penn - Hello Poetry

Oct 2015

Purple Rain

Loudmouth
Crying from the insides unknown
How now can I get away from the pain
Carved in stone
Still not forgiven by God,
For my deadly sins
He would never see what's within
I use my body as a paper
For the razor is my pen
Thrown away from success
I'ma "have been*"

#sad #depression #life #hate #death #hurt #live

Oct 2015

Haych

2:03am

Feelings are fleeting though
They never last long
So what's wrong with me?
Why can I still feel things?
Does this mean I haven't really let go?
I'm trying to move on,
Trying to move forward with my life,
So why do I feel like you've still got so much of a hold on me?
Why can't I seem to shake off thoughts of you?
Why do things that shouldn't bother me, still do?
What's wrong with me?

Late night thoughts

#of #thoughts #nothing #nonsensical #little #bits

penn Oct 2015

"MENTAL"

I'm mental. I'm being driven up a wall.
I'm mental. Why am I here at all?
I'm mental. Why must I live at all?
I felt alright a year ago.
What's happened since, well, I don't know,
I've gone haywire and insane
And it's because of all the strain.

I'm mental. I'm driven up a wall.
I'm mental. Why am I here at all?
I tried a comeback. Yes I did.
Failed outright. I'm a real dumb kid.
Nobody gets me. They don't understand.
From a real smart kid, to real mental ***.

penn Oct 2015

Untitled

Who told you good artist are only see in television?
For they being so effinly good we didn't realize they are hiding in the screen name who we call "FRIEND",
Or some random people around us who other people mistakenly call "FRIEND".
They can act that they care,
They can be a newscaster who will talk behind your back,
They can make you cry,
They can be the Antagonist,
But a good girl in their story..

So be careful whom you call "FRIEND" .

penn Oct 2015

Convo with the Depressed

Me : Sometimes I want to die.
D : Are you feeling suicidal?
Me : Not actively, but if something bad were happen to me, I wouldn't necessarily be upset about it either.
D : Please explain.
Me : I don't think I have the courage to actually go through with committing suicide, but I were to be walking across the road and a car was coming straight for me, I'm not sure if I would get out of the way.