Suffocation,its just a feeling.
Not the type when you're deep under the ocean, with water filling your lungs,
Not the type when you're in a galaxy of burning stars surrounded by a void of unbreathable air.
Suffocation, the type where you sit in the corner of your room, wrapping your spine between your delicate hands.
Your knees, taking shelter in your chest.
Your head held up so high,
Not because of pride,
But because the tears won't stop drowning every inch of you.
Because your mouth is trying to take in every last bit of breath.
Because your hair is a silk veil that covers what is now left in ruins.

This kind of suffocation.
The one where you can't take breaths to stay alive.
The one where your lungs are so empty for you to scream, to shout so they can notice your pain.
This is the kind of suffocation where you're amongst people yet feeling everything so deeply.
They ask you to laugh, but they don't know that once you try to move your lips, you will suffocate.

You're a Demon
Rust Red like the fires of hell
You're full of Pride and Greed
Yet we're friends
But still you're too Sinful
A short Devil with brown hair and lipstick
Devils and Royals don't mix
Violet doesn't go with Rust

When you say "her" do you mean me?
During your lonely nights, about whom do you dream?

Does your breath catch if I'm standing too close?
Is my affection a drug on which you can overdose?

I spent so many nights after you were gone,
Talking to these ****** walls,
Telling them stories about you.
Telling them how your perfection can move them.
How your feelings can create waves in the oceans,
How your smile could place the stars in my sky..
" he said he loves me " i spoke to them. I saw them move in waves around me. I saw them shift into what could be eternity.
Trying to drown me into them.
Trying to take me away from all this.
" leave me be " i said with my eyes dropping blood on the sheets.
My feelings leaking out of them as if they were rusted, leaking out of them as if they were of no use.
What would i want with my eyes if they can't see you? And what would i want with my body if it dsnt touch yours.
I took my hand and raised it high. Placed it on the wall, i was ready to die.
I felt the force of it pull me in, i felt it deep from within.
I shut my eyes, i dried my tears, i prayed to god and spoke what i feared. Take me away, was my only wish. But then i recalled that i was away..
When i was with him, i was in another place.
I was in my own heaven with my own angel.
I was the worst of the best but he didn't mind it.
I was his happiness and his smiles.
I was never the sadness in his eyes.
I opened my eyes, and looked around.
Took those pills and threw them out.
I don't want happiness if its not you, i don't want a life where i'm not loving you.
I crawled to bed and imagined him there,
Right there in my arms as i gave his face a kiss.
As my hands went through his hair, as my arm went down to his chest. Bare.
His chest that rose.
Bare.
Skin to skin i could feel him.. This was real to me.
I then smiled, and fell asleep.
Cause i don't mind seeing him here, i dont mind seeing him in my dreams..