You left "I love you" in my lungs,
so I chain smoked cigarettes to fill them with nicotine.

You left butterflies in my stomach,
so I guzzled *** to make them drown.

You left hope in my soul,
so I popped some pills to make it numb.

You left passion in my body,
so I expired my meals to make it disappear.

You left me with memories,
so I gave myself scars.

Apparently, we were there
holding each other,
Inside, trying our best
to keep it together.  

But, honestly we both knew
Our bodies were there
But, love had left.

You left me with a memory
A story I'll never forget
You did me a favour
Gave me a lesson to remember

Lashes jewelled with tears
Days of regrets
Promises that were foreign
Apologies that meant nothing

You left me with low expectations
Not necessarily a bad thing
Used to the abuse
You left me with thick skin

You left me with life skills
And defensive mechanisms
Taking nothing for granted
Always appreciating simple things

You left me stubborn
With unshakeable morals
You left me strong
Able to pick myself up after a fall

I am left thinking the worst of life is over
I've met a bad apple I've met them all
You've left centuries of wise in just a young soul
You left a winner who takes all

First day without you
feels wrong and healed...

I battled against everything that came my way
And maybr that's life, nothing more, nothing less
I thought I'd win eventually and closed my eyes to the hurtful light
Unheard the little warning/threats of my mind
Fell in a dream, a sweet dream we could not sustain
What should I do? My wish came true

And don't get me wrong
I like what I've done
But I feel your absence and it hurts somehow
I haven't cried, I haven't shouted...
But I've fell in a kinda trance...

But oh baby Alex
What hurts the most is being away from you
Missing our frame of mind: your smile that would never make me cry
Oh it hurts this disconnection
between matters between soul and mind
between desire and reality,
between what one could be and what one really is;
between the many sides of me, screaming and fighting.

How are we going to do it?

I didn't know that I loved you
Until I realized you stopped loving me
I pushed and I pushed until you went away
Then I realized that's not how I want it to be
Now when I see you
My heart stops, restarts
Then skips a beat
But now I finally realize
I always loved you
Just not the same way you loved me

Darling, have we reached perfection?
The pinnacle, the peak
Our hearts and minds fully aligned
No need to utter a word to be heard

Darling, can I call you mine?
Your name, eternally on my lips
Satisfied each day with your presence
I'll guard your heart from pain

Darling, can I be your lover?
It began with a touch of your hand
Now I'm aroused by the rest of you
Continuing to quench desires thirst

Darling, how can I resist your beauty?
Your eyes, they smile at me, I'm crushed
Lips of silk, work their magic
Hypnotic curves, lead me astray

Darling, can you stay?
With me till my last breath
Our story, it's not yet finished ...

... Darling, can you stay?