I wouldn’t be where I am without you.
I’d still be wandering, wondering.
I thought you would be my support,
But you showed me that I needed to be my own.
You’re easy to get along with,
Since you never talk back.
Your make up so simple,
But I could never recreate you.
If I don’t see you for a day,
I know that I’ll still be ok,
But I need you in my life.
I hope no one ever takes you away.
I was told that you were my best hope,
And you turned out to be the only hope I have.
My mind is more free because of you.
I can finally go a day
without wanting to fall asleep
And never awake.
So I just wanted to thank you.
You never want anything in return,
And that’s what we have in common.
Who knew that something so small
Could make such a big impact on my dismal life.
Other people may use you,
But they don’t see what I see in you.
I see hope,
Hope for the future,
Hope for a better life,
And hope that one day
I may never need you again.

I didn’t know it was a sea of glass
That I was jumping into
Until I was already cut open.
What had looked so inviting and clear,
Now opaque and stained
With the crimson that had once flowed
Through my gentle veins.
The stitches that people offered
Were not enough
To sew me back together.
So I lay shattered,
Just like that beautiful, broken mess
That was the sea of glass.

The last reflection that I saw clearly
Came from the face you made
Right before walking away.
It wasn’t one of disgust
Or even of disdain.
It was as if you were exhausted.
Like you had given your all
For far too long.
I guess you were right
To walk away when you did.
No one can blame you for it
And especially not I.
You should have left sooner
Before you decided
To take my heart with you.

All I see
When I gaze into mirrors
Is a reflection of you.
Who you wanted me to be
And whom I forced myself to become.
I would be lying
If I told you that I’d be here today
Without your help.
I guess that’s why
You never came back home.

Your wedding gown still sits in my closet.
I refuse to touch it.
The last time I did,
it was sliding off of your fragile frame.
You seemed so happy in that moment.
Everything seemed so… Perfect.
The lights were on, and you didn’t care.
You smiled at me,
so deviously,
Because you already knew
You would be giving that smile to someone else less than a year later.

I longed for her cool touch
to cool my burning desire.
I later realized,
I couldn't thaw her frozen heart.

I didn’t mark on my calendar
The day that you took your things and left.
I refuse to remember who I was before that day.
I’ll never look back and find the defining moment of who I now am,
But I have a feeling your footsteps led the way.