I can't help but cry
I think about the distance
And the next time I'll see you again
I don't know the exact date or time
But my lips miss you
Like my lungs need air after being under water for so long
I'm suffocating without the scent of you
Without the taste of you
I want to hear your voice
Not just over the phone
But whispering in my ear
I miss the warmth of your breath
And the smell of your hair
Life without you is so dull
There are no colors around me
Only worry and fear are the emotions I feel
I want to be with you
I have to be with you
5,000 miles with an ocean between us
I am afraid of a future without you
I'm confused and puzzled as to why this had to be so complicated
Why us
Why were we cursed with the terrible luck of finding love in someone who lives so far away
It almost seems impossible to maintain
But what's even more impossible is living a life without you
It's unimaginable
I would wait forever
Just for a single day with you

Missing you stings my heart
Now I know why they say love hurts
Loving you is the easiest thing
And the hardest thing
I've ever had to do
I know you're the one for me
Because with you,
I am able to breathe better, easier
I don't get choked up on life anymore
Rather just choked up when I think of all the cheesy things I think about you
Sappy, yet true
If my passion for you was to be a color
It would be gold
Bright like the sun
Everlasting and precious
It is easy to love you because you make me feel at home
It is hard to love you because you are so far from home
I want to make a new home with you
I miss you

To think that you would keep telling such an enormous lie just goes to show how desperate you are for attention and how much of a low life you truly are. Lying to hundreds of people about your identity, getting people to believe things that aren't true, and do things they wouldn't normally do, and to keep doing it blind to the consequences, just proves how stupid, inconsiderate, and pathetic you are. The truth is out. It will continue to penetrate the eyes and ears of everyone around you and you will be left with nothing but your bitter and empty heart and your computer screen that you love to lie behind. Have fun living with the guilt of what you've done for not months but years.

The feel of your touch
Your soft warm skin
The feel of your kiss
So sweet and passionate
The feel of our bodies together
Are all something I miss

The sin eats you alive
Just as it should
The company of the devil
The presence of evil
Surrounds your every move
Invades your every breath
It is what defines you
You are consumed
With the overbearing thoughts
Of the ones you've wronged
And how you will eventually
Have to face justice
And pay the price
Either now
Or in the afterlife
Or both

The truth sets people free
I'm so happy to be liberated from all of the lies
That make up the very essence of who you are
A lie
I'm so happy that I get to help others realize
What you have done to them all this time
You lied
I'm so happy knowing that eventually
The truth will reach everybody
And you will have no where else to hide
And no one else to turn to
You see, that's what happens when you spin a web of lies
As big as you have
Every relationship you've formed
Is based off of a lie
All the love you may think you have
Will die when everyone finds out
That you are a no good
Time stealing
Using
Lying
Piece of garbage

The good thing about boyfriends
Is that they have no emotions

All these girls are so high strung
Makes me feel like they're less fun

So many points of view
So many arguments
All I want is to just chill
No more backhanded compliments

Guys kick back, relax
It's not a big deal
Let's kiss, laugh, drink
Loving what we feel

Do you want love
Or do you want passion
Do they always come together
Or just in small rations

Do you want drama
Do you want sensitivity
Do you want strength
Do you want security

A personal dilemma
When trying to discover
What you want in life
What you will uncover

i wish just for a minute
that you could borrow my eyes
and see the way i see you
and how i'm mesmerized
you'd find that no one compares
when i stand them next to you
and there's no price on our love
that would ever, ever make do
you'd see that you take my breath away
that your beauty makes me stunned
and when i think about how you're mine
i know that's when i've truly won

if you could look inside my heart
you would find a shimmering glow
it exists because you created it
and since then it's started to grow
right when i saw you for the first time
something magical took place within me
i was struck with love
and hit with pure adoration
my life changed forever
you became my safe haven

if you could peak inside my soul
you will see that its sole purpose is you
your happiness and your forever
are the things it desires most
it will never be complete
without you by its side
you are its only soul mate
and it longs for you to be a bride

please say that you'll marry me
and be with me till the end of our days
even when our bodies aren't thriving
our love will live within our souls
never forgetting, always remembering
the beautiful love we will constantly share

I'll never know the softness of your skin
I'll never know the warmth of your smile
I'll never know the taste of your lips
I'll never know you

You are a master deceiver
You've been able to fool not a few
But hundreds of people that have the misfortune
Of coming across someone like you
And believe all the words that escape your mouth
You become obsessed with one person
Get them to love you and invest their feelings
And then you move on to the next one
To leave the other one feeling like an idiot
I'm the biggest fool for letting you into my life
I should have known that you would lie to me
Not just once but many other times after that
I should've known you would have everything to hide
I played the fool before but I won't do it again
It's time to say goodbye to you and your deception

Why can't we just love back the ones that love us
So willingly
So unconditionally
Why is it in our human nature to want what we can't grasp
It makes life so much harder
And so much more difficult than it needs to be
Why do we settle for less than we deserve

I'm sick of the unknown
I'm dying from this occasional tension
It doesn't even feel like we're close
And all I manage to feel is apprehension
I'm expecting the worst
And praying for the best
But as I've learned in the past
Not all prayers are answered

When you ignore me
I'm stabbed with disappointment
And plagued with loneliness
Why do you do it
I don't get it
I thought this was love
I thought this was real
I guess to you, it's all a joke
I can't put myself through it again
I won't

Dear you,
You're the person who has never let me down
You've always been there when I needed someone
You lent me your ear
You gave me advice
You wiped away my tears
Held me through all my cries
You've spent your time on me
You've spent your money
And how I repay you
Is by not doing so at all
Instead I betray you
And I put our trust on the line
Now it is gone
And the fault is all mine
You deserve so much better
Than what I have to offer
I'm in a horrible place
And while that is no excuse
For what I have done
You still deserve someone to be there
And reciprocate what you do
You're the one person I love the most
And the one person I hurt tragically
By losing you, I lose myself
But I deserve this
You belong with someone else
I'll always love you
And be plagued with pain and guilt
You'll always be important to me
But now I think I should set you free
Because I hurt you so tremendously
It may be selfish
But I can't live with myself
I love you
I already miss you
One day your true love
Your beautiful princess
Will be there for you
I'm sorry
But it isn't me

you are beautiful,
gracious,
and kind
there is nothing
that i would change
you gave me peace
you gave me security
you made me happy when i was at my worst
you gave me purpose
made me feel beautiful
made me feel wanted
and adored
it's not that i don't love you
because i love you very much
from afar
but my heart doesn't want to continue
it is tired of the struggle
it is tired of trying to find all the right
in the midst of all this wrong
i am dragging you down
deep into my confusion
into my loneliness
into my dissatisfaction
you deserve so much better
than what i am offering you
i can't continue to short change you
i am not made for you
not right now
you are my soul mate
you are my first
you always will be
i will never stop loving you
never cease to pray for you
you are the highest of the high
and the most beautiful person i have ever known
don't you ever think for a second that it is a lie
because this is the truth
i love you
i will always be here for you
i know you will be happy in this life
because God knows how much you deserve it
and He will make sure that you get it

The day I forget about you completely
Will be a blessed day
You don't deserve a space in my mind

Trusting too much
Having confidence in things that are faulty
Is almost as lethal as rat poison
First, the betrayal of trust
Causes an internal battle in the mind
Regret torments us
How could we have been so stupid
As to have faith in something that wasn't real
This pain is much like when the body
Bleeds internally
After the poison
Has settled in our system
Next comes a never ending feeling
Of pure exhaustion
We metaphorically collapse
Mimicking a rodent
We can no longer perform
Our day to day needs
Instead, we become so tired of life
It feels as though we are dead on the inside
But we never truly die
And in all honesty
I'd rather ingest poison
Than be betrayed again

I wish I knew an older man
One that wouldn't be afraid to hold my hand
He'd be mature and wise
The very best of all the guys
For once, I would be taken care of
And there would be nothing else above
We'd love each other and communicate
Leave no room for grudges and hate
An older man would have all the experience
He would want nothing but to be serious
We'd go out on special dates
Sometimes stay home and stay up late
It'd be a functioning relationship
Something normal yet attached to the hip
I wish I knew an older man
One that wouldn't be afraid to hold my hand

This distance poisons my heart
It rots my mind
Sometimes I don't think
Our love can withstand the test of time

This distance poisons my heart
It fills my head with doubts
Leads me to believe this will never happen
I forget what our love is all about

This distance poisons my heart
Triggers me to do unthinkable things
Makes me feel like I'm not worth it
Makes me inflict these bleeding stings

This distance poisons my heart
I'm always wondering why
Why you are there and I am here
And all I ever manage to do is cry

My thoughts are my own
My creativity is mine to express
I will share with you what I choose
You will not violate me
You will not invade my mind
Do not read my poetry
It is like my diary
If you love me
Respect me
I can't afford a therapist
I'm not comfortable telling everything
To my biased parents
Writing is my release
My poetry is mine
It is the expression
Of my deepest, darkest thoughts
And it is my decision
When I choose to let you know
Everything that I'm thinking
And the feelings I do not show
Do not cross this line again
For next time
I won't tolerate the violation

there is a chemical connection
between our souls
i can feel the passion
when you say my name
i can sense the potency
in your urge for me
i can feel the desire in my gut
i've never felt this way
it's you i want
i imagine us
i imagine you
being mine
being true
the things you say
the words you use
how has it taken me
this long to find you
where have you been
and why have you gone
didn't you feel
what i felt all along
i can be the one to show you
what a real woman is
i can be the one to commit to you
and make you feel bliss
i will take the moon from the dark sky
and put it in your hands
you have the power over me
it's this space i can't stand
come back
i will show you the way
you are the alpha
i am the omega
you have all the power
i am yours to keep
we don't know where we end
or begin
we only know that we belong

You're so beautiful
It hurts

You and I
The way we love each other
Is like we've never loved before
Giddy with loving feelings
Smiling with every glance
When we laugh
When we talk
When we kiss
When we hold each other
Everything feels right
Calmness overcomes me
I'm right where I'm supposed to be
You're the man of my dreams
Rescuing me from darkness
Saving me from myself
You're my breath of fresh air
Allowing me to breathe again
You make my world go round
When I'm with you, I'm in heaven

Sometimes I wish you were looking down upon me
Sometimes I hope you can hear me
And see all of your friends and family
Missing you, remembering you
But I know that you cannot
For you are in a beautiful place
That knows no sorrow or sadness
A place that is not of this world
You are where you have always belonged
In a place where you deserve to be
A place full of happiness and peace
You know not of this earthly world
Full of sin, lies, and disorder
You're where there are golden streets
And pearly gates
With the beautiful sound of trumpets
And however much I wish you were here
Or could at least see me
It makes me happy that you've found your heaven
And the next time I look into your eyes
We will both have wings

I can't stand it when you don't act like an adult
You just assume the worst and revolt
You think you know everything but don't bother to ask
You cop a bad attitude and start acting crass
It's so pathetic how you act like a child
That isn't attractive and it gets me riled
You're always the one to point the finger
It's never your fault and the tension lingers
You love to place the blame on me
You always claim that I am lying
Name calling is what you do best
With you I'm anything but impressed
But maybe you're right, I'm just a *****
And now I think it's time for me to make a switch
Focus on myself rather than on you
I hate to say it but I think we're through

I don't even know you
I've talked to you once
A tiny exchange of words
But I swear
You captivate me
With how you look
In my mind
I picture you being mine
The things I'd do to you
I thought I'd never do
There are other beauties in this world
You are not the only girl
But you're the only one
My eyes choose to see
You're the only one
Who has this great affect on me
I don't know your heart
I don't know your mind
But I do know your body
And I'm in love with it

There's no such thing as sleep
On lonely nights like these
Why do I keep trying
When no one is listening
Why do I keep breathing
When I don't seem to matter
Sick of the games people play
And the lies people tell
Betrayal in the past
Has left me wary and confused
Tired of all these thoughts
That race through my head
I sit around in torment
Never leaving my bed
Being in love comes at such a cost
You never knew that you could feel this lost
Unsure what my next move should be
All I know is that the unknown is weighing on me
I just take the bottle
Pour shot after shot
My brain is invaded with toxic poison
I'm able to sit and forget these emotions
Just a bit more should do the trick

i never wish to break your heart
i never wish to have your fragile heart
and lose it by playing a foolish game
my love for you is not a game
my feelings for you will never change
they will only grow stronger and stronger
each and every day
they will follow you
they will not go astray
i never wish to take your love for granted
i would never have you for myself
and claim another at the same time
i would never dream of sabotaging our love
i could never imagine destroying the beautiful relationship that we have created
there is nothing in this world i wouldn't do
in order to fight for our love
to fight for you
you are my true inspiration
you are my true reason
without you, i am nothing
i have nothing
i will never forsake you
i will never betray you
my love for you is not a game
it is real
the realest love i've ever felt
and i will do everything humanly possible to maintain our love
to keep us afloat
to make you happy
you are my lasting love
my beautiful angel sent from above
i will never leave you
i will never destroy you
i will never want anybody but you

The sweetest ******* earth
That is you
I regret so much everything I did not do
Everything I continue to neglect
Like looking into your eyes a little longer
Telling you how much I love you one more time, and a little nicer
Smiling at you as I look into your eyes
I'm foolish and stupid for ever letting go of your hand
Because now that I am without you
All of my mistakes is all I think about
I hate myself for letting moments slip by
Where I felt tired or lazy and let go of you
I hate how I've been rude to you
My lack of sensitivity towards you I despise
You only deserve the best
You're so sweet and so kind
You love me so much
And I love you so much more
But my natural flaws hold me back from being the best companion
I adore you with all my heart
I miss you with every bone in my body
I long for you so much
I need you more than I express to you
I just wish I had all those moments back
Moments spent arguing with you or yelling at you
Moments spent being bitter and creating tension
Moments when I should have been smiling with you
Moments when I should have been loving you and reassuring you
I can't let you go
I won't, I never will
But I promise I will get better
I promise I'll be the perfect person for you
Just like you're the perfect person for me
I'll never let another moment slip
Time is precious
But not as precious as you
I love you deeply, forever
I promise

I don't get it
One minute, you're full throttle
All over me
Wanting every piece of my body
Telling me to give it all to you
And then the next minute
You're distant
Not wanting to be close and intimate
Like we were before
That screws with my confidence
And worsens my insecurities
It's like a switch went off in your brain
It's hard to deal with these inconsistencies
Makes me hesitant
To give a piece of me
To you or to anybody

Sometimes I write about you
But don't think too highly of yourself
You're just a book that's gathered dust
On the very highest shelf
Nothing is paid attention to
All the way at the top
It's neglected and ignored
Not important, I almost forgot
The space you take up
In the back of my mind
Is deteriorating by the second
You'll disappear with time
Sometimes I write about you
But it doesn't mean jack
I didn't lose you
You were something I never had
And you never had me either

I broke up with him
A couple years ago
We were best friends
Each other's first love
But we grew apart
Like most first loves do
We remained friends
Though I didn't think
He was quite over me
I wanted him to move on
He was so deserving of a woman
Intelligent, generous, sensitive
He really is the perfect package
Now it seems as though
We aren't as close as we used to be
We say we're each other's good friend
But sometimes it doesn't feel that way
The details are no longer known
Just small conversations
And short hang out sessions
Here and there
From time to time
I feel like I'm losing my best friend
A constant in my life
I fear losing him completely
He was my first everything
He taught me so much
I miss the simpler days
When he used to be mine
I think nowadays he's onto someone new
And I'm happy for him
He deserves it all
And she's a lucky girl
I'll always cherish him
And miss the blissful innocence
Of first love and confidence