That's it?
You leave just like that
Quicker then lighting
You ran far away.


Am I too much to handle?
Am I too messed up?
Is my body to littered in scars for you too look at?

You promised you would never leave
And look at that
Your straight out the door
As **** gets tough


You swore you would stay
Not matter what
But look at us now
2 million miles apart
Because I was too much

i'm so tired of meaningless conversations with meaningless people...
i'm so tired of meaningless kisses...
i'm so tired of meaninglessness...

can't i just invest my energy in one person that really deserves it,
rather than dividing myself to temporary flings
that don't even feed my soul?

nothing really excites me anymore.
it's either everything has changed & i've remained the same
or everything is stagnant & i've changed so drastically that
i just don't fit in this environment anymore.
i'm like a fish that's been over fed
& this pond is too small & dull for me now.
i need to be thrown into the ocean.
i belong in the ocean.
dear universe, throw me into the ocean...

NO ONE KNOWS YOU BETTER THAN YOURSELF, NOT YOUR BEST FRIEND, HUSBAND OR EVEN YOUR MOTHER. DON’T LET ANYONE INFLUENCE OR FOOL YOU INTO GOING AGAINST YOUR GRAIN, EVER.
ALL THE ANSWERS TO ALL THE QUESTIONS YOU MAY HAVE, THE DOUBTS, THE FEARS OR SIMPLE CURIOSITY LIE IN THE PALACE OF YOUR HEART. YOU ARE A PRINCESS ADORNED WITH ALL OF THE RICHES YOU WILL EVER NEED TO LIVE A SUCCESSFUL LIFE AND YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND SMART.
SO CLAIM YOUR INHERITANCE, SPEAK AND ACT LIKE ROYALTY, HOLD YOUR HEAD HIGH AND REACH OUR SWEET HEAVEN. DON’T LET PEOPLE OR CIRCUMSTANCES SWAY YOU FROM YOUR THRONE OF BELIEFS, STRIKE YOUR MAGIC WAND TO MAKE IT HAPPEN.
USE YOUR AUTHORITY WITH CONFIDENCE AND WATCH YOUR AUDIENCE OBEYING WITH REVERENCE. YOUR LEGACY IS TO PROSPER AND IN YOUR REALM MAKE A NOTABLE DIFFERENCE.

It's extremely dangerous to get so close to someone.
You don't know what to expect or what's gonna come out of it.
You start spending more and more time with them until you feel weird if you're not with them.
They make you laugh, they make you smile, they make you wonder how you lived so long without them.
But then things seem to change.
They know so much about you- or at least think they do- that they stop trying to learn more.
They stop trying to be more involved in your life.
They just settle for where you guys are at now.
And it ***** for the person that wishes the other would give more effort.
It ***** because it's not how it used to be.
No more laughing at everything, no more catching yourselves smiling at eachother.
Everything seems so routine and dull.
No life
No excitement
No more feeling.
Just a settle for how things are now.

Maybe you left because you finally saw me, the way I see myself.