Lord said that I'll be okay.. Should I trust him? Or should I give myself away?

You're the reason why I'm broken. The reason why everyone that comes, I push away.
If it wasn't because of your mistreating and bad habits, I would love so differently.
Because of you, I tried to be perfect.
I tried to love.
Tried to make sure you was okay, before I made sure I was.
Said sorry, for every little thing you said I did wrong.
Even when you was wrong,
My sorry's spoke.
I would never understand, why I waited so long to see your wrongs.
I was blinded by the way my heart wanted to make it work,
Another chance.
But it knew.
Yes it knew..
That you was the reason for my returning depression.
The reason why I tried killing myself, back when you were leaving.
This isn't just a feeling.
This is who I've become.
Because of you.
The same reason why I changed into someone I hope never became.
I don't know what else to say. .

Why would you call this love, if you knew this wasn't.
If this was not love, please tell me what was it?

She wanted him to show his heart, and and say he loved her.
He spoke the magic words,
And the same night he ****** up.
Now she wide open..

I want to kiss your face, and always tell you it's okay to make mistakes. I want to hold your hand, and let you know I believe in your plans

So many memories ...
Going through my mind
Getting me attached to them old times
Thinking in life , how did it change
How did we get to this cruel end .