I use to think I was cool listening to Tupac songs
But now I know i was cool for not long
I was born in a world full of hate
Maybe I was just born too late

I thought I was like Superman feeling invincible
Now I look at myself knowing I'm just invisible
I always wonder if I will get my **** together
Or will i slip in insanity and stay there forever

When I need to of my feelings I turn to poems
Every time i do I feel lonesome
If I died today would you miss me
If I say I love you would you kiss me

Not a day pass by that I think about leaving
Disappearing without a trace while everyone is sleeping
When I was younger I was too focus on the world
Now I'm too focus on looking for that special girl

I wonder if my mother would ever trust me again
I know I've been causing her a lot of pain
I wonder if my father ever wanted any kids
I know job is harder than he can bid
I wonder if my brother saw me a a big figure
I know the hits I gave him on his body still linger

These are are the words i want to say
But I know they are words i would never say
because I'm afraid of people will think
Watch me be gone when you blink

I am a sinner
Never a winner
I always cheat on test
and always called a pest

I am the blame
For this extinguishing flame
I will never live life to the fullest
I am always the smallest

I'm living in despair
Always known it was never fair
I take the gun and put it towards my head
spraying the walls and bed with a warm dark red

I feel the shadows crawling on me
It is pitch black so I cannot see
It is quiet and lonely here
The two things I mostly fear

But somehow I find it peaceful
No Pain, no suffering, nothing lethal
It feels like I've accomplish something
No more *******, no more complaining, no more whining

So this is what it feels of something I long for
So this is what it feels of something i couldn't wait no more
Death feels so **** great
Maybe it was my fate

To end something I couldn't love no more
It's a pain i felt that was too sore

This is a thing i hate to say
But now there's no other way
For those who I have told lies
These are my final goodbyes