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2h Khadi Alza

hannah

you told me you could never be a poet
but
my eyes are like cats eye marbles
and
im a reminder of flower fields
at night
fireflies dancing between
strands of grass
and
dandelions
you used to write me poetry
with verses of
"i love you"
and
"see you tomorrow"
but
you told me you could never be a poet

15h Khadi Alza

why

15h Khadi Alza

Lyle

why

this was supposed to make everything better
so why do the tears never stop

1d Khadi Alza

Quiet

1d Khadi Alza

Liana

Quiet

I may be quiet
But that's just because my mind is loud

1d Khadi Alza

Eternal Maybe

1d Khadi Alza

alia

Eternal Maybe

life used to taste like sugar
now it’s just
something i chew to get by.

I smile like it’s scripted,
pause like there’s a laugh track,
but no one's laughing.

sometimes I look in the mirror
and wonder
if this is the real scene
or just a deleted one.

everyone’s moving,
and I’m stuck
editing myself
for a world that never hits “save.”

am I healing
or just hiding better?

I guess life isn’t a villain,
just a really bad friend.
but i keep texting it anyway.

Inspired by the Eternal Sunshine Album by Ariana Grande

1d Khadi Alza

The moon proves (Haiku)

1d Khadi Alza

Yuzuko

The moon proves (Haiku)

The moon sits above
Screaming you don't need to be
whole in order to shine

I love the moon and how it can be a good mentor and symbol of humans!!

#moon #shine #light #scream #above #haiku

2d Khadi Alza

Smile

2d Khadi Alza

Lostling

Smile

Too bright, tears fell unbidden
Like leaves do in the winter
When the wind, disappointed, sighs

Too loud. I wished for silence,
For companionship, or nothing at all.
Yet this is no fairy tale

You told me
“Let me see your beautiful smile.
For me, please?”

Thus I hid my face
So you didn't have to see me cry
And so I didn't have to listen

A memory from last year
Glad I got that out =)

#smile #cry

2d Khadi Alza

ACCEPTED

2d Khadi Alza

Blue Sapphire

ACCEPTED

All the grief,
all the pain –
I accept it
with both hands,
for it was given
to me
by the one
I love

2d Khadi Alza

hair

2d Khadi Alza

Lyle

hair

your fingers running through my hair
so soft
so delicate
and I swear
chills ran down my spine
as your fingertips brushed my neck
but you were so gentle
I would like to say I barely realized you were there
but I did
I was too conscious of you
and your every movement
and I never want my hair touched again
unless it's by you

3d Khadi Alza

Untitled

3d Khadi Alza

Lyle

Untitled

everything is dead
anxiety in my chest
I just want to bleed
I'm not of this world
scream at me some more
hit me till I break
there is no escape
demons claw and bite
I can barely breathe
tell me what you see
I only see blood
I only fear you
there is no more pain
scream at me some more
tell me what you think
obviously its truth
everything is dead
I just want to bleed

3d Khadi Alza

Instructions for Falling Apart

3d Khadi Alza

alia

Instructions for Falling Apart

Step 1: Smile.
Step 2: Forget why.
Step 3: Keep your voice steady
when your soul is not.
Step 4: Pretend it’s fine.
(Everyone else is.)

Step 5: Fold your feelings
into paper birds.
Set them loose.
Watch them burn mid-air.
Clap softly.
Repeat.

There is no final step.
You just keep going
until you don’t know
what breaking feels like anymore.