You are my sleepless nights
You're my 2 am cigarette
I lay myself down and you seap in
Your sent lingers in my pillows
And wakes my soul as it travels through..
Your eyes branded on the walls around
They watch as you tear through my tired body
I feel your smile sending twisted chills to all nerve endings
You run marathons inside my head as I try to still...
And I give in to you
Staring at the ceiling watching the time pass feeling the sleepless nights rising with the sun
Your the ringing in my ears when all is silent
You're all of the mistakes I want to make
But until I meet you.
You'll remain just another sleepless night ceiling staring dying to dream and rest my eyes

And so she poured into me like nothing I'd ever dreamed
She seaped in.. cementing every crack every hole,  flowing in streams
But her cement was temporary
A quick fix
She was a Poisoned peach.. Bittersweet
She was lust dancing around a masquerade ball
She wore love... a mask  
Revealing only her eyes,
And so she poured into me
Like hopes of sunny yesterday's  
But yesterday hasn't happened yet
And my veins are still bloodied from her salted tears
and so she poured into me without fears or cares or hopes or dreams she poured into me because she needed a place to hide for awhile
But awhile isn't forever
And when yesterday finally does come she's already gone and you are emptiness
So don't love her don't you dare
Cas she's just lust and love was never really there
But if you do and she does
Keep a threaded needle in the seems of your palms to stich up the ruins of your now blistered heart of hurt....

And so she poured into me like nothing I'd ever dreamed
She seaped in.. cementing every crack every hole,  flowing in streams
But her cement was temporary
A quick fix
She was a Poisoned peach.. Bittersweet
She was lust dancing around a masquerade ball
She wore love... a mask  
Revealing only her eyes,
And so she poured into me
Like hopes of sunny yesterday's  
But yesterday hasn't happened yet
And my veins are still bloodied from her salted tears
and so she poured into me without fears or cares or hopes or dreams she poured into me because she needed a place to hide for awhile
But awhile isn't forever
And when yesterday finally does come she's already gone and you are emptiness
So don't love her don't you dare
Cas she's just lust and love was never really there
But if you do and she does
Keep a threaded needle in the seems of your palms to stich up the ruins of your now blistered heart of hurt....

I quake beneath the unforgiving weight of your stare
Your eyes soft like cracked pavement..
barefoot under the hot sun I walk grasping hold of the invitation
And your hand
I feel my fears expanded in your palms
But still I follow
Red.. my wrists suspended above my head tied tight with ribon and excite
The silence of your gaze requesting my heart to race
Naked I lay now blind to your touch
Your lips press against mine
Poisoned ivy
As they travel down my soulful corpse
The tips of your fingers are ice cold arousing every inch of my interest
Your breath is the only sound that exists as I follow it down an unfamiliar path
Perplexed by the freedom I feel with broken arms and sight less eyes
I gain deliverance bound by your control
Reality pauses as you turn me over
My face against your pillow
The sweet smell of sleepless nights takes shelter in me
A foreign fabric familiar to hair finds its way down my twisted spine
Slowly yet all at once chills course about my body
Brisk is the gust of broken air as it arrives
My skin is met
Whipped by desire
I scream and let out a sigh of peaceful pain
Freeing me from guilt regret n sorrow
Each lash peeling the weight of the world from my shoulders

Your name is like champagne
Bubbly crisp refreshing
Your body is like red wine
Cabernet.. a few more glasses closer to numbing my pain
Your voice is like brandy                  
Cognac... a few more sips to settle in an alternate universe
Your kiss is like Tennessee honey
Whiskey.. a few more shots to keep the branch of thorns tight around my frail heart
Your soul is like smirnoff
*****... wild and ice cold      
You are exotic eccentric exciting
And I am nothing more than a cheap beer from a ****** bar.. hanging from a chain tied to your rist... along for the wrong ride

My existence is sad I live a life in which my fantasy is more pain stricken than reality...  
The thought that you could ever love me...
You don't know what you do to
me...  
Your breath chills my porous mind...  
Time stands still and I swing from the rope that's tied to your smile
This love is the worst kind
Bitter sweet
Swollen with pride  
My body moves relentlessly fast while my thought are stuck in the ******* of my past  
i hate you      
No I don't hate you but I  pray to God I gain the will to  
I hate your eyes and the way they
consume me
I hate your soul and the way that it fuels me    
I hate everything about you but somehow your still all I need

The hours pass it's gone too fast and all I do is lie awake the clock ticks slow but the minutes don't last like they used to years have moved right along and they waved goodbye as I tried not to cry and all  these feelings Ive strung along there's nothing left of me to remember this pain is all I've ever known yet a smile 's still the only thing I've ever shown how am I supposed to feel how am I to know your real my heart is much to drunk on hate and how do I grow ******* faith      could there really be a light am I wasting all my time is there more than this monster in this mind that shows me horror and confusion I can't bare to sleep I'm still waiting to awake from this nightmare forgetting to breathe only gets easier when everything you've ever known to be right has suddenly all been wrong and I don't know that I'll ever be strong enough to save me from myself