I did my best,
I can't even take a rest
Yet, every single person treats me like a pest,
I guess it's a curse, coz I'm the eldest.

Saw you waiting for her,
Saw you fighting for her,
While I am
Busy waiting for you,
Been wanting to be with you,
Even if I wait million years,
Can you tell me if I deserve you?

I do wonder, what's in her that you'd always choose her?
What's in me that you can't even see?
Feeling lost, feeling anxious
But still, feeling ambitious
Hoping you'll look at me.

Hold,
As I am cold.
Stay away,
As I'll leave today.
Slowly,
I'll make a progress
and forget that
You died this day.

I know I should've not come here,
I know I should've not come near,
Hearing your cries,
Makes me want to withdraw all my lies,
'Come closer,' you uttered
I couldn't
Because your life mattered

I can't feel anything.
I'm just empty.
I can't absorb everything.
I'm so lonely.
I can't just take this.
I feel so gloomy.
What shoud I do?

I didn't choose you,
My heart did.