If you were dead, I wouldn't even blink.
Does that make me cruel?

No longer will you diminish my light
I'm soaring through the galaxies
The stars are at my fingertips
I'm finding my soul again
*I am triumphant

find another one 'cause she belongs to me-
one day, I'll be married, laying in bed
next to someone who loves me
and together we'll rule the world
I was made for better things, I realized that
it'll all be okay, one day it will work out
one day the sun will melt a field frozen over
and I won't have to shovel any more snow
I think I'm gonna win this time.

for a moment, the waters clear, and the mud
stops swirling, and the dust settles on the rocks
I can see up from the riverbed and no longer
what I see is just a reflection of you
when I look to my right, you aren't lying next to me
like I thought- the light is streaming through my
bleary eyes, a cold-water shock and I'm awake,
but still drowning.

oh honey, let's run away together
I'm sure you'd look beautiful sleeping in the car
as the sunset fell over the mountains
and the whole world would agree with me, I think.

I didn't think I could become this
I didn't think I could latch on to this
But I can feel myself doing it slowly
And it feels so ******* good

kick all my walls in
break me down
I'll let you

because please tell me how i am supposed to trust with all i've heard,
trust with the words you spoke of
turning bodies into jokes and filling my ears with words that have nothing more than an intention of being evil,
laughing and talking words of some of my own insecurities

please tell me how i am supposed to trust when all the men i have ever had to deal with have turned their backs,
physical abuse or emotional
smacking me in the face with their hand or their words,
regretting me and pushing me off,
acting as though i was nothing but an ugly girl or just a needy little fool begging for their love

change my mind and please prove to me that not all men with leave me crying a countless number of tears,
countless hours of me too hurt to get up and move from the spot they left me laying at,
reminiscing on the words they spoke to me;
their daughter or their ex

i am wounded by a number of men
and you scream to me to trust you,
you scream to me that you would never ever do anything to hurt me,
even when we part,
you want me to trust you
and i cannot find myself to it

because darling,
if you try to trust one after another
and they all seem to break it the same,
how can you find yourself to trust again?

Don't promise me stars.
They are not within your
Reach.

I would be happy with the
Constellations freckled
And trailing down your
back.