When he left she decided;
Dying didn’t sound so bad after all

They’re all happy.

Your expectations are a plate I cannot finish
I eat until I am full
Until I am sick
What they say is food
feels to me like poison
I try to leave the table
But my plate is still unfinished
Eat
But I am full
My stomach can not handle
The words you try to feed me
They are watching
Plates are empty
But their portions are smaller
Don’t you understand
It’s not possible
Anything is possible
Those words will bring more suffering
And I will eat them until I *****
Every morsel of food expelled onto the table
The neatly folded napkins in disarray
The disdainful looks
What my body did to heal me
Is what lead them to disgust
I am now alone at the table
empty as I was

Strange stares from across the street?
Nothing I can do about that but just take a seat.
I try and try just to get by
But instead I get judged and criticized from that guy.
These people around me create my backstory
Making me unsatisfactory.
Don’t ask me if I steal,
Don’t ask me if I deal.
I want to keep safe, before it’s too late,
But I guess I will just have to wait.