Today I am alone
It isn't anything I didn't expect
Your with her and I'm here thinking about you
I left your thoughts long ago
You buried me and your friends together
A new start
But a corpse left in the ground begins to rot
I'm with the earth six feet under while you bask in the sun
I'm here
I'll be here until roots fill what empty space is my heart
She'll be next to you

My mind has wandered to you again
As this pillow welcomes my empty skin I start to think
On this day of love you'll be with her
Your touch, so warm, will be with her
I wish I could hold them
All the times we had
These sleepless nights might mean something then
I was wrong to think that this husk of a human could love you
I know that
But I can't wish you happiness
Only a few dozen night have passed
All those nights that I haven't slept, enveloped by cold
Even so as I lie here freezing, knowing what I need to say
I love you
so much
Good night

At the same time reality hit me in the face I realized my world was fake
A pop-up book filled with misadventure
It's not your fault
A child needs to become an adult at some point
You just helped me open up my eyes a bit

It's so easy to get confused
To mix violence and love together
Apologies and lies
They are all mistakes
A simple question asking for help
Turns into a night of horrors
Nightmares ensue in gardens of flowers
They wither and die with every breath
A raining shadow of empty dreams
I've made a tomb out of my own grief
I tried to put myself 6ft under
Life and death go hand and hand
You can't have one without the other
So when I wanted to die I was told
I just need to live
What I've done so far is nothing more then sleep walking
I'm on autopilot and I'm not taking anything in
A schedule that repeats itself has never been so empty
Then a person with less life then a corpse

I am frozen
Chapped lips and broken bones
The open wounds will never close
I can't move, let alone breath
Can someone please unfreeze me
Frostbite has taken its toll
My mind is broke and I'm alone
A lock blocks an open door
Please god help me I have froze
The years stopped along with winter
The cold mist fills my home
I'm all alone