Echoing thoughts

Silence between us

And gravity never felt heavier,

I said words that cracked the silence like lightning

and crashed into some of hers

She never spoke after,

Well not full sentences, slight words and mumbles

Perfection like sleep always seems to elude me

We stayed up,

We stood still, with echoing thoughts in our mind of what we should of said.

The lines on her face narrates,

How are you going to lose interest when I just got used to you?

How are you going to lose interest when I just got used to you.

How are you going to lose interest when I just got used to you...

I've kissed this whiskey bottle too many times reminsicing about your lips. A heartbreak and a hangover.

****** white paper can I tell you my secrets?

Can the blackness that has coloured my heart
Spoil your purity to form stroke lines?

Can
      these
             words paint pictures like painters do on canvases ?

Can these
               tears
                      flow freely like overflowing river banks?

Who do I pay to the order of? , trying to cash these emotional cheques.

                      Square boxes missing check marks

Yes? , No?

Can I tell you a few secrets?
Can a NOUN and Pronoun verb ADVERB?

To which government do I pay syntax?

Will you judge me if I put U before I ?

Pure white paper, I do not understand this language called love.

I'll leave you blank,  
*   even when she aimed at me with with bullets instead.


- Jason R. Johnson

I love Sunsets, I just f#cking hate that you chose to love them too.

These bed sheets formed hills out of your curves,  and
             I leaned in to place my lips gently, on yours
like morning dew that sits on a blade of grass, and a  

ZAP!

came from the build up

                                of electric charge

A half smile and a frown,
        I stopped you from using your hand to soothe the pain from your lips, and kissed you  instead

In a room filled with natural light
You shone the brightest


The wind whistles and tree branches with ice filled cracks, breaks trying to dance with the wind.

And we were warmed knowing

        That on cold days we were not alone


.....and no it's not selfish that you stole the duvet and wrapped yourself into a cocoon.

Jan 7th. 2016

She rebelled against everything she thought I wanted her to be

Who have you become my love?

Destroying all of her to show me that there is not much more to her

Where have you gone my love?

Out all night because her thoughts at home, keeps her up til morning.

My love?

She did not answer there was hate in her face and sadness in her laughter, she held it all together in her tight dress, while taking pictures she posted to let the world think she is much better after.

Her caption read..

“One day you’ll realize what you had, much after you’ve made a few more mistakes and you’ve broken a few more promises and you left a girl that believed in Love and lost herself to you, one day you’ll realize that pain when these tears comes from your daughter.”

And she added her smile as a filter.



Jason R. Johnson

I can't talk to you when your energy is off

Winter sharp winds

Between the spaces of your words
Silence is no longer comfort
And you're hurt trying to form sentences
To end things
To stop your heart from hurting
Hurt things, Hurt things
Too much weight on my touch pad keys
Forming words
To reassure you of yours.
Doubt loves fear
I feel yours
Even with the few words

Your energy is off
And my patience is thin

In Love no one wins.

03.01.16

Her body spread across my bed.
Silhouettes of her moulded by my duvet cover

The sun rays peeked through the blinds, she now awaken, wiped the sleep from her eyes while adjusting to the light.

I adjusted to her.

Body heat comforted the cold morning air.

Admiring everything that we are.

Caught in between the duvet and a moment.

I feel her and not just in the physical sense of her

The scent of her lingers in my pillows, the scent of us lingers in the duvet

I think there was a moment where she said, no we said, **** we would never say. Like, I think I love you. There might have been a few kisses in between deep breaths, deep breaths because our bodies would die without air

But who cares

Lips locked, caught a few hairs in my mouth
We laughed while I pulled it out
and she smiled when I put it in.

Deep thoughts
She said
She love
She loves everything about me especially what’s within.

I felt like
I mean we felt like
No time felt like it was frozen.

And she froze, let out a sigh mid ******

Silence

I laughed at the frizziness of her hair
Wiped away a loose eyelash

I could of made a few more wishes but I already had what I wished for,

Sunday Mornings with you.

Oct. 6th. 2014

By: Jason R. Johnson

Love drunk murderers

                                                    subtweeting our inadequacies

Opening apps to know how you feel.

140 characters

                        but you chose to act like a *****.

If I curse your name at the bottom of the ocean

do you hear it?

        - Jason R. Johnson

The words "I Loved you!" Screamed at the top of her lungs, and vibrated through my ears.

...and you know I just stood there after all her tears and her words and after I heard her heart shattered into a million pieces, I stood there. Lost, not sure of what I wanted or what to do.
I thought about chasing after her and telling her "I told you I cared!, I told you I loved you too!"

I stood still

On the other side of the door I thought I would of chased you,

I didn't

Please don't take the blame

I spend most of my mornings doing adult things like, freaking out about how fast time passes.

Serving heart breaks
On the assembly line
You don't want me in this state

You don't want me at this time

Breaking hearts to break the monotony  
Breaking hearts to see If I can still feel mine

Please Lord
Realign these energies.