Melancholy sea
Drowning in tears of sorrow
From the pain you hide

I am a constant cry inside
It gets to me all the time
I can't seem to forget about it
It seems it has embedded itself into my mind
Why can't I put it aside
It has gotten me deep inside
I am constantly bugged by it all the time
It won't stop, i can't stop, something about it
It is like a constant buzz or ring in my mind
I can't help but sigh......

they ask me
what is depression like?
they later leave me alone
going with other people
and i curl up in my bed
and cry
that is my depression
the cold feeling that settles around me like a cloud
watching them
when my tears are condensed into fog
clouding my eyes
all i want to do is to see clearly
i'm trapped in a hallway
with no end
i'm running and running from my depression
i feel nothing
when i suddenly fall
the dread that hangs around me all day

they don't notice
my fake smiles and teary eyes
my gloom hidden behind a mask of unfeeling
that
to me
is my depression

I thought were getting closer
But everytime we talk
You were cold
You didn't say much
Did you even know how to listen

Why you're treating me like this
How could you just ignore all of it
When will be the time you'll realize that I was here
Where would that be
What should i do now.

Im torturing my helpless mind
I can't figure out the said response
As I go on to be with you
I started to sacrifice something in my life
That I thought I can't

Why you're making me feel this way
How could you not say anything
When will be that moment you'll say those words
Where would that be
What should i do then.

I just keep on pretending
That everything seems right
I complained but you said
Don't make things complicated
And then I stop.

I have a little present
for you today
it's green
and blue
and pink
and gray

it helps my insides
grow and sway

it helps my sadness
tiredness
and hopelessness
go away

I hope this gift
of a bright smile
and a deep eye-gaze
into your heart
will stay

...

just for today
anyway!