I shiver
From the cold emptiness
I quiver
From disgrace

I cry
But I try not to
I die
Slowly everyday

I don't know how to deal
With myself anymore
I dont know why I feel
The way I do

Uncomfortable
In my skin
Hurt
I'll never win

You don't notice
My swollen red eyes
You don't hear
My loud muffled cries

You're too busy
Laughing at my face
You're too busy
Calling me a big disgrace

And as I lay
In the cold bathtub
I wash away the hurt
With the razor I scrub

Over and over
I continue to clean
Because skin with no marks
Is skin with no gleam

Running and hiding
Is my only escape
The darkness and shadows
Shut my mouth with tape

The silent screams
That I make
Aren't heard by a single soul
Because they're all fake

I covered my lips
With that beautiful red paint
I rubbed at face
I feel the taint

It's stuck in my heart
Forever it will stay
And hurting myself
Is the only way

That I can be free
For a moment
Of this misery
But it won't last

Because it's my life
Stabbing me in the back again
With that sharp knife
Held by me

I lied,
To fit in.
I cried,
Deep within.

She looked at me,
With such shame.
He looked at me,
Because I was to blame.

Mother father,
I do apologize.
All this talking behind my back,
Made me realize;

It isn't worth it,
To follow her path,
I will never fit in;
So I won't even try.

Just go back,
And chase after her;
Look at all of the qualities that I lack;
But don't ever judge her;

Because this pain keeps me alive;
Because it's the only way I can survive;

No matter how hard I try,

No matter how loud I scream,

You won't leave me alone,

Even in my dreams.

You tend to follow me,

Everywhere I go.

What do I have to do,

To make you a little slow?

I know you won't just leave;

Trying to make me pull up my sleeve.

Calling out my name,

Trying to pull me in,

This fight is almost over,

And your about to win.

How much do I need to bleed?

For you to finally read,

I dont want you here,

You are the one thing, that I always fear.

Oh hurt, pain, and sorrow.

Why won't you just leave me alone?

No matter how much I cry,

No matter how many times I wish to die,

You'll always follow me.

You won't let me escape.

I tried so hard to fit in.
These scars are my proof;
I didn't cut myself,
And that's the truth.

When I cover my arms,
It's to hide all that you've done.
Why dont you understand;
That this isn't really fun.

Do you not realize how much your words have changed me?
Me, the girl who was always carefree.
I was broken down and torn apart;
You might think that this is the end, but oh no, it's just the start.

My face shall haunt you,
Till it's you who feels what I felt.
You'll try and hide your scars,
But eventually you will melt.

It's your fault I ended my life;
It's your fault i'm dead;
All you can do is think about me, before you go to bed.

Now you take my place, as a shadow on the wall;
And hear every word as I did while you fall.

You thought you were up in the sky,
But now you realize you can't fly.

Don't worry though,
I forgave you a long time ago.

The pain, the tears, the words don't hurt me anymore.

I am in the sky, free as my wings now help me soar.