I put my heels in the sand at the bottom of the towel and kicked my feet like a kid
A squeal of joy just loud enough for me to hear burst out and I looked at my toes now covered in soft, white earth
Cant believe I got myself here
My younger self is so proud for making a dream come true when there were so many times I never thought I could do this
The sun warmed my skin and I flopped back on the towel and looked up at the bahama blue sky
In this moment I’m so glad to be alive
I detailed the scene in my mind like a photograph just for me and took one more sip of my endless strawberry margarita

this is that feeling I love
a buzz
like a happy vibration radiating through the skin
my face feels like I’ve been poked for a dentist appointment
my head is swirly and positive and I kind of feel like dancing or complimenting pretty girls on their smiles and their hair
when I close my eyes I feel high
a fulfilling swelling gulps my chest and I’m feeling giddy
oh what a world when suddenly everything feels fine again from a tall alcoholic beverage and a fine February day
it’s not that complicated really
This thing called life

I hope everyone finds a lover
that makes you feel so good everyday
that on a Friday evening in February
he can be at work and I can be playing Mario Kart on the couch, drinking an Angry Orchard alone on Valentine’s Day and neither one of us even notices

everyone won’t feel like me
or think like I do
my morality is my strongest suit
it comes with heavy guilt at times
but I think I always do the right thing
in the end

why do I hang onto the end of every sentence like it’s a secret code waiting for me to answer