It’s not enough to say
I could tell you of the stars I saw
But that would leave out the ones who heard me too
I could describe the pain
But it might not sound as sad as what happened to you

I decided to watch some candles burn
It’s the way they share themselves
But then they’re gone forever as is the moment they lit
We were the same but wax is not love
Now I have to light another one to help me forget

I started to pray but then I stopped
I wanted you to decide on your own
The way water falls is to not worry which way to go
Living like that washes away the past
But when I flooded your eyes with sadness you said no

I’m floating on a lake filled by my imagination
I waded beyond the shores of acceptance to find inner inspiration
The deeper it becomes the easier it is to be me
I didn’t think about who you’re with because it is only the sky I can see

Sometimes it feels like we are so close
Our arms around each other whispering about old thorns without a rose
I was in the middle of a dream without a bed
I finally remembered why you left but forgot the things that you said

How can so many years seem so short?
That’s what happens when you don’t believe in goodbye
You live and pretend to walk on water
It’s how you convince yourself you never did tell a lie

When we first met it was so easy
Whatever we wanted happened because we wanted to be happy
It was the water quiet at our feet
Nothing made us worry because it wasn’t the way people usually meet

How can so many years seem so long?
That’s what happens when you have to wait out a new love
You die and sink in a lake full of regret
It’s how you know honesty wasn’t what you were made of

You can never promise it will be the way it was
They know you too well to believe that story again
It’s when the wind blows and the rain falls that life begins
If you tell her then maybe she’ll believe the story didn’t end

How can so many years mean so much?
That’s what happens floating between below and above
You live and die until you decide which one you prefer
Then you know if you’re ready to walk again for love

I used to think of myself as you saw me
More trouble than worth
But the night air always makes you follow

All I wanted was what I knew how to be
I try every day but it’s not an easy thing for me
But most days are going to have to be good enough
Because some days
The things you say are not the things I see
Some days
You forget all the things you once told me

I used to think of you as a moth to a flame
More magnetic than north
But to touch you is to lay awake nursing my wounds

All you ever wanted was to be the one for me
You tried every day but I’m not easy for you to see
But most days are going to have to be good enough
Because some days
The things I say are not the things you need
Some days
I forget all the things you want me to be

I used to think of us as something to believe
More spirit than earth
But we both walk upon the same shifting sands

All we wanted was what we knew how to be
We tried every day but it’s not easy for you or me
But most days are going to have to be good enough
Because some days
The things we say are not the things we see
Some days
We forget all the things we said we would be

The nights take care of themselves now
You decided you can trust me
I’m not going to carry an empty bag
Then leave you at the curb

We reflect upon each other
Your eyes the sunset
Mine the sunrise
Your blood mingles with mine at noon

I know what I should
It’s not trying to ****** your past
I don’t want to sleep with all of that
That’s why I call you baby

A heavy load is what we dropped off
It's not our problem anymore
Waking up, not worrying about the day
It's something to talk about later on

I was hoping you could sing
I wanted everybody to be amazed by you
But what only I can hear inside you
Is why you’re my rock star

The sun rose again this morning
Though it cares not how I feel
And when we part in sorrow
It is the moon that helps me heal
Though it whispers calm assurance
Sometimes I cannot believe it’s real
So I wait until the sun rises tomorrow
To know what truth the light shall reveal

I thought of God
And what kind of mind could create life
In all its complexity
To make a river run the length of a continent
To divide the land by the oceans
To contain the life giving breath of air
And I thought how easy for him
There was nothing I can do to compare
Except to love my children
It is so natural
So easy
So joyous
And that must have been how it was for him
And yet to love such as this requires no thought
No planning
No greatness in me
Because he gave me that gift
And it is greater than any mountain
Any deluge
Any evil that I must resist
It is his greatest miracle
For in my weakness
Is his strength
And in his strength
Is my love

She was going to set me free
A soul mate at night
The love born in my arms
But she could only hurt herself

She was going to save my soul
She acted like she knew how
I couldn’t walk on water
But she knew how to set it on fire

I let love divide me up inside
So many hands have been discarded
I’m still ready to cut the deck
But somebody has to pick it up

You will never know
How good it could be with me
You're a fantasy loving another man
Unable to believe in herself

She was going to think about it
I was the home she almost bought
Until I said it wasn’t for sale
Now the sign is back up in the yard

I let love tell me how to live
Could I fall in love with anyone
Or is it that I don’t understand?
I’m ready to listen to you again

I read your book
I listened to your radio station
What you forgot about me
Is nothing is just conversation

I'm paying attention
I hear everything you say
When you don't tell me what I want to hear
I figure you meant it that way

You didn't talk about missing me
Or love at the end of the night
I'm not gonna' convince you
You already know if it's right

You might be wanting new
If that's what you want to do
Then be brave this time
Walk alone for once baby
And see if he comes along for you

I know I'm laying in a drawer
And you keep me inside your head
I'm out here and I know you
Love didn't tell you we were dead

I already know what you like
And you're crazier than he knows
Maybe you want him to find out
Maybe you're wearing new clothes

You didn't talk about missing me
Or love at the end of the night
I'm not gonna' convince you
You already know if it's right

I'm very glad
Very glad to be so temporary
It is my choice
Not to be temporary
But to be glad
Maybe not very
But glad all the same

Temporary is a way to describe it
Fated is another
Common
Like everyone
Born to a mother
The same entrance to life

Then some good
Some bad
Like everyone
Choices
Mistakes
But nothing is clear
Because it always changes

What should we do

Love someone
Before you get old
Before you think of the next place
Yes
Try love
Not just your children
Or your parents

Yes
Try love

It is just like life
Temporary
A fire inside
Desire
Then belief
Comfort
If you are lucky

But love is not always returned
Life is not always kind
In fact
Life is cruel if anything at all
It's just a state

Temporary

Not a thing
Not a memory
Not an emotion
Not consciousness

All of that is you

Life is just a way of describing it

Like temporary
A way to describe it

Yes I'm glad
That is my choice
Rational
In the madness
Grateful
In the tragedy
Settled
In the waiting

It's ok
It has to be

what is old is new,
when it is discovered by children;
what is life is no longer true,
when a wise man’s words are carelessly spoken;
the age of purpose can only be measured
by the circumstance and pain of its birth;
but to send an olive branch,
flying into a storm created by your own breath;
is to send a message that cannot be accepted,
and to ask for forgiveness that cannot be expected;
for who would send kindness to its death,
except the one who never knew its worth

I cannot build a pyramid
I cannot imagine how
Except to dig a hole
But I’m already in one
So why dig another?

I’ve never wanted to run away
Especially without love by my side
But I cannot believe what I hear anymore
Lying is the new morality
I thought of it
But I know what is true when it comes to you

I can tell how hard you are trying to forget me
But you can’t if it has become your life
I know everything about you
At least what you decided to show me
Again you brought me to the brink
So close without admitting it
Was it to tell me what I could not have
Or was it to find out something you did not know

Yes I can
Yes I can
Yes I can
Whatever it was that you asked
Even though I really didn’t know
Yes I can
And I did

We swam together
Our bodies were submerged
Our faces like swans
It was as if we knew one another
The beauty was a reminder
But the way you swam away was too

The temptation of you is greater than ever
But so is the will that I have to live my life
You made me wait as I did you
In a game of getting even
We only fooled each other
But we knew that already
Because true love is that way

I know everything that you want
My heart needs to be next to yours
It needs to see you from the inside
That’s the only way love can be sure

But heaven was never as good as your touch
When I see you I can think of nothing else
I want to make love to you again baby
Inside, where my heart and body melts

The last time we walked in the room
You never smiled so much
The only light we needed was in your eyes
While your eyelashes told me not to rush

I tried so hard to take my time
Then you whispered this time it's for you baby
That’s when I knew we really were in love
Even with closed eyes your heart was all I could see

It's not how you said it
It's you made me feel
Was it that I believed you
It was how you looked at me
And you lingered
As if you would stay forever
If that was what I needed
On the long way down
If you take your time
The bottom will wait for you
It is how we land on our feet
The way to take another chance
Is when nothing left to lose
Is the moment you were waiting for
But a last look around the room
Was how I knew you cared

It wasn’t good enough for you to leave
You wouldn’t even leave a photograph
You know the one I’m talking about
It’s the one of you before you met me

I thought about how you might have felt
Before the love of your life happened
You once thought that was somebody else
Now you know that’s not really true is it?

We can wait all night
We can wait five years
That’s what a picture will do
Make it seem like it’s right around the corner
But you took it with you
Yeah you took it with you

I’m not really going insane over here
That’s for people who don’t know what they want
I have this memory that keeps things clear
So you keep it until you come back to me

I can’t get that photograph back
I can’t get it and I can’t get you
You don’t know why I loved that picture
It’s just gonna’ have to be my little secret
But if I have you then I want your past too

We can wait all night
We can wait five years
That’s what a picture can do
Make it seem like you never really left
But you took it with you
Yeah you had to take it with you

I don't know if he loves you more
I don't know how he makes you feel
I just know I saw tears in your eyes
From happiness that could not laugh

There was nothing left for you to give
You were everything a woman could be
And now you are gone away with him
How can it be true that there is more?

When we kissed you drew me near
The blood in your hands was mine
Not from a heart that was breaking
But the flesh where you buried your past

You never did belong to me my love
But desire was in the palm of my hand
Our exhaustion was all that was true
I won't ask, I know you remember

I could follow the rising moon
But there's nothing special about that
I'm not the only one
Sand upon which we walk
Stones which we throw
Stars which we watch
There's enough for everybody
One for each of us
I think I'll just give you mine
Take it
It's yours
What's the point of sharing something so common
Unless it's love

Take me home Lord or please leave me be
It's hard enough alone why can't you see?
You gave me time to live and time to be free
So let me suffer my own way so I can be me

Say something Lord so we know you're there
I don't need miracles just a sign that you care
My friends are crying from sorrow and despair
Help us as we wait on a horn blowing in the air

Take me or leave me
Bless me or reject me
Which one will it be
Tell me now Lord
Is it flesh or a soul you see?

Believing was hard even for a disciple
Their nets were full and loaves were plentiful
But they were afraid and could not be faithful
Forgive me for my weak heart is always sinful

I won't make promises anymore I can't keep
The last one I broke made someone weep
I pray now to the one who washed John's feet
And drink the wine and bread he served to eat

Take me or leave me
Doubt me or believe me
Which one will it be
Tell me now Lord
When will decide about me?

There's a change
In our world today
I wonder if it's me
I know so much
Was it my youth
I just didn't care
Or is it really true
We've lost our touch

There's a change
In the way I love
I'm sure it's me
But I think of you
You seem happy
You've been sad
Now you're not
Being single is you

It's alright though
We grow different
But it's the same
We cope it's true
So much happens
We live for a while
Then we're a story
Tell me about you

Play some gospel
It shines a light
But I'm not asking
For the sea to part
It's just a feeling
I cannot explain
It's inside of me
But not your heart

Why is there so much hate
   when each of us loves someone?
Why is there so little love
   when we all feel love on the inside?
Why did I have to lose you
   to know all the things I did wrong?
Why did I have to lose you
   to know what I should have known?
Why can life mean so little
   when losing someone means so much?
Why can I live without you
   when I love you more than life?

How many times do you not know?
I would want to know
The blood that was taken from you
Was there all along
I would want to know
And now you do
So you can live another way
Unless you've become what you thought you knew
It's so hard to change
Believing something
That's all it is
A belief
But who said it was forever?

Hope cannot live for a reflection
When a shadow always seems to follow
Your misty watery eyes warned me
About clouds that stretch as far as tomorrow
I saw your image skip across the water
How could something so deep be so shallow
But when the rain shattered the glass
I realized you only wanted me to see your sorrow

Let me make you feel alive again
All you have to do is listen my love
Feel the power of my breath upon you
It is not the whisper of a grieving heart

I do not see torn holes in your web
Only the art of how you live
It’s like watching the moon reflect
From dark night shadowed windows

You cannot borrow my words
They can never be bought
You only have to believe in them
As in the knowledge of time passing

For while the dreams you possess
May have been born from sorrow
I will not question the father
Of a past that cannot let go

I would never untangle your heart
For the weaver may be your savior
It is within his spiraled will that I cling
For who you are is all that I love

It’s only ten minutes each day
Not exactly, who keeps count
But it’s always too fast for me
The changing colors of the sky
It’s always dark beneath my feet
That’s the part that lasts too long
Still there’s tomorrow’s sleepy eyes

Even broken glass reflects
Our nature exists, scarred as it is
Still the grand gesture must be made
And if you think it’s all too much
Then tell me why you sleep at night
What turns you on anymore
If not your dreams talking to you

The distance between us, it seems
Is as far as the sun is from me
I can accept my place, it’s beautiful
How can I say anything different?
I don’t know where to begin
If I’m not in my knowing, so small
How would I know your worth to me?

I wonder if I am the one to make you cry
Is that the moment that I made you feel
Is it the memory that you want to forget
I wanted you to laugh out loud
And whisper my name like a shell
When you stop pretending with me
We can live the stories I can only make up

I know I’m not broken
I think you can even recognize me still
I’m underneath the things thrown at me
I’m the wall that wears somebody’s hatred

You wanted me to tell your story
A white wall that can’t complain about being poor
I don’t live on the side of town where people die young
I'm just streaks of paint from how I made you bleed

I’m living outside of love now
A fireplace and the dogs watching me are yours instead
You think you feel better because you stained me
I wonder though if you think I’m unable to stand on my own

I’m paying the price for loving you
I chose to walk around inside of you with a candle in my hand
But I was too close and set your heart on fire
I thought it was passion but instead it was only pain

I’m not what you remembered
What I wear upon my face is what I did to you
That is what I have become now
A painting nobody can save that dried up a long time ago

It matters to the family
If not to God or the new lake
They go there to pray on Sunday
Even if they're not really there anymore

We look at auburn streaked skies
And see his welcome beauty
But the door to heaven
Is not to the attic but instead the cellar

We wonder how everything will turn out
The current changes speed and direction
Gospel songs float on top
And the rising waters take us home

The howlers and the wailers are natures friend
Grace comes from its unmerciful ways
Their roots are bent sideways and twisted
But the way of the land is all that faith knows

There is nothing contrived
It’s not being different
Or the same
Opposite or synonymous
There is no thought
Not about that
Only feeling

When I began crying
It was not a decision

I didn’t ask you
I didn’t tell you
I only wanted you to know
The lover I wanted to be

But I had to find out first
Could we talk about another
And not think about going back
Could we talk about tomorrow
And see the longing in our eyes
Could we know what we want
And not try to make it happen
But instead let it happen

I’m racing into your head now
Moving the hands forward on your clock
I would wait forever for you
But why should we
Don’t believe in time
Believe in me

I don’t want to be compared
How do I make you feel
That is all that matters
Everyone thinks you are beautiful
Do they make you feel safe
Everyone thinks you are a mystery
Do they understand you
Everyone wants to be your lover
Do they want to be your friend

Once there was a balance
like the time we smiled at the same time
or kissed like a real couple before parting for the day

Did I promise only caution
when I look into your eyes?

It felt like a storm once
there was no training for our differences
it was such a surprise I wondered if we lost our way

Did I promise to reject
my gifts that are revealed?

It’s all in my hands
to walk away without a fight
to walk with you towards the light we both will find

Did I promise to turn away
from what I may become?

I built a shrine for us
with a star a rosary and a book
it was the only way I could know what to do

Did I promise my life
no matter the pain?

What I decided to tell you
Is a true story
Fairy tales only give hope
And life must have it's disappointments

We knew each other once
Did you think I would stay the same?
I was just getting started
The arrow never lost its arc

You weren’t sure about me then
But you can forget the past
I left it behind long ago
I can’t get hung up on all that

Every word that comes to mind
Is about freedom
I can’t pretend to be any different
It’s the only way you’ll finally know

When the sun ends
Winter
Where we hurt
Life

When secrets end
Truth
Where we reveal
Friendship

When the moon ends
Longing
Where we cry
Love

When hatred ends
Equality
Where we laugh
Joy

Living the future,
planned by a childhood,
unable to understand,
hate;
and now we question them,
and accuse them;
as if the scars do not exist;
as if their resentments are only delusion;
who could pretend it is so;
who could pretend reality is a lie,
and fantasy is real;
who but you if you are weak;
who but you,
if you cannot separate emotion from truth;
who but you,
if you can only see yourself

it's not something you can hear
i want you to feel it
every word
softer than a whisper
not the way life can be sometimes
but i know
the way to you
is to tell you in this way
so that only you will know
that what i say
is true

I wonder if anybody lives out on the limb
I’m not wearing a dead man’s clothes
I don’t have to worry about getting ambushed
My homestead is mine and nobody minds
The frontier is no longer about stealing land
It’s about why young men take their own lives

I’m not casting any nets because I live in one
I’m caught already and tangled up in twine
I don’t have a horse to cross a river full of ice
I don’t have a people, but I have a family
I don’t know what I am anymore to anyone
But the sun on a golden canvas is still my friend

I gave her so many hints I thought I wrote a book
But she won’t move like she’s a stone in the tide
Then she tried to get me to meet her friend
It was like a trickle of water to fill my canteen
Was she as afraid of me leaving as I am of staying?
There’s plenty of time to talk about things like that

The river I once crossed by bridge waits for my sins
The melted ice tells stories of warm beds of silt
Where the river ends is where my fingers join yours
Somebody else can choose the time of my funeral
I can only choose the road that I want to walk
And if dust be my skin then you will be my bath

There was a time I didn’t know who to pray to
I knew what I was doing was wrong
I hoped you understood why
I wasn’t sure if heaven was where I belonged

There was a time I thought I knew how to pray
I hoped what I was doing was right
I knew you understood why
Still I wondered if I walked in the light

I’m gonna’ have to die with it
and bring my shame to you
I’m gonna’ have to live with it
tell me who I’m praying to

I have to go it alone on this one
Only the shadows will walk with me now
Being forgiven is the chance I have to take
I hope it happens even though I don’t know how

I’m gonna’ have to die with it
and bring my shame to you
I’m gonna’ have to live with it
tell me who I’m praying to

I can’t ask for things I can’t give
Don't tell me how to die
Tell me how to live
Don't tell me how to lie
Tell me why you forgive

I’m gonna’ have to die with it
and bring my shame to you
I’m gonna’ have to live with it
tell me who I’m praying to

You can tell a lot about a person
If you take out their trash
The things they throw away
Once meant something to them
Now it’s the another man’s problem

She’s just not going to tell you
You have to guess and hope it works
It’s better though not to pick a card
You might not be a prophet tomorrow
If you were you’d be too old for her

I’m not a prophet
I’m not a shaman
But I can tell you what’s going to happen
Somebody’s gonna’ cry
But I can’t tell you who it might be
I just hope it’s not you or me

I’m awake again in the same place
I think too much to be much fun
How can I relax under the moonlight
When I try to solve puzzles in the sky
By looking at reflections in your eye

Some guys always guess right
It’s the gift they were born with
They can be whatever it takes
Being too honest was my original sin
You didn’t tell me that’s what you wanted

I’m not a prophet
I’m not a shaman
But I can tell you what’s going to happen
Somebody is gonna’ cry
I won’t tell you who it might be
It might be you or it might be me

I knew she would laugh at my vague sonnet
I spoke too often for anyone to respect my intent
I had wondered if anyone could live contentedly
Knowing the past grants no privilege for our life
But she was smart enough to ignore idealism
A home cannot be built between water and sand

I wondered what form of pain humanizes us the most
The most gifted among us smile often enough to please
The space they own between each personal shock is wide
The rest of us are consumed with meaning and culture
But crowded sidewalks are angered by my indifference
While her heart felt the the things that a crowd ignores

She knew everyone is one instant away from loneliness
It’s the realization that all we are is what we have done
Who we are is nothing that anyone can speak of
We both looked through a lens refracting the noise
But I only knew how to bend light to please myself
And as she looked away once again I wondered why

By now she found the light of truth killed shadows
It was time to decide whether to let it wash over her
To face away from the sun was to become a prism
She realized each color was every possibility for life
Because the light that remains is for those who can dream
And a shadow is light that refuses to love someone else

I was wondering how old my blood was
I haven’t bled in a long time
At least not on the outside
Maybe I should set some of it free
Free to find a different body to love

But I’m the nearest patient to the cure
It’s hard to give up your life for another
That’s exactly what we ask them to do
And they cry and can never explain
There is no perception to convince
No reality to ignore
They know

I could never be a tool for God
My dreams are not to bend your will
I will not control you
It is your choice

I could never be an example for God
My dreams are not to bend my will
I cannot stop sinning
That is my choice

I don’t know if I’m supposed to be a hammer
Or a wrench
Should I put something inside of you
Or remove the pain you came home with

I could age ten years in two months
I could reject the new world
Let all my gray hair grow
Let the sun wrinkle my face
And become angry at feet on my lawn

But I want to be wiser than that
Without trying to be

The memory of a child may not be the truth
The lack of understanding creates dreams
Dreams that become reality
Reality that becomes who you are
Even if you mother says it never happened

I thought about carrying a book with me
It would full of subversive quotes
World weary conclusions
Nothing about money
But instead I carry it in my head
I know all these things
It’s hard to live past it like watching mile markers
We record them in our head
But after a while all we see are green rectangles

I wanted to walk up to a woman
A stranger
Tell her she’s the one
Kiss her
And watch the look on her face

It could never happen
The days of bravery are over
Now we must fear one another
Fear feelings
Fear the past
Fear the culture
Fear their space

So I wait
Wait to give you  my blood
But I’m not a hammer
Or a wrench
It is to be given freely
To take nothing away
So we can share the things together
But not to be afraid
To believe in something
Naïve
Idealistic
Free

I know what's inside of you
It's everything you showed me
You painted the walls black
But how many rooms are left?

The doors are closed
You're not sure what's in there
I wonder if it can be that way again
Or if you think I don't deserve you

I know how to make you live
I know how to take you there
You won't let me without a promise
It's become more important than me

I broke your heart once
Now you're breaking mine
I want to see if we can lose ourselves
Can we meet again for the first time?

Listen to the song of long ago
It feels the same my love
There is no need to wonder
I hear it if only you could too

I don’t want to think about it
That’s not the way we met
It just happened one day
That’s what I’ll never forget

The more we talk about it
The harder it is to make
Tell me about you instead
That’s what you’ll never fake

Don’t tell me what love is
It’s nothing I’ve ever known
It’s not like my hopes and dreams
Two birds always together
In a place where they’ve never flown

I know what you’re thinking
I can see it in your eyes
You don’t have to say it
I’m wearing the same disguise

Don’t tell me what love is
I want to find out on my own
I hope it’s you that I discover
An island without any memory
And a heart ready for the unknown

I want to fill your heart up again
Tell you I would give anything for you
How you are more than I deserve
I want to tell you because its true

Don’t be impressed by anything
Except by how much I love you
You don’t have to ask me about it
It’s just something you know is true

If you can just let it happen now
No swearing or pledges to you
Just wake up knowing I’m there
The feeling between us is true

Put your hair down now my love
The only thing in life I want is you
There is nothing left but your skin
And what you are is why I am true

If I could just walk alone in fields of high green
I’d know just enough to relax my weary mind
I won’t have to wonder about where to plow
What was planted in the past will show me how

I wanted to feel the green leaves cover my life
Laying down where breezes are born to love
And bare feet hear the first cries of nature
I let my knees fall upon themselves in a new way

I realized I was inside you as soon as I stood up
There was only one thing that I was looking for
Everything that I dream of is about that moment
When I am no longer afraid to show you my face

But when you bloomed into something new
I wondered why I could love someone so much
Looking back there is always something missing
Except for the times when you loved my life

I think I'm too strong for my own good
I don't like thinking I can't be hurt
It's written all over my face
Maybe I'm just waitin' to be
Cut down to size

The forest doesn't care who walks
That's how my life seems to be
I can't decide how to act
Your dress causes too much confusion
It's cuttin' me down to size

That's what I need
I need some kind of desperation
It's too easy not to care
Living that way is a lonely situation

I think I forgot how to blow your mind
There was a time when it was easy
Being young is the thrill of the chase
Now I think I'm above all that
Please, cut me down to size

That's what I need
Some kind of inspiration
It's not easy when you've been there
Living that way is life without a destination

the right words
are not a painting
or a picture
though you can hear
what the silence of a picture cannot say
still my breath is not enough
leaving is what was real
and loving you
are what only actions can do
while words
only remind of a lost man who could not stay

It’s clear to me what I’m doing
I’m waiting for something to happen
Waiting for love to introduce itself
Waiting for my soul to walk in

I don’t feel alone so much
Just wondering if this is the way it will be
I know so much about my own life
But what about the days standing in front of me?

I don’t know if I’m planting or harvesting
Or am I a ghost town with memories nobody can guess?
Every time I played the fool I stayed awake alone
But those times are gone and I’m still the same

I wonder if anyone loved me like I loved them
When we sail on we can only see what sets
I’ve been told more than once about living alone
But my dream remembers what yours forgets

I don’t know if I’m awake or asleep
Or is it that I’m not trying like I did when I was fearless
Every time you played the fool I stayed awake alone
Those times are gone because you won’t call my name

It's hard sometimes
You can't relive you past
And you're trapped by a future that won't listen
It's not that you're lost, it's just that
The road hasn't been paved yet
Waiting is like one of those blank mind moments
Nothing to forget
Nothing to remember
Just a feeling that nothing matters as much to you
You're not hurt
You're not inspired
You're not even trying to figure anything out
Existence turns to the sun
Watching it everyday
It's enough for me while my children play

Memories, some aren’t meant to last
Stories, it’s tomorrow, not the past
When you see me, it’s not a mystery
I’m like you, we share the same history

I’m grown now
It doesn’t matter how
You picked him instead
But that stuff is already dead

I not worried about it
I’m not sorry about it
Not anymore

Doubt, I’m not there anymore
Without, I’m feeling stronger
When you see me there’s a story
But it’s not the one behind me

I’m grown now
I don’t have a vow
You decided to move on
You found out who was strong

I don’t cry about it
I don’t ask God about it
Not anymore

I know your boy friends name
But not yours
It's better that way
I don't want to be so personal

He let me know as we talked
You didn't react
But you didn't stop talking to me
You touched me when you walked out

You know it's there
Maybe I'll send you some flowers
He'll either love you like you deserve
Or get out of my way

I don't want to steal you
You have to set yourself free
I won't tell you what I'm thinking
You already know

You know it's there
Maybe I'll write you a poem
He'll either **** me tonight
Or ask you to marry him

I know how I feel
And there are so many words to say
You said I say them all too easily
So I'll say what is hard
I love you

It's not a song
Not something without commitment
I have my way to make them feel
But also a way to walk away
Without saying I do

Words can hit the mark
So can two bodies laying naked
Until we have a problem
How can we really know
If our love is true

I can't bluff you anymore
It's easy to live alone without fear
But I will never be a man
Until I see the tears
That I planted inside of you

Nothing lives well in between the lines
Too many rocks and not enough water
Exhaustion in the morning
Dropping the needle to play back time
Nobody understands what you mean
They cast shadows when the light is blinding

It’s a game for those who are young
Telling each other they’ll die for love
Now we try to live without it
We can’t cry without any tears
We can’t say bye to our fears
It’s more than we can ever admit

Walking the street or fast asleep
Loneliness wandering inside a dream
You have a promise to keep
All or nothing, all or nothing
The middle is just an empty street

How can you talk forever when you can see it
It’s not something you want to think about
So much time to make mistakes but no longer
Is it because it takes that long to see the world
Or to fix the things we know aren’t right
I could let you drive but I’m not a passenger

It’s like walking the same sandy shore
We love the gulls and the way the sand sinks
But the jetties loom where can’t cross
So the day ends and we go our separate ways
Until the morning where  shells are waiting
And I find a lucky sand dollar for you to toss

Walking the street or fast asleep
Loneliness waking up inside a dream
You have a promise to keep
All or nothing, all or nothing
In the middle there's nobody to meet

A key or maybe just a spin
It’s a place where no man has been
You forgot why you put it on
Is it because you said never again?

It didn’t go your way
I don’t care is all you could say
You forgot how you cried
Maybe you’ll remember that someday

A dream, it reminded me of you
It wasn’t real but that’s what dreams will do
If only you could meet me I don’t care where
Just bring your locked heart to me
I’ll make you wonder why you put it there

A game, you made up along the way
But everybody left nobody would stay
They asked you about that room
You said it’s not a place where people can play

He didn’t mind being outside
He didn’t know what you couldn’t confide
Why did you think that was ok
When the only love you knew is still locked inside?

A dream, it reminded me of you
It wasn’t real but that’s what dreams will do
If only you could meet me I don’t care where
Just bring your locked heart to me
I’ll make you wonder why you put it there

What would you say
To a tree where it lay
To roots too exhausted to feed
Like a snake
Upon the tail of its own seed
Fasting in this very moment
When shadows are spurned
And the rivers beneath it
Boiled by the torment
Of leaves one by one burned
By the fire your wounded heart lit
What would you say?
I will never know
For who can hear their own wake?
I am ash
And you now the wind
Upon which only sorrow may blow
Like smoke that forgot to pray
Losing its only friend
In the blink of an eyelash
A life, once a forest
Now scarred by an erstwhile promise