Stood alone
In the wilderness of the darkened  thoughts
That ravaged my peace of mind
With sight of light no where near
With none of my friends so dear
And family for whom I'm dear..
Alone I stood
Like the sky
Without the stars, moon and the sky
All alone darkly clouded...

Waiting for light..
to set everything right!!

Some days are like that
Nothing happens right
However you may try
Even with a cry...!!

Confused mind
Of  infused thoughts
Leaving pain undefeatable!!

In
Mind or body...??

Too confused!!

Deep hurts finds it's words
Understandable only
To paining souls!!

Flesh torn open
In the centre of heart
Makes me run around
Like a drunken mad ox
Out of pain....

Why have you inflicted on
Me so harsh a pierced drill
In the midheart...
Don’t you understand
It's feebleness.. ??
And
where you stayed safe so long !!

Will I survive ?

I'm
Not....
What you think me of...

I'm
what..
I'm made up of..

I love those ones
Who love silence
For...
I always admire silence ..
As silence speaks a lot .....
If understood ...!!

Tried  a hand in writing comedy
Gave it to friend to read  ready
Awaiting what her response bears
I saw her eyes fill with tears
Felt happy with instant hit of comedy
She replied " your best of all tragedy"

I stopped writing comedy...

I laugh
Laugh out loud
Painting a cheerful smile..
Springing two drops of tears
Fall from my eyes
Glittering and dazzling
Like smoothed diamond stones
But none will know
It's not the happy diamonds
But sad rough edged indian rock salt
Out ....having my heart torn apart!!

When I miss myself
And  my friends ..
A drive to the nearby monkeys' park
Is all that I need!!

Believe in your words
As it soothes my heart. .
Even if contradicts your deeds
That hurts my heart....

Love expressed by words
Melts my heart and drains my pain
Actions, again forms the pain
To hurt my heart in depth...

May be ...that's your love
May be that's what you love
To do with me..  
To hurt me in depth with your deeds!!!

But still. ...I love you like hell…...

If in your shoes , I stand
What is right to you
Might be right to me too...

Distance  apart...
if against you I stand
What is right to you
Is not  to me all right ...

What be my right
What out to be left
No one knows
Unless in my shoes
You stand !!

Never judge others..
From where you stand !!

I'm walking away......
I'm walking away from negativity
I'm walking away from atrocious vibes
I'm walking away from jitters
I'm walking away from obscurity
I'm walking away from all that makes me who I'm not...

I'm walking towards light
I'm walking towards prosperity
I'm walking towards hope confidently
I'm walking towards the right path
To be who I'm !!

Don't know if
I'm one and  only of  your's  
Or one of the many of your's !!

But ...

For me ....forever
You are the one , only for me
And the only one , for me !!

My mind is like the sky
So broad and high
With boundless dreams
To reach high...

My mind is like the sky
At times  it gets clouded
With a thousand worries and thoughts
And to get cleared again
Needs downpour of tears ..

My mind is like the sky
With bright sunshine
Paving my ways so bright and clear
Vanishing all darkness of thoughts..

My mind is like the sky ..
Seems so near to touch and feel
But to too distant to reach and understand ..

My mind is like the sky .....

The light of my life
The beat of my heart
The  thought of my mind
The  vision of my eyes
The love of my soul
My world...my ONLY world
Gifted by GOD !!
And that's you!!

Ocean of tears
Evaporated...
In the compassionate look of your's

I lay on the bed
Literally dread
Accompanied by the darkness of night
With no ray of light.

 Thoughts scurrying over my mind
With tears my eyes sensed blind
Past memories hit me a thunder
For coming out of it is wonder.

Reminisce of the Wonderful days
Together with dreadful days
Disconcerted the offended mind
Leading  tears ..tears behind
Dancing to the velocity of thoughts in mind till ....Sleep abides!!

Freightening sound of night
Dark tight without light
Sends shivers bones straight
And my mind moans outright
But then,
There you come as knight
Landing me in delight
To enjoy the beauty of night
Holding you firm with no fear in sight.....

I thought you as my sun
Shining only for me
I thought you as my moon
Gleaming only for me
I thought you as my star
Twinkling only for me
I thought you as my sky
Guarding high above, only me

But..it proved wrong...

Like the sun you shine
Like the moon you gleam
Like the stars you twinkle
Like the sky you guard
Not just me alone...
but many more along!!

Where the hell am I to go now??

The seeds I sow
Are growing every day
Like my love for you!!

I speak out my mind
But don't term me
"outspoken"

Liked me and loved me
loved me and left me
Left me and let me..
To die..
I'm dying...

U never let me sleep even light
By  being in my thoughts all night

I never let  that you know
For u never have time for me to know!!

You don't have to **** me dead
To move away from me
For I will already be dead
Before you move away from me!!

I don’t feel your love
But I believe you love me
And I trust my belief
As...trust matters!!

Who am I without you..
Who are you without me..
If you can answer me....
You can be you
And I will be me
And there won't be any WE......

Behind the woods
Beside the shrubs ..
Waiting for the rain drops
To dance nonstop
feathering out its beauty
Making us call it naughty.

But ...for the peacocks
It's a way to attract their mates
And pair it as soul mate !!

Opportunity knocked
Not once or twice
But many a time...
Yet, I never dared
To step along
Not because of fear
But, waiting for the dawn
beyond illusion.
But now
There are no knocks
And I walk within
With my gaze fixed
On the closed doors!!

Arrows flew, one after the next
Aiming at the moon
Pretty sure that they never hit
And the distance mocked
Like neither today nor ever!

Attempts became stubborn
arrows flew again, sharp and fast
Targeting, if not the moon, then
The stars scattered so beautifully.
But success distanced.…!

Tired of attempts in vain
A brave arrow rose, in dignity
tossed its head and changed its course
Did it mistake me for its moon?
Alas…Not at me!

I opened my eyes,
Gaze fixed on the sky
counting the stars
And the Moon smiled at me
with purest golden whisper
“The sky returns what you give.”

And I believe!!