It makes me sad
to my soul to say,
I think there’s one that got away

It would be my fate,
to meet my soulmate,
a few years too late

What could have been
is lost to the abyss,
So within my heart,
You’re mine to miss

my mom drove a head start bus for awhile when I was in pre-k
she would tell the little kids who were bored to look out the window for pink elephants
I remember thinking she was a good mom because she let me in on the secret and the kids thought she was cool
our opinion on what’s considered good can be wrong even when our intentions are right
I never believed in pink elephants but I did believe in her

I’ll take the test
And fail it on purpose
Because
I wanted to

Life has been all ******
No ******
The build up is great but the letdown leaves me feeling cheap

I put my heels in the sand at the bottom of the towel and kicked my feet like a kid
A squeal of joy just loud enough for me to hear burst out and I looked at my toes now covered in soft, white earth
Cant believe I got myself here
My younger self is so proud for making a dream come true when there were so many times I never thought I could do this
The sun warmed my skin and I flopped back on the towel and looked up at the bahama blue sky
In this moment I’m so glad to be alive
I detailed the scene in my mind like a photograph just for me and took one more sip of my endless strawberry margarita

this is that feeling I love
a buzz
like a happy vibration radiating through the skin
my face feels like I’ve been poked for a dentist appointment
my head is swirly and positive and I kind of feel like dancing or complimenting pretty girls on their smiles and their hair
when I close my eyes I feel high
a fulfilling swelling gulps my chest and I’m feeling giddy
oh what a world when suddenly everything feels fine again from a tall alcoholic beverage and a fine February day
it’s not that complicated really
This thing called life