Someone once
asked what her
being triggered
was like, she closed
her eyes and thought
of planes crashing and
car accidents but instead said
the beach
falling asleep under direct sun
only to wind up drowning
when you open your eyes, gargling
salt water where once had
been air, forgetting how
to swim, knowing you could die
right there

Once there was a broken girl,
That fell for a sweet girl,
And she became her sun, her light, her everything,
And the flower on earth,
She loved her more then every grain of sand,
Her favorite books,
Lazy Sundays,
Baggy sweaters,
And even more then all the scars on her body,
But nothing last forever,
And she left her,
Like everyone else,
The girl then learned,
You must love yourself first,
Because your happiness,
Can not rely on other people,
Because as quickly as they come,
They go don't let them fool you,
There once was a broken girl,
That fell for a sweet girl,
And she took he sun, her light, her everything..

Every time he looks at me
I see cracks in his eyes that remind me
Of the only word I’ve ever truly known:
Hope.

He is so prepared to lay himself out at my altar,
Plunge the dagger into his ****** chest,
Bleed onto my statues.
I will not,
I can not,
do the same.

They call me monster behind closed doors.
How can I do that to someone?
How can I let them yearn and pine without giving them a chance,
A chance to be the apple to my eye,
the moon to my tide,
and every cliche in between?

He thinks I can just kiss his scars away.
That my bruised and swollen love can heal his hurt.
But I can’t be his savior and mine.
I will always come first.

you are there
even when i
dont really want
you around,
but, in those times
i need you most.
you beautiful,
gorgeous,
breathtaking.
and don't deny it
because you took
mine away,
no matter what anyone
may say,
you took mine away.
my affections
for you,
never
wavers
you my dear
are my favorite.
i don't desire
you because the
gifts you give,
except the one,
of your love.
just because
your not gay,
and neither am i,
doesn't mean
we can't be
gay together.