little do you know I need a little more time
Underneath it all I'm held captive by the hole inside
I've been holding back for the feel that you might change your mind.
I'm ready to forgive you but, forgetting is a harder fight.
Little do you know I need a little more time

"How are you?"

The question is asked
Over and over and over

I do not bother asking you
Because I find the question
Obnoxious and pointless

She does not understand
The way of Tao

Idle mornings
And Idle years

Checking her phone
Watching the news

The time slips away....

This is your life

You chose not to live
But to simply exist

Incredibly sad

I have witnessed
A person
Simply do nothing
For an entire adult lifespan

Your world comes crashing down around you
Suddenly your mother is in your arms
Your brother is crying on his knees
And you haven't felt this way in so long
People aren't supposed to disappear
No one should just die
But sometimes life isn't fair
Suddenly you're running away to anywhere  

You're sitting on a hospital bed
Flowers complete the room
You're drowning in your own regrets
But there's nothing you could have done or said
Your mother is planning a funeral
Cool and collected by now
But all you want to do is cry
All you can do is break down
They lived long lives filled with love
But it shouldn't be over yet
Picturing you in this state
Makes my heart hurt to forget

Hospital flowers should never beautify death
And death should never be beautiful
But why did it have to happen so fast?
Why did they have to be killed?
You choke it up and avoid the smiles
That all say how sorry they are
It doesn't matter how they feel
Because your grandparents are gone.

subtract sanity from misery
add a little violence
multiplied by duplicity
those voices never silence

divided by the mystery
carried over to tomorrow
this beast that lives in me
the sum of all my sorrow

I'm a strong girl
I dont know how many times
Should I remind myself that
So I could make myself believe
That I really am.

I'm a strong girl
I say, to console myself
That everything will work out just fine
Because God has a plan
And I'm part of that plan.

I'm a strong girl
I repeat to myself as I get closer
To things that makes me sick.
Tho I'm still hoping that one day
I'll eventually love it.

I'm a strong girl
I tell myself
Over and over again
But it's not quite right
Just not quite right,

I'm a strong girl
Oh ****, I'm tired of it.
Completely fed up.
I feel like giving up,
surrendering my hands in the air.

But I'm a strong girl.
You know I shouldn't
You know I can't
You know I won't.
I'm a strong girl