Things are going so well. Why do I feel like everything is just going to fall apart soon after?*

Sometimes, when we have experienced pain and hardship, it can be difficult to believe that good thing can happen, and when they happen, that they can last. Because you've been in a dark place, you feel like the light might go out at any time. It's not going to. You are the one who controls the light switch.

Sometimes we fear the unknown. Embrace where you are and take things day by day. I'm sure you'll be great at whatever is ahead.

When life is feeling great and it's something you're not use to, it can bring a sense of worry like you're living the calm before the storm. But, once we learn to live in the moment that sense will go away, and make this positive time more likely to stay.

I hope sadness doesn't exist,
Cause it doesn't just hurt me,
It hurts people around me too,
Although when the world is against me,
There are actually a few people stay and remain by my side,
Trying to cheer me up,
They try what they can do or even more to make me feel calm
But in the end, I still friend with sadness.
I ******* hate it,
I don't want to let them down,
I ******* don't!

It's not fair to them,
They did their best,
But I still trapped,
I always try to recover my best self,
Hope that one day,
I could walk out from the darkness and give them a big smile,
The smile from the bottom of the heart.
And a big heart.

*Thanks for being by my side always, always

The alarm clock by her bedside,
It shows 11:11,
She cross her fingers like she usually did,
Ready to make a wish,
But after a moment of pause,
She uncrosses her fingers.


She smile and shook her head,
"**** haha, it's like 11:11 gonna fulfill my wish? God can't see me, remember?"

Turn the alarm clock to the other side.
Staring at her wrist,
Speak in a low tone.

"Maybe I'll wish one more.
I hope I can wake up tomorrow and I hope you finally see me."

I'm suffocating in my own thoughts,
the one I used to get so proud of,
I shout for help,
so please,
please don't just cross your arms standing by the side,
staring and do nothing.

And there we sat,
I stroked her hair and she lay across my lap...



we waited for the sky to fall down.