purple is the the first day of october, when
strangers eats your bones for breakfast and
your mother calls you beautiful for the first time
purple is every corner you've ever passed
with your friends and family
with cigarettes and candy
purple is him looking at you but seeing
a child that smells like museums in France
purple is the bitter taste of dry wine
and a fragile boy you once knew so well
purple is loving someone who
will never love
you back

Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored
Bored Bored Bored extremely bored
still pretty bored bye

I want to be beautiful
I want to be smart
I want to be strong
I want to be kind
I want to be talented
I want to be brave
I'm scared of the person I may become
I want to be someone else
I want to love myself
No stop
I am beautiful
and I'm not fake
I am smart
smarter than I think
I am strong
strong as an ox
I am kind
gentle and fair
I am talented
arts and music are where its at
I am brave
I've gone through so much yet I'm still here
I like the person I have become
I want to be myself
not anyone else
I love myself
and everything I am
yes I may be different
a little crazy I might add
But I'm happy with who I am
You don't have to like me
but please don't take
as long as I did to realize
all those good qualities
love yourself
because of you
not because of what others make you out to be

Before I was even born
my dad got a dog
A bull mastiff
He was the sweetest
he wasn't supposed to
live past
8 weeks
but he prevailed
he was my brother
he was my best friend
I put my trust into him
He laid his head on me
I was too young
to understand
why he had to leave
now its been six years
and I still miss him
could you blame me
He sits on my Dad's night
stand
in a gold tin
he lies on my dad's shoulder
in permanent ink
he stands near me
in a picture
actually quite a few
he holds a place
a huge one
in my heart
his name was Dozer
and this is for him

If you need something
or maybe you're down
were they being mean?
please turn around
don't try and flee
put away that frown
come just come to me
There is no need to fear
don't shed a tear
baby your makeup will smear
anything you need my dear
I'll be here

No I'm not perfect
not even close
when I made breakfast this morning
I burnt my toast
But no matter what
I will try my best
to at least be somewhat
decent

I can't wait until you no longer utter those three words

I Gotta Go

I long for the day that we ALWAYS leave together to go to our place

I want to sit on our couch and watch our tv together

I want to cook for you in our kitchen

I want to sit in our backyard and have drinks together

I want to shower with you in our bathroom

I want to hold you and fall asleep with you in our bed

I want to randomly dance with you in our bedroom and our living room and our kitchen

I want to create beautiful art with you in our basement

Please be patient baby so we can share OUR lives together! I promise it will be worth the wait. I love you baby!

She cries late
                  every night
     Turns off all the
                           lights
         Sits in bed
bawls
             her eyes out
      in the dark
Cutting out pieces
      of her heart
No one can see
                          the scars
           of her sewing
back up her chest
       Soon she will be
             an empty shell
        Hopefully
                    putting her soul to rest
If her heart
                    is no longer there
It can't get broken,
              right?
If no one can see
                          the tears
Then she never cried,
                     right?

Hello... I just want to let you know
that they shouldn't matter
whatever they say.
I don't know where you are
or what you're doing
if your married
or if you have any kids
if you're even out of school yet
but I wanted to let you know
you do matter
to so many great wonderful people
the people that matter will stay in your life
if they want to leave they don't matter
follow your heart
and everything else will follow quickly behind
keep doing what you love even if you ****
be smart
stay beautiful
love people who love you
it does get better remember that
it may be a little bad now
but it will get better
I love you
-Emily 6-18-14

Dear you, yes I'm speaking to you.
Did you know you're special
talented, pretty,smart,
and superb. You're everything
I wish I could be yet you don't
want to be you.
You're funny and witty.
Someone who will let me
cry on their shoulder.
You're strong and courageous.
The light at the end of the darkest tunnel.
I love you I promise till the end of time.
I'll be here to wipe away your tears and say.
Baby, you're beautiful way too much to cry I love you
princess chin up buttercup :