"Time heals all wounds" they say
But how come I am still hurting
After all those years of healing
Is it just a bad joke?
Is it just to keep you from losing hope?
I try to think bright
But the pain comes to mind
So I try not to feel
Myself I will conceal

I feel the snow on my body
As I stare into the sun
Like a fresh breath of air
With rain on my face
You are all seasons at once
Like a storm you shook me
But kept my feet on the ground

As my tears fall down
My pillow gets wet
I think about you and try to remember
the lines on your face
The smell and touch of your hands
As you slightly move along my skin
Why did you just waste it
Like it meant nothing more to you then a sad song
When you're happy

I just wanted to tell you
That it's not your fault
It's not even mine
It's a matter of heart
You can't control it with your mind
You talk about deciding
As if I should know
Why do you do that?
I have no place to go

Like a moth to a flame
Im drawn by your name
I see the burning in your eyes
As if you try to disguise
Why do you try to hide
From me, your dear lover

Like a burning candle
That will burn out
I try to figure out
When you are coming around
I've been waiting for you
For so long
But i'm starting to realize
That you're gone

Every touch of your fingertips
Every blink your eyes make
Every breath of Air you take
It is all art

Everytime your lips smile
Everytime you shed a tear
Everytime you turn away
I let you deeper in my heart

I wish I knew
Whether it was wrong or right
Is it really me,
Or is it my illness?
How would I know
What to listen to
When you occupy my mind

I don't know what to feel
Should I be concerned?
Maybe it is out of my hands
And maybe I should let it be
But how hard is that
When you have to decide

You save me from drowning
Everytime I dive
When I feel like disappearing
You give me a place to go
And when I feel like I'm collapsing
You hold me together with your soft embrace

I can smell fresh coffee
As I light my sigarette
It reminds me of you
This harsh mix of old and new
Still so fresh
And safe to know
It fills my lungs
And breaks me down
But I get up
It's over now

Why do I need convoncing
When I have it all in front of me
Why does it feel like a catastrophe
When this disaster makes me whole
I know there are pieces missing -
Trapped inside your soul

Anywhere
It doesn't matter
As long as I'm with you
I want to see the world
Through your eyes
And through your hugs

I want to be a part of
Everything you do
'Cause I can't be alone
I want to stay with you

To know that you're gone
Is suffering
It's slowly killing me
In ways I never imagined

To be apart from you
Is making me mad
And because of no sleep
My eyes will bleed
And therefore
My life will end

Why is it that birds live so freely
Why do roses smell so good
Why do swans only have one partner
Why are children so happy
When we live inside a cage we cannot see?

And though i feel like i should die
The storms keep me awake
Rushing through my body
Shaking my bones
Opening windows
Shattering glass
Making me feel alive

It aint wise to need someone like you
When you do the things you do
You build me up
And break me down
You break down my walls
And build me a house
But now i know what i must do
I must quit
you

Loving someone is delayed pain
And it's a beautiful kind of it
We listen only to our hearts
Our mind is blocked
Consequences disappear
And in the blink of an eye
We lose someone

We are not dead yet
Even if it feels so
I cannot breathe
My lungs are collapsing
When will this be over

We are not dead yet
Even if you think so
I cannot think clear
My mind is racing
Is it over soon?

We are not dead yet
As you can see
My pulse is slowing down
I shed a little tear
Now it is over- i am free

Why is my life so miserable
All this confusion
What a disaster
I feel the anxiety creeping in
As i think of the smell of fresh brewed beer
Will it ever stop?

Life is so powerful
And can change in the blink of an eye
It is sweet like chocolate
And harsh like love
It will all work itself out
And then it will be okay

Ive come to realize
That with everytime you turn away
You fade
My heart aches
But only for a moment
I will not sink ;
I will stay alive

Scars will not heal
Or fade away
Like a burning flame
They get their life from disaster
Surroundings take control
And take over our feelings
We cannot deal with it
In any other way
So we let them flow
Wherever they will go

You smell like sleep
I can see your hair point different directions
Your eyes are almost open
Your hands are soft as cotton

It feels almost as if im dreaming
As the sun shines through the window
We hide under our sheets
Gently touching

I feel your tenderness
As you caress me over my body
I feel the need to giggle
As i get goosebumps on my belly

I will not leave
No matter how hard it may be
I will love you through all storms;

Cause a man will drown
In silent waters