For the first time,
You didn't greet me with a smile.

Don't be so quick to give your heart to anyone.
                                     *You're giving them a loaded gun.

I'm so sorry..
For keeping you on my mind..
When you truly belonged to someone else..
And was never really mine.

When you teased me and smiled,
I thought we had something worthwhile.

But to her the same is done,
And I just wanted to run.

I can't wait to see you.
                                *I just can't wait to see you.

There's work to be done,
Every single day.
But all I want is fun,
To say what I want to say.

Live life and to love,
I can't help but pray.
Make peace like a dove,
I hope you will stay.

Laughter and joy,
Fill up the light.
Blood shoot eyes- oy,
Take over my night.

What's important now,
I can't seem to tell.
"I'll get better," I vow.
Most likely in hell.

I once had a dream,
That I wished was true.

Not because it was perfect.
But to get over the you.

Let me tell you something my dear.
                                   *You're my one and only fear.

My heart broke a little today.
Because even though I've finally moved on,
All the reasons why I loved you
*Came rushing back like a flood.

sort of a mess
but okay nonetheless.

What did I do
to deserve
all this  pain
and  **suffering?

The girl stared at them silently,
                her eyes and nose running.
"Why can't it be me?"
        she whispered bleeding.

We didn't have a fling or really anything,
but I thought you should know:
*I'm finally letting you go.

After all this time,
It wasn't you breaking my heart.
I held the hammer even when you were gone.

The only thing on my wish list is you.
                                        *Sadly, Santa isn't real.

You can enjoy someone's presence
like their style
want to laugh with them
be their number one fan
but never
never
*fall for them.

She lay naked and raw in the back of his car with all her clothes on.

If you catch yourself falling for someone,
                                                        ­                       *run.

When I close my eyes,
You run toward me.
Startled at the sight,
I open them to see.

You're gone like the wind,
But never were you there.
I fall to the ground saying,
*"This is too much to bear."

Every time we meet,

There's an awkward pause between each word said
as if it was rehearsed a thousand times in our heads.

There's a tension that pulls us together,
but keeps us apart forever.

You look at me
no longer with love.
Searching to see
an opportunity to leave.

"I miss you. I always have and always will. Please come back to me."

Of course, I don't say this out loud
because I know you don't want to hear it.

As a matter of fact,
you don't care enough to not want it anymore.

Instead,
I make up an excuse that we both know isn't true.

But you let it go
because us being friends is all for show.

what began as a choice,
ended up as an addiction.

-love or drug

With an open wound bleeding,
                         and blood slipping past my fingers,
                                                        ­      I  smile at the beautiful killer.

You did a hell of a good job convincing me that you love me.

*What a fool I was to believe.

People pity the One Who Loved,
But no one ever thinks of the One Who Couldn't.

The One who had to end it because She was incapable of loving Him.
The One who's heart was twisted because She despised herself.
The One who knew She would never be treated that way again.
The One who hated only taking, but didn't know how to give.
The One who lied because He deserved better.

The One who tried but couldn't.


*I lost someone who truly loved me
Because I was unable To Love Him

I'm trying oh so very hard,
                    *But you don't even notice.

tell me
why you love me
and I'll give you
a reason to fly

With tears
streaming down
her face,
she finally
said,
"I can't do
this anymore."
His furrowed brows
were
no longer
angry.
Instead,
he started laughing.
"I treated you like ****,
and it took you
this long
to walk away."

No longer makes her heart race, stomach churn, or knees tremble.
It is like hearing the door open, and his voice float down the hall as he says,
"I'm home."

Waiting,
        Waiting,
               Waiting,
For someone that is not coming back..

Or is he?

Without your "goodnight,"
It can never be a good night.