Become

As he got out of the car,
Heading into work,
I gazed proudly at him.
He was a man now,
Always my child,
But not a baby anymore.
I studied his gait and posture.
It was so familiar...
I realized for first time,
How much he was like you.
Tall, slender, handsome and shy.
Loves to explore the outdoors.
Camping, hiking and tubing.
He is polite and quite,
Til there something important to say.
Smart, strong, and determined.
Nothing was ever handed to him.
If he wanted something,
He worked hard for it.
Never did he like to play sports.
He'd rather grow a garden,
Or make glass into a beautiful art.
His art takes my breath away.
Seeing the man he has become,
Its so bittersweet.
Our youngest,
Our baby boy,
You would be so proud,
Of the man he has become.
I'll never understand,
Why you chose to not be apart of their lives. Though we we're over,
They still needed you.
It's been ten years now,
Since they've heard your voice.
If you could only see,
What our youngest son has become...
Now that he is a young man,
It's like I'm meeting a younger you...

L. Mack

5/18/18

Pieces

Pieces of me ache in this haze,
As you dance with your demons.
I try to go on with my days.
Dishes, cooking and cleaning,
But the panic never fades.
If only I could take this from you.
Praying you will change your ways.

L. Mack

5/18/18

Moments

There's moments that I just can't quit crying,
Because I know that your so hungry
And cold that your digging in dumpsters for food and clothes.
I know that you are so high
That you don't care
What someone might do to you,
Or what you have to do to get your next fix. There's moments everyday,
When I can't hold it together
Because I know you are not safe.
I would give up my life
To make it all better for you. But I can't fix this for you.
So for now I cry for you.
My heart mourns for you.
I love you so much son.
I'm praying for you.

Love always,
Mom

L. Mack
4/29/18

Kryptonite

Mom, I feel like I can conquer the world. Like I'm superman and no one can beat me."
I looked deep into his glossy, dilated blue eyes and said
"There's kyriptonite out there for everyone babyboy."

L. Mack
6/8/2016

Morning Grace

The air is crisp,
For dawn is here.
Now is our time,
Father it is You i hold dear.
With an open heart and peace in my soul,
I worship You and everything else i let go.

L. Mack

2/27/16

Born

When Nate was born,
My heart began to beat.
When Brandon was born,
I took my first breath.
When Jace was born,
My spirit awoke.

L. Mack
2/15/10

Undefeated

Battles on,
Come on bring it.
Fear I will not,
My God is undefeated.
Evil surrounds me,
When I am weakest.
Satan yells "You'll never make it!
Misfit you are mine!
No doubt about it!
Your gonna fail,
Why even try?"
I tune him out,
No I won't listen.
I hear a gentle whisper
"My dear child,
I am your Father,
Fear no evil,
For I am with you,
Every second,
every minute,
every day.
You are forgiven.
I gave you grace and My mercy.
I am the Light,
I conquer darkness.
Stay by My side.
Do not wonder.
Be not afraid,
Just follow Me."
So here we,
here we...
Go, go, go, go, go....
Battles on,
Come on bring it.
Fear I will not,
My God is UNDEFEATED!
Evil surrounds me,
When I am weakest.
Fear I will not.
My Fathers with me.
So come on,
Bring it.
My Gods UNDEFEATED!

L. Mack
01/03/15