I haven't been able to concentrate today.
Everything is out of focus,
except for you.
You are in painstaking clarity.

You are flooding my mind
and I am drowning
Submerged in memories
that play on a loop

We've become entangled
and we enjoyed it
because we only considered the present
and ignored the inevitable future

Now its crashed all around us
I'm struggling to untie the knots
Because I don't want to
Because I'm afraid you'll drift away

But then I remember why I fell for you
Because we have an insane amount of things in common
Because you are fun to talk to
Because we make each other laugh

Thats when I know
that everything will be alright
That I can breathe easy
That we'll always be friends

My essential ***** is essentially orphaned
Drifting alone to the tune of sad songs
That beat with the beat of your chest
Enveloped within a fantasy it developed:
That our hearts may have won by becoming as one

My reasoning mind finding reasons to mind
The emotions that keep me in motion
Still swallowed by love for you now I am swallowing to
Try erasing the doubts that are daunting:
That I'll never be whole with this hole where you were

My full body fully embodies the emptiness
That lays down in places where only you've laid
There's times when my soul can think solely of you but
I would be remiss not to be reminiscing:
A piece of me now rests in peace with the first that I loved

I am in a place where I used to be free
But now each day tears me apart mockingly

My loved ones are crying
My loved ones are dying

The pain chips at me, it is pain so it must
It proves that life only turns dust back to dust

I need your love now more than I ever did
But you wouldn't know, you have no more to give

fists clenched, bile burning
thoughts screaming, stomach churning
no moment of peace

Do you do what I do too?
Do you lie with starry skies
Unable to rest your eyes?
Do you stay in cold, still wait
Just to see the sunrise break?
Do you hope those first few rays
Can wake your mind from its bleak haze?
Do you wish it's painted bright
To ease aside the lonely night?

Morning dew, if you do too,
You saw today was gray in hue
But since you do what I do too,
Know someone's in the dark with you