You're my lovely muse.
I hum along to your words.
I wish you knew me.

     -*KM

You're my entire universe- all my thoughts revolve around you, the way that the Earth revolves around the Sun. And to you, I'm just another person that you'll soon forget- yet another dying star hovering around in your night sky.

I think I'm falling in love.
Falling hurts.
If I want to fall,
I'll just jump off a building.
Same results.
The fear,
the rush of adrenaline,
The euphoria,
the pain,
and then,
the nothing.

But what if this time,
What if it's different?
But it couldn't be,
Because you don't see me.
But I see you,
I see you entirely.
I see your imperfections,
And I see your doubts,
And I except your limitations.
I think you're beautiful.
But you can't see me.
The look I get,
When I stare into your eyes,
The small smile.
It's only me.
I'm alone,
At the verge of free fall.

Wind was smooth,
And the kite, flying high.
And me, in full control of the kite,
I assume.

The kite above,
like a paint brush.
The  sky beneath it,
like a canvas.

The string pulled me,
towards the kite.
I was attracted,
I give in.

But the wind got gusty,
The string snapped.
The kite flew away,
Like She did.

The kite,
No longer with me.
But still pulls me,
Like She does.

should i say you cloud up my mind with thoughts of you and only you?
should i say the way you **** me off is the same reason i’m falling?
should i say that i like it better when you laugh your *** off instead of forming these weird little wrinkles on your forehead?
should i say the sound of your name makes me nervous and uncertain?
should i say that i want to be the one to make your doubts disappear and your fears dissolve into thin air?
should i tell you that you don’t have to get me drunk to make me lose myself in you?
i guess not, they wouldn’t matter anyway

Me
I quickly tap my screen to respond to your message
"I'm absolute garbage and I love you."

You
Your fingers softly brush against the keys as you type out your reply,
"You're absolutely beautiful garbage and I love you more."

Me
I thought that things would be different with you; you were so much more compassionate
"I think I'm in love with you."

You
You hesitate as you read my message, unaware of the stars that were forming in my mind at the mere thought of you
"I'm not in love with you."

Me
I read the message with my brimming eyes and soon enough, I hear the explosions in my ear of the galaxies that once formed when you told me I was an unexplainable force of nature that everyone was wary of.
I also hear the slow thudding of my heart in my ears before everything fades away and becomes numb.

You*
You sit there, quiet and in deep thought
You heard the planets imploding all the way from your bedroom
But all you did was shrug, shake your head and turn up your music.

one day you're going to feel beyond your body
a transcendent feeling that your soul cannot utter a word
and your eyes forgot what was real and what was a dream
like there living a story from your childhood books
flying like a fairy or a dragon with flame-throwing breaths
and your hands will fail grasping your body
and then music will flow though the waves and particles of light
travelling in its own speed but you still can see it
like everything is in slow motion
like everything is unreal

but right now,
everything is in your safe zone
the way the things in your room feels like a prison
and the sound of your heartbeat is the only thing your ears could trust
like the doors were locked
the windows are shut, there is no escaping
you've danced your way into your own travesty
and it keeps you feeling, and the feeling is changing
they may say that change is good
but they also lie to your face, nothing is still real
a different kind of sensation of blackness in the middle of the day
emptying, frustrating, wilding

but one day, you will feel special
hope for it, wait for it