My heart races at the thought of her
More than happiness flows through my veins
If I wasn't going to miss her so much
I would......
I would......
nevermind I would miss her too much
But lets pretend I was strong enough to bathe the clouds in my blood so that the joy she makes my heart pump rains out into the world so everyone can see crimson clouds and say
" that looks like love.....
The love that make a the thought of you immortal.....
The love that erases all sinister deeds as it imprisons our hearts in an euphoric state of forever....
The love that makes time drag its feet across the day for it is weak with out you but yet flies to everywhere and back when im with you"
This is my love for you and if ever I am high and strong enough I'll prove it
But untill then please love me like I already have....

You show me many things
But seldom show me yourself
You teach me to conquer every obstacle
But to be concur with myself
I am not contempt with mind
You persuade me to think past that
when I ask asked you for advice
You said listen to the wise man
He as a lot of it
The business part of God
Made us corporate

The day we met
You implanted a seed
A seed labellabeled as imperfect

The next day
A tree with the sweetest offerings grew
But with it came decay
Abounded branches of love
Bearing buds of heartbreak
As the heavy branches holding fruits
That remind me of you seek support
From my ribs as they tear through my skin
I bleeeeed I pleeeed for the need
Of the expulsion of the so called seed
Of trust

The next day
I choked on a thorn
When I saw you
And when I coughed up the leaves of death
I love you was my last breath....

Do you know the truth?
Any truth, any truth at all?
If yes can you prove that its true?
How many lies have you been told?
How do you know anything if you can't prove it?

You see we are all living a lie this is all a game
A game of rapid change
Both winner and loser are one in the same
like colour with no light we do not
Exist.

We see what we think we see
We react on what we feel
Thus it should not be generalised
As a good nor bad action
But as the actions of thee emotions,

So feel good and you shall do good

But feel dark and twisted and everyone around you shall suffer through pain covered In glistening gloom as the suffering dwell within your mind haunting every suvaneer of memory you have,

Think happy thoughts.

I love you
i hurt you
I need you
i don't deserve you

You fall inlove...
my guilt and conscious has formed an alliance against my thoughts.
You want to carry my burdens and suffer with me...

i can't have that
i push you away
you suffer more

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