I'm gonna just make a meal
The kids are hungry
A distraction from how I feel
A break from worry...

I guess it's true The only thing good
that came from us
Was a child who should
not have to be fatherless
He was even named after you
Irregardless of opinions from a few
In hopes you would love him more
Enough for your frontside to walk through his door
But hey...Its hard to have a baby with a *****...

Every action has a reaction
Things don't just spontaneously happen
I was fine before i walked in
And seen you standing there next to the garbage bin....
I should have known right then
The lethalness in ever becoming your future kin
Why? You? I allowed myself to foolishly believe in
instead I should of just focused on my paper and pen
Look at the floor and there's my chin
Its always a matter of time before we sin
I rock back and forth, again and again

Everyday people say
things like this:
You know Marie, Every child is a blessing---
but It's such
a cliche thing to say.

There were 3 pregnancies...
Mine included
Only 1 prevailed

I sipped my liquor;
She ate her dinner.

Although diluted...
...so I disputed.

This is what 'they' really wanted.
Meanwhile, I already birthed 3 kids.

A happily Married couple vs.
A woman who was simply supple!

I still Wonder why
This pregnancy survived.................

I try to believe in this world but deep down I know it's a dark LIE
My flesh needs justice so my spirit begins to
effectively DIE
My intentions shockingly transform into darkness and I'm drawn IN
Evil trickery has become the fad nowadays and light has also become DIM

Yet the fact still and always will remain
the power of love is far too great

It's a dreary day here today
With malicious actions; what more can I say
finished my hit list; no one else to betray
So let the Solitude come my way
These walls have become my cell, just pass me my tray
I'm doing some thinking; night into day
i hope your sorrows are shrinking away
Now, have a blessed day....

Distorted, vain, fearful and nervous
I'm crumbling inside my warped mind My darkness is void and heartless
But when I'm with you, those were just lies
I long to give you justice...
It's been said 'What's easy isn't always right!'
Blindly, you persecute our happiness
But loving you is worth the attack and fight.
I want you to always redefine my bliss
Waking up to you throughout each sunrise
Medicine to heal us is in our lips
Together with you through the lows or highs
I feel protected in gently holding your fist
Our child Happy because of you and I.
I think your finally getting the gist
We'd say 'Not too bad' For this lifetime
I'm awake with nightmares on my wrists
Eternal love sure does fly by
My happy place consistently insists
The love we shared, It will never die
...Our Beautiful rise and fall with a death kiss
yet, again and again, side by side