Heart like a paper ;  turned to burned flames,
Arrived to a point of no go back ; this is the end ,
Smile or a tear it's one ; to me is the same ,
Black flower , dark mind , lives in shadow,
Afraid of people , hidden monster , sea of tears ,
What words can tell ?  what  tone can make you listen and  feel ?
To speak , no one is a listener!
To scream , no one is safer!
Bruises everywhere , empty letters ,
When to change ? when to live ? when to laugh ?
An unanswered questions!!
What destiny hide is the Answer,
Sad , is what I am now, I'm misunderstood,
When will it be good and better?!
To Erase the emptiness, it's so bitter!!

Do you know what it feels like when you cry alone
remembering the worst and you suffer on your own
Do you know what it feels like when you love and no one cares
stupid words comes out and never forget what he says
Do you know what it feels like when  you are the best friend for everyone
but you can't find just one friend beside you in a need
Do you know what it feels like when  you remember them all
and your soul is always forgotten
Do you know what it feels like when  you forgive every mistaken
but you are the one to blame for a misunderstand
Do you know what it feels like when  you give the best
and you always get the worst
Do you know what it feels like when  you wish to die for something is not even worth it
Do you know what it feels like when  you are born just  for they make fun of you
and can't back it and Accept everything Against my will
No , No , no one knows those feelings .........
Life is so beautiful
but people are so awful

If this life only gonna make me feel sad
If this life gonna show me only the dark side
If this life gonna bring me down
Sorry this is not me
I can't just go and hide
Sorry Icant surrender
I'm following the shining side
I was young
And everybody was so cruel
Everybody was so rude
I was so good just for their ego
I wanna change my life
I wanna leave so far far away
to a place where doors are open
AND NO ONE IS BROKEN

I hate my life
nothing is right
no one feel me
no one understand me
no one love me
I hate my life
every one make me feel sad
every one make me hate myself
every one want me to leave
I hate my life ...

I have the chance to live
I have to believe
life is beautiful
nothing is impossibel
there's no limits
I have the chance to live
and I have to believe
dreams come true
live . smile . forget . forgive . dream . that what I'm gonna do
I'll free my mind
I'll give a break to my heart
I have the chance to live
I have to believe
I have to be fearless
I have to take my chances
people can't bring me down
let them say what they want
I'll live my life
I'll forget the rest
and leave it behind
I cant be blind
not anymore
I'm gonna be fine
I'm sure
I have the chance to live
and I have to believe

To be happy you have to live
to live you have to choose to be happy
no one can live in sadness .. in sadness you can't laugh . or smile . or imagine . or be somehow free . or enjoy moments in your personal life ...
all you can do  when you are sad is to cry . hope and wish to die ..
in 5 words .. YOU ARE DONE WITH LIFE ..
So I just choose to be happy
I got a family a really great friends .. I'm Alive Thank you my God(Alhamdulillah)

I made a mistake that I told a friend what is wrong with me !!
I made a mistake that I told a friend what I'm suffering from !!
I made a mistake that I listened to a friend
I made a mistake that I showed how I live
I feel pathetic for myself
I was blind and I shared my secret
stupid things happened in stupid period of life
MOM DAD I LOVE YOU !

now and then I wish if I'm dead
now and then I wish if I'm not even born
now and then I wish if can leave
now and then I wish if I can stop everything and change it
now and then I wish if I'm alone
but after all this I have to thank God for this gift that I'm alive
all I can do is to pray and ask God to make my life better
because I'm sad , I'm misunderstood , I'm ignored , I'm confused
I'm not living I'm just surviving !

I give my best to make them satisfied
I do what ever it takes just to see them smile
I never say no if they ask me to do a favor
I never turn my bach to them
Is it the truth ; can you tell me if I'm a good friend?!
But I never found a friend beside me in my need
They turn all against me !!
what  I did to them ?!
Is it the truth ; they want me just for their egos ?!
am I good just for their needs?!
I guess yes ; it's the truth ; there's no good friend in my life except the Only ONE  . My best friend
He's not like the rest in my life
He always try to make me smile ; and I do the same ..
nothing can change this relation which last forever ... (I hope)
Its the truth .. There's a best friends in life..
Its time to change this life I live
All I need is my BEST FRIEND
True ; honest ; funny ... is my best friend.
Yes it's the truth .. I don't need others want just when they need something .... who wants them
they don"t last forever
yes it's the truth .. I only want to live beside my Best Friend ... and I'll stay beside him .. I'll do What ever it takes .. for him <3

I'm here ; standing in the middle
I hear ; voices saying that I don't know who I Am
and I don't know what to believe
I don't want to go home
I want to be here
for long time ; I want to be on my own
I have this feeling right now
all I wished is to be happy
because every thing is crazy
I should fight to survive
because I'm so weak
But I will strive to learn to stay alive

we;we don't have to think a lot
we ; we have to be strong
life is only a big ride
we ; we made mistakes
but with those mistakes memories made
why we can't live in peace
why we have to see those tearse
can we just stop for a while and look around?!
life is only a big ride
we can't just hide
our hearts are blind
life is only big ride
we need to find peace and give love to the world ..

empty life , no joy no love
even all those friends in my empty life
till i meet one person ; felt so happy
makes me feel better ; makes me feel the life
we spent the most beutiful moments ever
he is my best friend..my best friend
he's like the sun shine..
he back the smile to me every time i feel sad
he back the love when i'm broken at two
he back the joy when i'm not fine
he's my best friend..my best friend
i promise that you are in my heart forever
i promise that i renember you all the time
i promise that i'll give  the world for you


because you are my best friend <3

Close ur eyes
feel the darkness of the nights
forget all the fights
start new dream
i know its not easy .. let it out .. scream
what cause you pain
will teach u somthing .. a lesson to gain
that voice in ur head . **** **** ****
free your mind don't drink that pill
pain will fade away
Bruises ... for life will stay
Don"t make the wrong move
you'll regret it night and day
advice sister , Brother
start new dream
Live .. forget .. Love .. Feel .. believe

peace begins with your soul
know who you are ; be free, open your door
then take it home
Spread the calm and the hope
peace begins with your soul
then start at home
till it moves to people
truly; no one live in peace
Everyone hates; they live just for Their interest, everyone has his own war
there's seven billion people around the world
but with fourteen billion faces an no honest word
try to find peace in your heart
peace begins with your soul
then start at home
till it moves to people
then it comes to the world
world ! there's nothing , not even a simple thing make us think or see there's peace in the universe
wherever you look
wherever you turn
you'll find wars , conflict ; tears , blood
you'll find death
where can we find peace
we must make it
stop crying , stop those tears
be fair ; be honest; be true
stop hating; start loving
be strong ; feel it for long
why we have to learn how to fight
why we have to see kids die
it suppose that the army its for protection so why all these wars ?
it supposed kids grow up in peace
peace will start with me
then will feel it everywhere
peace begins with your soul
then start at home
till it moves to people
then it comes to the world
we are so close to the edge
for better life make peace

In middle of the night
Wake up scared from a nightmare
The body shake and feel cold and afraid
A monster under that little bed
Is happy to make you feel unsafe
Laughing at loud and the heartbeat is getting faster and faster
Save me , get me out of this darkness
No , no one is there for you , no one is listening to you
You are alone ;
The silence and the calm is covering the house but that little room no one can know what's inside it
The monster comes out just to say .. your life is  full of many little monsters
Now they are friends but someday time will show you the truth
The sun has risen and beast is gone and my eyes and my body relaxed

we're born !
then we die !
so what is the point in all the suffering in between
I can't understand the goal of life
I'm to young to cry all that much
All I wished is to have a simple happy life
I'm so tired of suffering from everything
I'm miserable