the boy behind the screen
he sends you words in advance
"i will never leave you"

he says i will write you a story
or a poem or a promise
whatever you need to hear

mail arrives in the morning
never the one to hesitate
"you are the one i call home"

he arrives two years later
in his eyes, tears and disgust
"i hope you know by now"
words are only words
we should never trust

he leaves you hanging
on the same story
or poem or promise
or disguise

you only hear the ringing
at the other end
the boy who promised to stay behind
he was just a boy
at the end of the line
who made you want to die
another mistake to waste your time

he is still just a boy
not even a man
not brave enough to look behind

we are inconsistencies
both hope and despair
as we exist only to die.

I've been awake past four
No longer in a state of melodrama
When words are no longer weapons
And time is not your friend
We passed by each other tonight
You made a joke about bringing me home
It's funny how you forget so easily
Tell my friends and i to come over
Like nothing happened
It's funny how you made me fall
Apart from what was real
And what was a joke
All the words you took
Just to rip me apart
It's funny how you forget
How you made me feel
Tell my friends and i to come over
Like nothing happened
Maybe you are more miserable than me
And you are as lonely as you try not to be

to be as fleeting as moments
it was what we always wanted
but we are fools
to assign our fate on things
as fragile as feelings

to be as fleeting as chances
taken out from time
unfolding
every second
it was all we ever spoke of

but we were fools
to assign our decisions
on things and ideas
as volatile as alcohol
as shallow as sea shores
and youth led us
to believe

stay safe and hidden
in my arms you’ve built a dream
when the cold is too much
i'm another breath for you
the warmth never runs out

fingers trailing on hips
poking surfaces with fingertips
smudged lipstick on pale cheeks
rumaging through strands of hair

i pick at thoughts through eyes
and they are too honest
forgive me for wanting too much
when you were all that i wanted

freedom to feel
within embraces
regain pureness
real and revealed

I am the girl in the corner
The one you simply don’t see
Years of perfected camouflage
So you will never notice me

I don’t make any ripples
Wouldn’t dare step out of line
Nobody can hear my voice
I hope that they will sometime

I live in a world of fear
I’m not sure why I’m afraid
I have found inside my head
The place where nightmares are made

A place buried deep within
Filled full of darkness and dread
Breaching the edge of reason
And icy cold like the dead

Visions writhing and ghostly
Fleeting outside of my grasp
Yet returning to haunt me
I breathe pain in a silent gasp

I want to be comfortably numb
All the way down to my core
Not to feel all this heartache
Not to know hurt anymore

Pills and ***** can’t save me
Why can’t you hear when I scream
Desperate depressed and lost
In a land of broken dreams

It whispers in blood
Makes a flute of our bones
Makes vapor of sweat
It hums and it groans
It's a static in hair
Has a life of its own
We're empty without it
As cold as a stone

It has passion to warm
Has tongues that can talk
It will help to confirm us
To Christ and his walk
It's a Shepherd to guide us
It can heal the flock
It can chastise us
Can You Feel the shock?

O ohhhh... FIRE! (2X8)

It refines by its heat
Like a stone in a mill
It crushes the wheat
It can comfort & fill
It gives courage to hearts
Teaches us to be still
It's grace, it is art
It's simply God's will...

It goes up in red sparks
It's an eternal flame
Will press into the mark
And won't leave us ashamed
Convince with one word
Won't leave us the same
It's not going to change
And I AM is its NAME...

O ohhhh! FIRE! (2X8)

[BRIDGE]
It'll melt solid rock
Or is cold as the snow
From God's heaven above
Or from Hades below...

O ohhhh! FIRE! (2X10)


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