you are
a red
velvet blanket, I want to
wrap up in
my cupcake

drown me,
if you
can

fold me up,
delicately
tuck me in your left
breast pocket
I am home

roses are red
violets are blue
you're ridiculous
I adore you

I would look
divine
wearing your skin
pour yourself all
over me

richer than chocolate
sweeter than gumdrops
the glimmer in your eyes
tells me
I'll be fine

burn it down, we
can make angels in
the ash

you are honey and
I
am a fleshy corpse
burning
away in the sun

for a moment, my
feet touched the
bottom

it's intriguing and black and
empty, but so full
you must see what's down
it's so hard to stay
away from the drain and sometimes
you don't even know what pulled
the plug
but your foot touches the hole and you just
sort of cry because
here we are
again
I thought we were past this
and it's all a Jenga
puzzle
over and ******* over again it
never ends, there is
no peace

just brief moments of relief
when you pull at a piece and the tower
doesn't collapse
you're still standing and
you go to take a breath and suddenly you're
chin up, clutching the side of
the tub
and all that comes out are
silent screams, as your gut rots in
ache

feeling is the human condition
we are a tad bit melancholic
us silly human creatures
we remember the past better than it was and
worry about things that have yet to (if ever) happen
and waste the present moment even though
we sometimes realize how fleeting it is
we **** it up anyway
and I think you just have to say
**** it
and go all in with whatever
you have, whatever you may be doing

the roots are dying
water
against your skin, ice cold
but it feels
like home

we wander
caged in bones
hiding under hanging cloaks
of flesh
visible
but uncared for
internal flowers, wilted
dry

unbearable ache
can't I just touch your face?
poppies
petals brush against my broken
sternum
please

time makes you forget
but I want to remember
everything
why can't I remember

I really like buttons
and the way
your hair is
swept
in all directions

the way you slowly grab my hands
you say start over
and here we are
finally, at last
you can't speak
you can't say those words out loud
but I hear you screaming to me
it feels like forever
but as you walk away
I scream aloud
those words from my heart and soul
all those words you wrote down
the love of eternity
you tried to say, and I couldn't breathe
I won't lose those words you said to me
as you got up and let me be
that last kiss
as you walked away
there you were
in front of me
and away you go

as the waves crash in
caressing my sin
with the clever words
to make me sleep
live with this secret
the shores make me keep
the rivers wash me clean
only to keep me here
rinsing my lies
from me
just to keep me here
the waters speak
with cold intentions
so I stay careful
not to slip a word
water slips beneath
to carry me away
into a sea of lies

I am the rainbow
I am the ocean
I am your favorite breath to breathe

stale taste
at the bitter edges of my thin tongue
more of a feel
something in the air
dryness
raking in my throat
for every simple gulp
I try to swallow
my pride

you
in my dreams
always
in my sleep
never here
you are a flower I can't smell
the flower I picked

and when I got home, died
the one who made my life
you made me fly
while I watched you die
absorbing your illness

I am the water
that diluted your pain

rain, touch my skin
kiss me, softly
your silk burns
lie down next to me
speak what you see
it's your turn

silly
is the wind
to think
it may carry
leaves and branches
with such nothingness
leaving pieces
behind

a box of matches for one life
a match every year
to light the candles on your cake
the flame goes out
watch your life disintegrate

when the tide pulls you under,
and it will
remember who taught you how
to swim

I will eat you alive
I will swallow you whole
I will not hesitate
and I,
will laugh

emotions are tricky, little creatures
but they should always be
wild

glide your
scissors
down my
skin
open
me up
I'll let
you
in

I am the ocean
and you are
just the sand beneath
the tide

tomorrow is
forever
I ache for every tomorrow
with you