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9.7k · Dec 2012
Ice Cream
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
Abandoned on the side walk.
Melting-
Drips slide down
Like the tears
On that poor kid's face.
Funny
How all of his problems
Boil down
To an ice cream cone
Abandoned on the side walk.
6.4k · Nov 2012
Dreams
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
Worthless, stupid, ugly too.
Tongue-tied, but that’s only around you.
My dreams are horrors that I earn,
For them to be real ill always yearn.

My death, sweet poison, saves my life,
By ending it by gun or knife.
Monsters, demons, tear my flesh,
Or I get stuck in barbwire mesh.

Whatever the torture I take it as dished.
Never sweet dreams, as I so often wished.
But why should I have them? I'm crooked and mean.
Or well, that’s what I think. Could be low self-esteem.

I hate that I love you, I hate that I care.
I hate that when you’re upset; I wish I were there.
I just really hate myself for not hating you.
And for loving you in the first place, I hate that one too.

Your name, once golden, now a twisted black vine.
In her name I find envy, I wish you were mine.
You were and you will be, ill see that its so.
And if it doesn’t work out... you know where ill go.

It's a cop-out; I'm chicken, too scared to go on.
I hope it's you who finds me, dead in your lawn.
Razor in hand, I wish I could do it.
Iv tried once before, but that time I blew it.

But this time I can, and I know that I will.
If not by blade, slip off my windowsill.
Or drown in my pool, or forget my inhaler.
Though I know it won’t matter. This girl, you wont save her.

You loved her, you killed her, and you’ve broken her heart.
She has nothing-good left, besides poems and art.
She’s lost, and she’s lonely, and I know she’s scared too.
And the only thing that could help just won’t. And that’s you.
4.9k · Nov 2012
Disappear
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
I'm in that desperate mood again
Where me, myself am not my friend
I pull my hair, I scratch my skin,
My feet? Too small. My waist? Not thin.

I want to scream, be someone else.
With softer hair, a nicer face.
I hate this stupid mirror
I wish I could just run away.

But from yourself, you cannot hide.
With my less than perfect body.
With my less than average brain,
My need for makeup, hair that’s knotty.

I know I could be better
Or you never would have left.
There MUST be something wrong with me
Some bad thing left unkept.

Or maybe you did look past my face,
Though ugly as it is.
Maybe I'm just a stupid freak.
With weird ideas. A downright geek.

Times like this I wish I could just cut my wrist.
But I cant. Too many promises.
But I dream about it night and day...
I wish I could just fade away.

Not like anyone would notice,
Or wonder where id been.
Nobody would ever question
Why I was never seen again.
4.5k · Nov 2015
Senior Year
Lilly Tereza Nov 2015
School
Seven
******
Hours
Of
Our
Lives,
Feels like we're tied
Up in a world
Full of people trying to
bring us down.
In four years I've watched
My best friends' smiles
Turn to frowns
Only to be replaced by
Red lines on skin,
Straight like the coke she snorts
Just to get high
And FEEL something
For a little while.
This is old but I can't sleep
4.2k · Nov 2012
My Sweet Little World
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
Escape
so wanted
but only comes
Once a year
for me.

You see me standing
here,
yet you do not see
the hands that hold me
to this world
that's not
my own
with force so strong
I cannot leave.
I cannot
slip
away.

My world
with grass so soft and lush
purple sky
with blue that
leaks like a stream
through a garden.

The lonely tree
so tall
a single branch
weighed down
by a swing.
my swing.

Walk some ways
down the hill
so steep
that in this world
you'd fall right off the edge
and down into the sky.

But you aren't in this world
you're in mine.

And you'll find a circle
of stones laid out
around a pit
of electric blue
the flames of a fire
but it
wont
burn.

Spread your arms
fall backwards
into flame.

This world obeys
ask for flowers
and they will grow.
I wave my hand across the sky
and
paint
a
rainbow.

But these hand so strong
grip me here
this world
where nothing changes.
overcome by sadness,
and half
as mad
as me.
3.3k · Jan 2013
Zombie Zombie
Lilly Tereza Jan 2013
Zombie Zombie
Can't you see?
What those pills
Have done to me?

Do you know?
Does it show?
Who I am
You do not know.

I am you.

Remember when
You laughed and Sang?
When sounds of poetry
Did ring?
Forever in your mind?

Zombie put away your drool
Find a mind
To be your tool.
Get a grip and GO!

Zombie Zombie
Where's your art?
Remember when
You worked so hard?
To make sure it was good?

Zombie Zombie
In your haze
Please wake from your
drugged out daze,
I'm waiting here
For you.
3.3k · Nov 2012
Nightmares
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
Running.
Running.
Never stopping.
Isn’t that what you want?

Hiding.
Hiding.
Always Hidden.
Did you really think I forgot?

I run and run,
And look for cover.
But still the tortures
Will persist.

They call these dreams?
This, is a nightmare.
On and on..
I don’t want this.

A brand new terror
Every night.
Plucked from my brain,
For the worst of frights.

On and on
My dream recurring,
Peaceful nights
All fade away.

I wake up crying,
No comfort for me.
I pray and hope…
Yet the nightmares stay.

Spiders, heart break,
Those are easy.
Darkness, Pain,
One and the same.

From telling me
Iv been forgotten,
To drowning slow
In acid rain.

I hope one day
They leave my head,
I hate the feel
Of constant dread.

So lets hope that
When again a sleep,
Ill dream of something soft,
Like sheep.
3.3k · Nov 2012
I Was Only A Child
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
I was only a child.

My Father? My hero.
My Mother? My doctor.
My Puppy? My best friend.
And me.

Yet I was only a child.

Santa was real,
The tooth Fairy too.
My street was as big as the world
So new.

Because I was only a child.

I was a princess
And a ballerina
My Puppy would stop by for a cup of tea,
Mom too.

Fore I was only a child.

Then along came a baby.
I had to start school.
My Puppy passed on
With Granny.

I could no longer be a child.

Years were a blur
Boys were important
Mom and dad yelled
At me.

And I wished I could still be a child.

Life got too hard,
I constantly struggled
I chose to visit my Puppy.
I’m sorry.

But I was still just a child.
3.0k · Nov 2012
ABC's of a Broken Heart
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
A
Kiss, stolen in secret.
Away, from prying eyes.

Before
The the school
Bell rang.

Can't
You see the memories
Concealed behind my eyes?

Do
You even care
Don't you even see my tears?

Eventually
They say I will forget.
Even though I know I never will.

Fore
Your smell still lingers on my clothes.
Forever etched into my brain.

Going
Round and round my head,
Got to forget your kiss.

Help
Me move on and
Hold my head up high.

It
Simply does no good to remember.
I* swear I'm going mad.

Just
The way you say my name.
Jynn*... Like it's beautiful.

Kill
Me before I fall too deeply addicted to your
Kiss, so sweet and soft.

Love
The age old
Lie, told by every member of your kind.

Maybe
I can do this on
My own, free myself from you.

Never
Did I think I'd
Need you this much.

Only
Boy to ever truly
Own my heart.

Probably
the most
Painful of any hurt.

Quiet
Tears as loud and
Obnoxious as a car alarm.

Running
Away from my fears.
Ripping you from my life.

Stop
Trying to
Stay, It only makes it harder.

Today
Is the day I finally
Tear away from the life I hate.

Unfortunately,  
My heart and brain
Unanimously decided that life was caused by you.

Very
Well, If you agree. This
Vacancy in my life is not for you.

Won't
You let me die?
Why must you torture me so?

eX-treme
Heartache, I
eX-alted you so.

You,
The love of my life. un-
Yielding rollar coaster, just wont stop.

Zombie
Of my former self, drained of
Zest, and life.
2.9k · Nov 2012
My Body is a Garden
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
My body is a garden,
My soul a swimming pool,
My mind a deep black pit of doubt,
And all this is for you.

And in the garden, you plant seeds,
With a kiss on my lips,
Or your breath upon my cheek.
Your hugs all leave me feeling weak,
My body is a garden.

And in the pool you like to swim,
Or float on rafts of joy.
And in the pool you’ll always stay,
If you’re a dream I wont awake,
My soul is like a pool.

And now you have the pit of doubt,
Of which you try to ease.
You nurse it like it has the flu,
Erasing doubts of me and you,
My minds a pit of doubt.


But then the truth shines ever there,
Deep in my heart, is Love.
Love that blooms for you, my dear,
Ill never stray, ill stay right here,
Because I do love you.
2.8k · Dec 2012
Burning Underwater
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
Rushing
Underwater
This tunnel sweeps me on
When will it give me
the gift
Of my next breath?
My lungs
Burn.

So many exits
Little answers
Side tunnels that lead
To an explanation
The tunnel sweeps me to one,
Then drags me back
Again.

It will not let me go.

Where will I
Be left?
Wet,
Gasping for air?
Will I be free?
Or will I fall
Forever sinking,
Into the sea?

Rushing
Underwater
Into the dark of the tunnel.
Waiting
To come up
For air.
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
I am fine.

Today is fine.
Hello world,
I'm glad to see you
Now that I
Know how to smile.

I'm happy.

Maybe today
I'll win the lottery.
Gotta test my luck.
How great to
Take that money home.

Before I lose
Everything, I love you.

Did
You know
I always will?
Now the day is up,
Goodnight.
2.6k · Nov 2012
Poets
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
Some of us write to feel the pain,
Some to let it go.
Some write just because it rhymes,
Others just don’t know.
Nature and its beauty,
A graveyard with its ghost.
A dream of futures happy,
Passion is in most.
A poem that's so delicate
Words straight from a heart.
Only from a dreamer's soul,
Their words a work of art.
A poem is a gateway,
That leads into the mind,
A passage that is hard to reach,
And double hard to find.
But you can find it if you look
Into some troubled eyes,
You never know what each word means,
My lines are held-in cries.
But others could be just to say
"Hello", "Have a great day"
It just depends who’s writing,
And who might come their way.
2.6k · Nov 2012
Of Blood and Cotton Balls
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
I’d stopped.
I HAD!
I promise...
But now it starts again.
New blades
New cuts
New problems...
But still the same old Jynn.
The scars add up to 81,
No, make that 92.
They never seem to go away
Stuck to my skin like glue.
I write this not with anguish
As oft' my poems are.
Just with simple curiosity
At the make-up of a scar.
It starts out with a split
In the gentle human flesh
The blood pours like a flood or stream
Or tidal wave. Nothing less.
The blood runs down
Then starts to drip
As you relish in the sting.
Then you realize
What a mess you’ve made
Grab some cotton ***** to clean.
Wash most of it downs the drain,
Wipe the rest off of your skin.
And once the bleeding settles down....
Pick up the blade and start again.
2.5k · Nov 2012
Angel?
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
You asked me if I was an Angel
As you looked into my eyes.
I said that no, I wasn’t,
But you looked at me, surprised.

No, I’m not an Angel, or even close
To those beautiful creatures of God.
There are too many things wrong with me...
To think that I am is quite odd.

When surely you’re the angel here,
But they say that no Angel can lie.
Yet I know for sure that you must be one,
With the good that you've brought into my life.

I met you in my darkest hour,
When id lost all hope for trust.
I’d given up hope on every thing,
And I thought that death was a must.

Yet you held on tight and brought me back,
The real me, who'd long been forgotten.
You found her, and saved her and cared for her too,
And you became her closest guy-friend.

And after that you loved me true,
And the real me...
She fell in love with you.

So you must be the Angel, no sinner like me.
Who can hardly tell right from wrong.
With your smile and love, you’re MY Angel.
Our love as true as a song.
2.5k · Nov 2012
Perfection
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
"Be perfect! Be Perfect!"
That’s all that you say.
And I swear that I will be,
I'm closer each day.

"You're perfect, you're perfect"
Words I want to ring true.
I'm not, but I will be,
Though I already am to you.

I make myself perfect,
In my very own way.
Some might call it insane,
But what can I say?

Each fight with my dad?
I go add some more.
Each time we get angry?
A brand new score.

I'm perfectly imperfect.
It says so on my skin.
With my sharp razor blade,
I'm carving it in.

So please don’t worry,
I'm only doing as you wish.
I can deal with the pain,
It’s hardly a pinch.

Perfect, it says,
With my very own pen.
And I smile at the word,
And write it again.
2.4k · Nov 2012
Poetry Anatomy
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
What is a poem?
A list of words,
thrown carelessly onto the paper?

No, a poem is more.

It's where I can tell you
about the boy who broke my heart
and steps on it every day
as he holds her hand.

Or the one who stole
that thing so dear
that a girl cannot get back.
then left me there to wilt,
a flower stripped of her petals
and left me on the floor.

Or the one who took that shattered heart
and put it together
with jagged pieces
of his own.
Then as he went to hand it back,
changed his mind and kept it-
locked it in a cage
where he can torture it-
Beat it and showed his friends
as it sputtered
lifeless
to
the
ground.

A poem is freedom
your soul exposed
to the world for all to see,
and feel
and laugh
and shutter.

Poetry is the heart explained.
Trials and tribulations.
The Father with a temper so short and fierce.
Mother who's seldom home.
Friends with knives held ready
to stab you in the back.

The thing's one cannot say
or hope to explain.
These are poems.

And I
am
a Poet.
2.3k · Nov 2012
Pressure
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
The pressure building in my chest,
Pain that I cant put to rest.
I want to scream this isn’t fair,
I scratch my arm, the skin wont tear.
The pressure grows; I'm gunna burst...
Unless I can release it first.
I stumble for the bathroom door,
I trip, and crumple to the floor.
I look up, through the haze of tears,
I see my target, and worst of fears.
But I reach and grab it nonetheless,
A razor, nice and clean and fresh.
The razors cheap, so blades break lose.
A sharpened blade for me to use.
My skin that at first wouldn’t break,
Is left torn and bleeding in its wake.
The pressure ebbs out through my vain,
Until the cuts rid me of my pain.
Some turn to drugs, and others drink,
But I can clean my medicine in the sink,
So I can use it next I need,
To ease the pain, that need to bleed.
Few others truly understand,
And many just cant comprehend.
No, I'm not proud, but I won’t stop.
Until my spirits cease to drop.
So please don’t judge, and please don’t hate,
Unless you can make it go away.
That’s all I want,
That’s all I crave,
Is to rid myself,
And start a new day.
1.9k · Nov 2012
Drummer's Blood
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
The rush
The motion
The perfect clarity.
When everything comes together.
It’s more than you will ever know,
You sing the words,
You tap your feet.
But I make it complete.
The familiar burning in my arms,
The aching in my feet,
I hear the notes,
I know the words,
And then,
I make the beat.
I nod my head,
I thrash my arms,
A mystic dance with every limb.
The amazing rumble in my gut,
That’s goes unnoticed by them.
I am the drummer
Through and through,
You’ll never get the things I do,
Oh singer with your voice so clear,
My singer and my friend,
I know I'm gone,
But I’ll return,
Not for my house, or clothes, or friends,
But to be apart of my favorite band.
1.9k · Nov 2012
A lightless Room
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
A lonely stool
A lightless room
And a girl who sits
And waits.

The sticky floor,
Her ****** body.
As tears drip down
Her face.

When out of the darkness
Comes a boy
With fluffy dark
Black hair

The boy that she loves
Yet she won’t smile
She can only sit
And stare.

He smiles and kisses
The top of her head
It only makes her
Cry harder.

And as he leans back
And punches her face
She swears the room
Gets darker.

He kicks and she screams
He pulls out her hair
He slashes at her with
A knife.

And when he says sorry
'He hopes she forgives him'
She wishes he'd just take
Her life.

He says not to worry
In time she'll forget
But she knows that he'll be
There tomorrow.

The boy that she love
Is now her worse nightmare?
And fills her life
With sorrow.
Lilly Tereza Feb 2013
Busy Busy
All around.
Lost inside a world
Of sound.
Breakfast food
Is being served
Much too loud,
Can’t hear a word.
Children laughing,
Baby cries,
Teachers run
With bloodshot eyes.
And yet amid the
Morning roar,
Sits a hungry
Little girl.
Apple gripped inside
Her hands
She obeys her tummy’s
Strict demands.
Hustle Bustle
Drowning out
Her shocked and fearful
Little shout.
Thieving apple,
Evil food,
Took away
Her baby tooth.
1.7k · Dec 2012
Thunder
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
CRASH*              The
                                    Jagged
                     ­                       Edges                                     ­   BOOM
                                                     Of
    BANG                                             A
                                                    Rainy
     ­                                       Night                     ­       CRASH
                                                  ­  Made
                BOOM                            Noticed
­                                                                 ­   Only
                                                            ­                 By                                 BANG
                                                          ­                       Thunder
1.5k · Nov 2012
A Deadly Stranger
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
I have many names
But I’m a sickness through
And through.

Many names have I
But if you’ve got me, I’ve
Got you.

I’ll make your heart speed up
And you’ll sweat, and shake,
And stutter.

Your heart speeds up because of me
If you’re infected, call
Your mother.

I’m a blessing and a curse
Still I’m afraid there is
No cure.

I’m a curse and I’m a blessing
Do you have me? Can’t
Be sure.

I’m a deadly state of mind
Be aware of
The above.

Of states of mind, I am quite deadly
Don’t you know me? Call
Me Love.
1.5k · May 2017
Update
Lilly Tereza May 2017
I was not supposed to get this far;
I should not breathe this air.
I'm riding a wave of borrowed time
I don't believe is fair.

I'm older and wiser
and fatter and poorer
and I'm burning my fuse
at both ends

But tomorrow I'll wake up
and put on my make up
And try not to let down my friends.
How is everybody? I think I need this outlet again. It has really been a while. It would be nice to catch up with anybody who wants to shoot me a message.
1.5k · Dec 2012
Military Twitch
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
Army films.

twitch

Marine films.

twitch

Navy films.

Twitch

Air force films

twitch

Too many memories
Of a me
I was not proud
To be.

And yet
Much too proud
to have been.

Twitch

They call commands again.

Do not respond

twitch

Must not respond

twitch

I need to leave
1.4k · Nov 2012
I'm Sick
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
I'm sick of the nicknames
I'm sick of the lies.
I'm sick of this itchy,
And fading disguise.

I remember the smiles,
From times too long done.
I remember our laughter,
Our schemes, and our fun.

But now we just sit,
And study our books.
We study our peers,
And popular looks.

Everyone’s against us.
We sneak and we steal,
We try not to conform,
To others appeal.

But we lack motivation,
We lack that famed drive.
That when we were younger
Made us wish we could fly.

If we all worked together
To push ourselves up,
Instead of the poisoning
That makes us give up.

We could make the world see
That what they said was wrong,
We could control our own lives,
No matter how short or how long.
1.2k · Jan 2013
Monopoly
Lilly Tereza Jan 2013
The death in my heart

Weighs heavy on my soul.

I cannot go on.

I cannot pass go.

So please take my

Two hundred dollars.
1.1k · Nov 2012
Love to Let
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
I’ll love you if you let me.

I promise, every day.

If you come into my open arms,

There’d be nothing more to say.


Your face is always on my mind,

Whether sleeping or awake,

All I need is to see your smile,

just once please, for my sake?


I’ll never cause you any harm,

I’ll never do you wrong,

You’re the one that always comes to mind,

When I hear a new love song.


Your voice so cute,

it makes me smile,

To think of it

even for a while.


Youre perfect in every way to me,

so I completely understand

If youre heart belongs to someone else,

You must be in high demand.


All I need to ask of you,

If you’d like to hear my plea,

You don’t have to fall in love my friend,

Just please, consider me?
1.1k · Nov 2012
The Moving Heart
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
I walk into the room
And look around.
Though it is empty of belongings,
It is full of memories.
I will never see these familiar walls
Again,
Yet I do not cry.
I am comforted
By the thought that I will
One day feel the same
Of my new house,
Though far away.
I run my hands over the walls,
Feeling the holes
From where
Tacks once held up posters,
Pictures of friends,
And a few flyers from school.
They are all packed away now…
Ready to be taken away
To my next house
And be mixed with flyers
From my next school
And photos of
My new friends.
I have stopped bothering with thoughts
Of if they’ll like me, and
If my teachers will be nice.
It’s trivial and
Pointless.
I wont be there
Forever.
1.1k · Feb 2013
Six Years
Lilly Tereza Feb 2013
On the year that we met,
You wore all black
I wore baggy clothes
And greasy hair.
Yet you saw through the acne
And the atrocious appearance,
And I saw a light
In the dark.
You took my shyness
And replaced it with strength.
And I am forever
Grateful.

On the second year
My clothes fit
Though they were oft’ stained
Splattered with paint
And you were away with band.
You’d pick on my crush,
And we fought.
But at the end of the day
You’d still call and say sorry
And I would cry,
And you’d tell me it would be fine.
And things would be fine.

The third year was a charm
You grew up faster
I wore tie die
You wore skinny jeans.
We never left the other’s side.
People would call us names
But you just laughed
And kept your head held high
And taught me to do
The same.

The fourth year was a tragedy.
News like a spark
Our whole world burning down
And yet that last day
You still let me cry on your shoulder
In the middle of band
And stayed strong for me
Even though we both knew
It hurt.

The fifth year was a struggle
10 hours
Like a force field
Keeping us apart.
Tears were shed.
My life was changing.
But you were always there
Like a rock
Unmoving.

This sixth year has been a miracle.
I did not think I would see the end of it.
But the miracle is that I will.
And the miracle was you.
Who told me to shut up.
Who taught me to wake up.
And thanks to you
And all of your strength
There will be a seventh year.
And an eighth.
And many more to come.

Friendship is like Love.
It is seldom true
Or pure.
But our friendship is both.
And I wouldn’t trade it
For anything
In this beautiful
Beautiful
World.
For the best friend anybody could ever have.
1.1k · Nov 2012
Mommy (Haiku)
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
I watch you leaving.
Your hug is all I'm needing.
Mommy, please dont go.
930 · Dec 2012
Teacher Teacher
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
Teacher, Teacher,
Leave me be
Can't you tell
That I can't breath?

Mind malfunction
Push it down
Hide from all the
Peers around.

Silent screams,
I bite my tongue
Don't know what to do,
I'm young.

Teary eyes
Stare up at you,
Teacher, Teacher,
Thought you knew.
875 · Jan 2013
A Long One
Lilly Tereza Jan 2013
This is a long one,
Though just the beginning
Of a story to be told
To you.
Poet, or lover
Of poetry's sweet touch,
Enjoy,
Indulge yourself.
The written word is dying
Sick and Ill
On Time's death bed
Rotting away
Until the day when
All that is left
Is a swift
"TTYL"
And the art
Will be gone
For good.

Scattered as my
brain my be
I see the coming of the
end of all
I love
So dearly as
To share with it my
Deepest secrets.
Poetry is my blood,
Tick and red,
Falling away from the nicks
Of life
And landing softly
In your eyes.
Oh reader,
See and believe
That it is up to I,
And up to you,
To Write
To Breath the words
Of poetry.

This is a long one,
But we're near the end.
So don't let my
Lover
Die.
Oh reader,
Keep the love
Alive.
845 · Feb 2013
An Old Song I Wrote.
Lilly Tereza Feb 2013
This is not a suicide
Ignore the bullet through my eye
The carpet splattered with my blood
Just shows you what the world has done
To me.

Just wait and see.

This is me breaking lose and running free
The product of society.
When Fake is real
And Real’s a lie.
Just goes to show that no one tries.

We just can’t help ourselves,
We doom the world.
The future of every boy and girl.
Dying trees and smog filled air.
I can’t be the only one that cares.

They tell us to express ourselves
While telling us how we should think
It’s like they throw us in the ocean
Then say that it’s okay to sink!
841 · Nov 2012
Bathe Within the River Red.
Lilly Tereza Nov 2012
Drip
Drip
The Blood runs down,
So drink it up
Before you drown.
It won't come cheap,
So thick, so sweet.
The Blood drips down,
The Blood drips down.
Children, raising blades up high
Blood so pure
But they won't cry.
Father looking on, so proud
Mother, Bled out on the ground.
Children smile,
Blood runs down.
Drink it!
Drink it!
Or you'll drown.
836 · Jan 2013
ABC
Lilly Tereza Jan 2013
ABC
And let the pain engulf me
And erase the thoughts of you

Because anything
Because everything

Can hurt less
Could do less damage.
786 · Dec 2012
"Issues"
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
Slipping
Down
Down
Under
Over
Flying
Flailing
Falling.

Talk to me when you're fine...

You didn't have to hide

Too much drama

Attention *****

My problems,
That took courage
To spill to you.

I'm so sorry,
That they can be
A little
Annoying.

I wont make
That same mistake
Again.
719 · Dec 2012
Side Effects of Love
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
Love
A curse designed
To tear you
Piece by broken
Piece
Into a hell
Far worse than
What the devil
has to give.
Drug me up
Let
Me fall into
An antidepressant
Dream
Tossing in my bed
Of stolen thoughts
Ups and downs
Reds and blues
Mes and yous.
I'm lost,
Dead
To this world
Who let me fall-
Withered
Like a plucked flower
To the floor.
702 · Jan 2013
All The Similar Differences
Lilly Tereza Jan 2013
Two people.
Same things.
Such different meanings.

A man walks into a room,
Taking a seat at his chair,
As a woman walks in to another
And sits down on a bed.

He is in a prison.
She, in a hospital.
He has killed.
She bears life.

As his family comes to watch
Hers pile in to the room.
They strap him to the chairs,
They strap her to the mattres.

I.V. in his arm.
I.V. in hers.
And as he screams,
She wails,
Both in agony.

So similar.
So different.

Beginnings
And Endings

Life and Death.

Hand in Hand.

Forever.
702 · Feb 2013
A Change
Lilly Tereza Feb 2013
I'm done putting faith
In the Faithless.

I'm done giving my heart
To the Heartless.

I'm done trying so hard
For the Lazy.

So now, I'm living
For Me.
694 · Dec 2012
Mars to her Sister
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
Earth, my dear, you're rather ill.
Those pesky bugs,
you have them still?
Come on Girl, get a grip.

Your infection has been spreading,
Poor Moon is looking gray!
I even think they've got to me,
Though not as bad, I'd say.

Jupiter's been talking,
These rumors aren't kind!
I swear I didn't tell him,
He heard through the astroid vine.

Sister dear, I love you,
I swear you used to be hot!
Even the Sun took intrest!
Though now, he'd rather not.

Get rid of those pesky buggarts,
You're powerful, you know.
Just **** 'em off and heal yourself.
Just let those vermin go!
685 · Jan 2013
Rainbows in the Sky
Lilly Tereza Jan 2013
Pan
Bi
Trans
****
Hetro
Who the
****'s to say
How a person wants to love
And how they live
Their day?
Guy on guy,
******* girl,
What's the matter
With our world
That that defines
A human?
If a man
Wants to sleep
With a man,
Make sure he uses
A ******.
If A girl wants to kiss
A girl,
Don't shower hate
Upon them.
Love is love.
Hearts
Not parts.
Let that rainbow flag
Wave free
One day there'll be
A better world
Where we
Can love
More free.
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
Your smile makes my heart stop
and speed up
at the same time.
And even though you've
hurt me lots,
I know you're always mine.

The simple way
you say my name.
Your pretty light brown eyes.
I find it's never hard to say
the "Love"s, the "You"s, the "I"s.

And when you wrap
me in your arms
and hold on to me
tight,
I hope you'll never let me go,
I'd stay there,
day and night.

Your warmth,
Your touch,
Your comfort.
Your stories and
Your stares.
Your kisses,
Hugs, and
Gestures,
Your "I'll always be there"s.

You said to list
the reasons why
I love you
like I do,
but babe, I've tried
to tell you,
I love you cuz you're **You
675 · Feb 2013
Release
Lilly Tereza Feb 2013
Oh, I have been released.
My river had dried.
I was dying of thirst.
But now words flood my mind.

I want to make,
To create.
To BE.

Oh, I have been released,
And nothing could feel
So good.
659 · Jan 2013
When I am Dead
Lilly Tereza Jan 2013
I do not speak of years to come,
I rarely speak of days.
I do not know
What tomorrow holds,
But let it come,
Come what may.

And should it hide
It's weary head,
And if, my friend,
My years should end,
My secrets are yours to hide,
When I am dead.
654 · Nov 2015
Bedtime thoughts
Lilly Tereza Nov 2015
I can't explain the thrill I get
When he sweetly holds my hand,

After a morning of wrapping those same
Fingers around my throat.
652 · Dec 2012
Blink
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
Blink
Twitch twitch
Blink
Twitch twitch
Blink
Blink
Twitch
Blink

The theme song
Of an *episode

I wish
Was only one
I could watch
On T.V.

Meds that do
Wonders
At making me
Completely
Lose the
Mind
They're trying to
Save.
636 · Jan 2013
Writer's Mentality
Lilly Tereza Jan 2013
There is nothing,
I should say,
More insane than the Writer.
For who should be more
In love with the written word
Than a person
Who gives up meals
And social Events
To indulge in the
Sacred,
Pressing,
Most heinously addicting,
Act of writing ones thoughts
Down, permanently,
For generations to read
Long after it makes since,
If it ever
Really
Did?
620 · Dec 2012
Sinking
Lilly Tereza Dec 2012
Blind to the Pictures
Flashing like sirens
Can you see them?
In my head.
A kiss
A hug
Breath like fog
Drunk on your smell
High on your touch
Hands like sin-
Always in the places
We fear
The most
573 · Jan 2013
Boldly Hidden
Lilly Tereza Jan 2013
Rid me of the
Absolutely disgusting
Presence that I hope
E**ventually fades
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