I respond to me
as never before
Body shows truth
I no longer ignore
This is one union
for which I did strive
Beliefs and emotions
that keep me alive
in suffering or happiness
This I decide

Earth is aligned with Galactic Core
Direct lines are open as never before.
Creating the home
we've been longing for ?
From Source this our essence
transplanted in hopes
we'd transcend expectation
revitalization
cross fertilization
Re-image the past
to create a new future
with great hearts afire
the challenge is on.
Earth is aligned with Galactic Core
Direct lines are open as never before.

Feminine Essence arrives from Sirius,
riding expansive emotions,
not equipped for Challenge Earth.  
Enter Orion Male Essence,
to irritate her into full glory.
Still refining the Balance.

The beaming child you were
yet dances free inside
though masked with adult care
her essence you can't hide
She takes you unaware
her mischief never still
She'll grace your life with pride
just only say you will
Say Yes !
By dreams she is your guide
on godbeams shall you ride

She has no mercy for herself
Her duty is to others
Selflessly she  keeps the peace
The penitence of Mothers.

Forgive me now the Pedestal
I see it was your Cross
My adoration kept you on
Your pedestal of Loss.

Forgive me too my arrogance
I thought I saw you true
Your saintliness a chosen role
Full You I never knew

Holy Suffering  now Unveiled
Goddess Martyr  Self-Impaled.

Be my lover, my sister, my mother, my friend
you share your vision that I may be nourished
stroking my soul with  beauty unending
breathing your joy in continued rebirthing !

Grant me your succor Oh sweet lambent spirit
I bask in this heavenly realm
shaken to life with senses imploding
expanding in earthened delight !

One day I'll look back
and name these blessed good days
Why wait ? I smile now.

Good marriage has its dead zones.
We grant each other space
Respectfully on private paths
with truths we've yet to face
Kindly we ask not too much
we trust we're here as needed
but silent subtle habits grow
with warning signs unheeded.

I have you and you have me
no fear that this will change
but if we long to feel alive
what must we rearrange?

Invite me into solitude
Disturb me when you dare
The cost is comfort
Gain unknown
Our Mysteries to share.

a grand plan there may well be
beyond our reach, that certainty
accepting that it is unknown
in ignorance our seeds are sown
in suffering we strive to be
surmounting all, creatively
**our very passions by design
who watches us learns lessons fine
experiment, this universe,
pray we are blessing more than curse

greet
life
pulsing  
deep in wounds
when scars reopen raw
resist reflexive closure
with unflinching presence
as portal beacons timely truth

A magical world
bleeding through
to other realities
longings
pains
joys
dreams
canvases
****** of muses
drama and rescue
symphony of wands

For life a woman sheltered
a wandering child of twenty
Shared delight in escapades
crying when she chose a cage
But now the brambles ***** your heels
In murky ground you're sinking
I offer you this haven heart
my teacher now needs soothing
Remember how we know it's true that*
Wisdom ebbs and flows
Some trials of age
reduce the sage
to trembling floundering terrors
You taught me how to heal the child
Now's time to heal the mother
*I hold you dear for all you are
Safe upon the shifting shore

Healing I send
to you who this touches
it costs not a thing
but is freely expressed
I am not diminished
nor burdened with sorrow
but rich in this spiral
expanding with love.

Holy Grail
I drink from you
Faith beyond knowing

upon a roof,a man and boy
the child walks the plank
man teaching son what he's become
with jabs and slams of  judgment  
fear for growing male as he
for being what he was
curious this loving child
who went to war with men
company of dying and of dead
seeking shelter
bombed
punished by his own
follow orders, do or die
everafter live the lie

Oh how I do Desire you
you luscious vibrant creature
Dance with me ! Do not resist !
Our Passion we'll uncover

And I the Crone am here to offer
Wisdom, Grace and Power
Handing you a Magic Key
to Honor your own Fire

Allow us now to merge in you
Relax and see we guide you true
Your path is not a righteous hell
but sweet Creation~
All is Well

He goes to sleep early
just drops and goes where
I have still hours to unwind
to calm the waves of the day
wrestle issues into confinement
sound proof cells locked
against unguarded sleep
where at last I fall
too deep to feel the pounding
wondering in the morning
how the bruising bloomed

I am hub central
I send thought feelers
interdimensionally
over time and space
as I know it
If you feel me now
you may
think it's you

on the line
after all these years
your skivvies hang
now crotch forward
ever hopeful

so many words
yet not enough
to breathe with scented wind
see colors and the space defined
in fractal symmetry
our footfalls on the path
this mind is full of pulsing me
with words push your way in
I flood and overflow
don't stop this
spilling where I am

Love it or Judge it
I already am It.
******.

in a moment of safety
securely unknown
I ask
what value the scarring hard earned
and when I surrender
what harm that I've lost my edge
since I know nothing
what of the wisdom
I blindly vow to share
timely or timeless
a breath of the essence
nourishing fragrance of care

I bow to you who nurtures
to you who loves ~~  is loved
imagination fertile
playmate on the par
sparkling mind expanding mind
it's beauty that you are

I see with joy dreams dared and shared
borne from deep embrace
support with give and take you make
shared life a sacred place

Image Shattered
what it is :
shards of stone cold dead
Who is it
trembling now exposed
no patterned paths to tread
Who I Knew    I Was    Now Am Not
future can't be read
present glows  ~  potential vast
Unknown   my Friend   my Dread

In the belly
of the Mother
unseen the God
Spirit is received
In the belly
of the Mother
unseen the seeds
begin to quicken
In the belly
of the Mother*
sacred reunion
fertility of Earth

Excited I am
immersed in your music
to witness essential soul
   flowing through fingers
in passionate dances
  raw tenders with humorous roll.

Variant genius
your stories recanted
in cadence to memories drive
now syncopate rhythm with fresh melodia
haunt intertwining vines.

Joyous transmissions
you have developed
beyond the range of words
evolving anew
each time that you play them
vitality trilling the urge !

these mountains
surround

bare bones rising
sharp subtle silent
stratified waves of color
crumble into gifts I can hold

your legs
strong, furred, angled against mine

your mountainness
impossibly I am held

He says
I believe
I create
though phrases elude
just inhale this moment's aroma so fleeting
now detoured to no known path
dance then in freefall
the grounding unseen
*sounding wordless exhale

in heat summer sleep I stir
find my skin melded to yours
dreamfeeling your flesh now mine
I dare not kiss
for where wet lips touch
you will dissolve
and be less my man more my food

Never had thought of myself in this way.
It's just that I don't want to sleep !
Wandering thoughts yield directions to roam.
Darkness and silence entice me to deep
explorations such as I never would fathom
in daylight and company I keep.

There is no poem.
There is only me, breathing.
Inspiration flows.

much I would say to you
but lacking courage I am sure
you will not  hear
so we remain apart
presumed safe
in stasis  
our loss

..............

.....................................

six days of practice dissolving illusion

mystical workings in sacred safe womb

  vacillate brave new from patterned habitual

wondering alchemically

integrate whom

..........
....

I retreat
allowing bones to rest on heat
asking them to do no work
shirk responsibilities....
Where are they now ?
Respond to body, just to me
stopping this insanity
not viewing life as one long test
of strength, endurance, be the best
resisting seeing me as wrong
which I have done all along
Give more, appease that judge within
who's never pleased, with focus grim
so now I stop and just receive
the love that's mine
no cause to grieve.

This night a wildish symphony
bold crickets' rubs and frogs.
Some I misname or not name at all
and some I cannot hear.
Air decadent, moist, sweet delicate warm
permeates me..... incessantly.

What breathing, changing boundary holds and defines me?
None Now

I am beckoned and welcomed by All
so
Come Morning I shall dig.
I will kneel in hungry gratitude
for opening of Earth
Plant myself deep as I can
while tending Iris, Lily, Rose.
I am here now !

until all freezes no color will grow
no blooms no creatures here flying
Then what does it matter I'd just as soon Spirit
is welcome to sweep me away.

But I've gone too far now.
Come back to this moment
with sun warming morning
when
**I  Shall   with  Deep  Reverence   Dig.

skin loved by summer
left the garden green
to be among the fish
immersed in water silky
being itself a lake
mind and body weightless
wonder that I so small
expand from sand to shore

sharing feelings long withheld
promised open space*
but now
He sleeps
I wait

Now ribs need healing
painfully popped from sockets
myself I wrestle

~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
a d o r a t i o n
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
gratefully experiencing this moment
  e x p a n d i n g
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~  
*there is no other

I long for my soul
that travels with you
as I am with hunger
that just you can fill.
I imagine you thus, my completion
when in truth I perceive only me
in my dream my delusion of lack.
While we are intact our creation
with stories of struggle revival and pain
as we meet and remember and dance with each other
learning and playing this journey again....

I chose to be born in summer,
when my body is loved by air
and immersed in my mother's water.
I am salt .. water .. cured

dreams and desires
deliberate fires
surrounding , expanding my realm

I feed and am fed
inspiration , obsession
creating til weariness wins

   fire and hunger
never fulfilled
surrender mind body and soul
tempered kindling