killjoy

Sep 2017

Abbi

User cannot be found.
I suppose it's better that way.
User cannot be found.
So I wouldn't try to say "Hey"
User cannot be found.
A hole grows larger in my heart.
User cannot be found.
This is absolutely tearing me apart.
User cannot be found.
I'm sustained by the memories I keep.
User cannot be found.
And by the dreams that haunt me in my sleep.
User cannot be found.
I hope you're doing alright.
User cannot be found.
And that someone is appreciating you, holding you tight.
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If you all enjoyed this one, I urge you guys to check out my other poetry, as this one to myself is good but I'm much more proud of some of my others. Thank you all so much for your support and kind words. Glad you all could relate as I just wrote how I felt.

#online #missing #notfound #error #sadness

killjoy Sep 2017

Murdering Loneliness

I feel like
finding loneliness
and
murdering it
if i meet loneliness
just around the corner
of empty street
lying about, sleeping
ever so innocently
i would like to take up
my knife
and commit
clean
******;
no mess,
no fear,
no doubt
because it made
my friends
my sisters
my parents
and people all around
to cry and bawl
their eyes out
and loneliness would
realize
when one
dies
it wouldn't have
anyone
to held its hand
realizing one's own
crime
of making everyone ever so
sad

#letmefindlonelinessandmurderit

killjoy Sep 2017

Don't be sad

please don't be sad
my heart
will break,
feeling
crushed
with heaviness
in my throat
and fires
behind my eyes
because
if you cry
then
i will cry
and
i hate
to
cry
so please
don't be sad

#lonelinessmakessadness #dontbesad

killjoy Sep 2017

burning the witch

burnt at the stake
innocent or guilty
all in the hand of God
they ask hypocritical questions
are you abandoned by God
guess you will burn
did the God save you
let’s try once more

those who are asking
don’t know what they are doing
for those who are asking
will burn too while thinking
innocent or guilty

#judgement

killjoy Sep 2017

Critical Thinking

Principles and generality
Why are they met with such hostility?
When nothing else seems to make sense
In world that lurches and change
The only fall back I would have is
Validity and Verifiability

killjoy Sep 2017

Real

I wonder if I'm losing my mind
I feel that my thoughts are in bind

The legacy and intricacy so delicately woven
But I know underneath were all lies if proven

Falsehood mixed with sense of modesty
Blah, I don't want or need such courtesy

Show me the truth, and only the truth that lies within
With no horrid intention, my patience is wearing thin

And even then they are such a temporary relief
Because I constantly argue to expose the false belief

But masses rises in torrents to give lies a form in reality
Something that should not even be compare to truth in duality

And forevermore the generation continues to wrongly foster
Planted racism and prejudices which are the imposter

And our moral codes and principles are all but forgotten
As fear brew from lies that should have been left out rotten

My placid eyes somehow remains desert dry
Lost all ability to even try to cry

I am a witness, a citizen and a bystander
Feeling powerless and no one to slander

It has simply become so difficult to tell
What is real and what is not real in tale

#falsenews #realvsfantasy #liesvstruth #fear #politic #witness #againstracism

killjoy Sep 2017

Cheap Earrings

June claimed my sister's birthday
With glittering jewel of sunshine
So soon after my birthday in May
Passing red tulips and spring wind of mine

But all I could sadly afford
Was cheap earring in fake sliver
Could not even get fool's gold
Much less for a believer

Carved in angel wings
Delicate and weak as it seem
Free in high note it sings
Pair of the earring pawn as a team

Opening the present, it dawns
Quick, doesn't the lighting strikes
Shown on her face as she frowns
At the tip of her tongue is yikes

But I can't stop the smile at bay
When she wears them everyday

#sister #love #smile #littlethings