If I filled a pail with all of the words I never said, I would scoop out everything I really meant and
build you a castle,
crumbling with missed opportunity
When I laugh at your jokes, I really wish I could explain how you’re the only thing keeping me alive.
When I send you poems, it is because they make me think of you

We are two soft souls, wrestling to find love
I have found love in you, and I hope you think of me too.

When our lips first touched, it felt like I had finally made it to the day that I had marked in my calendar years ago
Saying goodbye was the day I was expecting
You were my lover lost in my dreams, who found his way to reality

When fear comes knocking at your door, lock it
Call me
I’ll be there in a minute

When pain breaks in through your window,
Do not fight back
Do not run away
Open your arms wide to her,
Embrace her
Then, call me and I will come to embrace you when pain leaves you all alone

If you ever cross sadness on the street, let her keep walking, and hold your head high
Do not make eye contact
Continue forth, you will make it to the other side

I hope that your happiness radiates from the sun
And when it rains down hard, just look for the split of the clouds
I will hold your umbrella

Some days, the monsoon rain will flood your heart with despair
But do not worry, I will toss a life saver to your soul and pull you in close, I promise to never let go

Hurt will come disguised as opportunity with light hair with bright eyes
Do not regret welcoming her
She just made room for love to move in

I will cover your walls with laughter and fill the air with I love yous
You can rest upon my love after a long day, I won’t mind

Just promise me this,
Promise me that you won’t move out unexpected, leaving me vacant
Call my hands home, and promise to me, that you will never leave them with nothing to hold

There are no shapes that can be formed by my lips  
No position that I can place my tongue in  
And nothing I can make my throat do  
To express what begs to be heard.  
There are no brushstrokes,  
No lines and no dots that can convey  
What is brimming inside me.  
Even the loudest sound  
Echoing off the bouncing of a string  
Or from air colliding through a brass chamber  
Would fail to touch what I wish to utter.  
No vibration  
No frequency  
No wavelength nor amplitude  
Could even come close to the  
silence that emits from the apertures of my face,  
a silence so total  
and a heart so raw  
Even the strongest attraction  
At the most microscopic level  
Would crumble before  
  
*this.

I have been longing to feel for so long that when it finally made its arrival I was too acquainted with the numbness and ran away.

The pen drew dots in my eyes,
my grip lessened and there I was
Nothingness

No, not bad
No, not good
Nothing

Nothing was...
Nothing

I liked to spend most of my time being nothing
in the bath tub
While the days happened without me
and blurred over like watercolor

Its hard to say
my feelings I had kept
Considering it is a shame
to be transparent,
to be plain not to mind
what I'm feeling
I walk passed you hoping
it'll just vanish by time
A mere face in the crowd
Would you give a glance?
But I think not co'z we're parallel lines
In my heart where it is hidden
emotions speak in every beat
There's something in you...
With just a glimpse,
You made my day
My eyes searching when no signs of you
Hoping I can see you everytime
But things get different
I get hopless
I know I have no chance.
I'm observer at things around,
hoping to know you more
But I think I see something
somehow I feel disappointed
Cold crept in me you were hugging her
I feel broken even though I'm just a stranger
I was right I thought,
Am I allowed to move on?
It appears to me not
Co'z were no connection
Its nothing but
I hate to admit I'm affected...