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7.8k · Oct 2017
Untitled
soyun Oct 2017
There is a certain Beauty in Brokenness
And Purpose in Pain.
999 · Sep 2015
loaded.
soyun Sep 2015
Don't be so quick to give your heart to anyone.
                                     *You're giving them a loaded gun.
993 · Feb 2016
Untitled
soyun Feb 2016
For the first time,
You didn't greet me with a smile.
990 · Feb 2016
Untitled
soyun Feb 2016
I'm so sorry..
For keeping you on my mind..
When you truly belonged to someone else..
And was never really mine.
744 · Sep 2015
Similar
soyun Sep 2015
When you teased me and smiled,
I thought we had something worthwhile.

But to her the same is done,
And I just wanted to run.
661 · Sep 2015
see you
soyun Sep 2015
I can't wait to see you.
                                *I just can't wait to see you.
642 · Sep 2015
Procrastinating
soyun Sep 2015
There's work to be done,
Every single day.
But all I want is fun,
To say what I want to say.

Live life and to love,
I can't help but pray.
Make peace like a dove,
I hope you will stay.

Laughter and joy,
Fill up the light.
Blood shoot eyes- oy,
Take over my night.

What's important now,
I can't seem to tell.
"I'll get better," I vow.
Most likely in hell.
566 · Sep 2015
Dream
soyun Sep 2015
I once had a dream,
That I wished was true.

Not because it was perfect.
But to get over the you.
I've liked this one guy for a while now and can't seem to find anything I don't like about him. I know he likes someone else and so I should move on but I keep discovering new things about him. I had a dream that a third person told me that he had only come to my surprise party because he was paid to. If this was true, then maybe I'd actually get over him.
542 · Oct 2015
Fear of Losing You
soyun Oct 2015
Let me tell you something my dear.
                                   *You're my one and only fear.
533 · Feb 2016
Flooding
soyun Feb 2016
My heart broke a little today.
Because even though I've finally moved on,
All the reasons why I loved you
*Came rushing back like a flood.
517 · Sep 2015
mess
soyun Sep 2015
sort of a mess
but okay nonetheless.
481 · Oct 2016
Unexpected
soyun Oct 2016
You were supposed to get angry.
You were supposed to argue.
You were supposed to beg me to stay.

But you didn't.

You said you understood.
You said you loved me.
You said you would let me go.
476 · Oct 2015
Star
soyun Oct 2015
You shine like a star
I gaze upon
longingly.

Stars are only
beautiful from
afar.
472 · Dec 2015
karma
soyun Dec 2015
What did I do
to deserve
all this  pain
and  **suffering?
453 · Nov 2015
Untitled
soyun Nov 2015
We didn't have a fling or really anything,
but I thought you should know:
*I'm finally letting you go.
448 · Sep 2017
Self-torture
soyun Sep 2017
After all this time,
It wasn't you breaking my heart.
I held the hammer even when you were gone.
442 · Dec 2015
Untitled
soyun Dec 2015
The girl stared at them silently,
                her eyes and nose running.
"Why can't it be me?"
        she whispered bleeding.
441 · Sep 2015
Wish List
soyun Sep 2015
The only thing on my wish list is you.
                                        *Sadly, Santa isn't real.
382 · Sep 2015
On My Own
soyun Sep 2015
I can't breathe. My lungs are full with the misconceptions I received from you. These mixed signals you send me mess with my head. You suffocate me by making me feel special then ordinary. It's all your fault.
...
But it really isn't. My lungs are full with my own tears. I created the signals in my own head. I realized I was strangling myself with my own hands. It was all me. *It was only ever me.
361 · Sep 2015
never
soyun Sep 2015
You can enjoy someone's presence
like their style
want to laugh with them
be their number one fan
but never
never
*fall for them.
353 · Sep 2015
Used to...
soyun Sep 2015
I used to be smart. Until you messed with my heart.
I used to be strong. Until you proved me wrong.
I used to be pretty. Until you made me feel ******.
I used to be content. Until you caused me to vent.
I used to be different.
Now I'm insignificant.
350 · Sep 2015
Untitled
soyun Sep 2015
When did you stop caring?
Silly me,
*You never cared.
350 · Sep 2017
Exposed
soyun Sep 2017
She lay naked and raw in the back of his car with all her clothes on.
342 · Sep 2015
run.
soyun Sep 2015
If you catch yourself falling for someone,
                                                        ­                       *run.
326 · Sep 2015
honestly...
soyun Sep 2015
It's not fair. You don't even care. This is too much to bear. Was it a dare? Your ruffled hair. I need you like air. My heart and mind tear. We'd make a cute pair. I can't help but stare. Why are you so rare? Catch you like devil snare. Watch out and beware. Become my lucky spare. We can go to the fair. What should I wear? I can be your flare. You'll be mine I swear.
316 · Sep 2015
Vision
soyun Sep 2015
When I close my eyes,
You run toward me.
Startled at the sight,
I open them to see.

You're gone like the wind,
But never were you there.
I fall to the ground saying,
*"This is too much to bear."
311 · Jan 2017
Untitled
soyun Jan 2017
what began as a choice,
ended up as an addiction.

-love or drug
304 · Jan 2017
Untitled
soyun Jan 2017
he was like a drug.

-*kids, stay away from drugs.
303 · Sep 2017
Delusional
soyun Sep 2017
Every time we meet,

There's an awkward pause between each word said
as if it was rehearsed a thousand times in our heads.

There's a tension that pulls us together,
but keeps us apart forever.

You look at me
no longer with love.
Searching to see
an opportunity to leave.

"I miss you. I always have and always will. Please come back to me."

Of course, I don't say this out loud
because I know you don't want to hear it.

As a matter of fact,
you don't care enough to not want it anymore.

Instead,
I make up an excuse that we both know isn't true.

But you let it go
because us being friends is all for show.
293 · Sep 2017
Foolish
soyun Sep 2017
You did a hell of a good job convincing me that you love me.

*What a fool I was to believe.
289 · Sep 2015
Killer
soyun Sep 2015
With an open wound bleeding,
                         and blood slipping past my fingers,
                                                        ­      I  smile at the beautiful killer.
289 · Oct 2016
To Love Him
soyun Oct 2016
People pity the One Who Loved,
But no one ever thinks of the One Who Couldn't.

The One who had to end it because She was incapable of loving Him.
The One who's heart was twisted because She despised herself.
The One who knew She would never be treated that way again.
The One who hated only taking, but didn't know how to give.
The One who lied because He deserved better.

The One who tried but couldn't.


*I lost someone who truly loved me
Because I was unable To Love Him
286 · Oct 2016
The End.
soyun Oct 2016
The first day is always the worst.
Your eyes are puffy from bawling the night before.
You drag yourself to class, but don't remember what was taught.
You shut your brain down and lock your soul away.
But the moment you become *sane
again,
Tears threaten to fall because he's the first thing you think of.
You put in your earbuds to let people know not to mess with you.
Sad songs that remind you of him are played on repeat.
You want to ask him if he's okay.
You want to run back saying it was a mistake.
You want him to cherish you and love you.
But you can't go back.
It's better this way.
And the worst part is
*
You'll regret it everyday.
276 · Sep 2017
Ironic
soyun Sep 2017
You told me I didn't love enough,
So I changed.

I told you you didn't love enough,
So you left.
272 · Sep 2015
notice please
soyun Sep 2015
I'm trying oh so very hard,
                    *But you don't even notice.
267 · Jan 2017
Untitled
soyun Jan 2017
tell me
why you love me
and I'll give you
a reason to fly
249 · Sep 2017
Brewing Love
soyun Sep 2017
The Bitter Taste of your Sweet Love
Kept me Sipping
long after the Cup
was Empty.
233 · Jan 2017
Untitled
soyun Jan 2017
And the more passionate we kissed,
it became an exchange of words.
229 · Aug 2017
Devil
soyun Aug 2017
With tears
streaming down
her face,
she finally
said,
"I can't do
this anymore."
His furrowed brows
were
no longer
angry.
Instead,
he started laughing.
"I treated you like ****,
and it took you
this long
to walk away."
217 · Apr 2017
Untitled
soyun Apr 2017
Am I that good at putting on this ******* smile,
or
Are people pretending to fall for it?
215 · Dec 2016
...but he loves me.
soyun Dec 2016
But does he love you?
212 · Aug 2017
He was Home
soyun Aug 2017
O kind sir,
What do you do when
home
abandons you?
205 · Aug 2017
-false hope
soyun Aug 2017
Waiting,
        Waiting,
               Waiting,
For someone that is not coming back..

Or is he?
205 · Aug 2017
Night
soyun Aug 2017
Without your "goodnight,"
It can never be a good night.
203 · Aug 2017
Forever
soyun Aug 2017
You said we would last forever.
Why did forever feel so **** short.
202 · Aug 2018
"I love you"
soyun Aug 2018
No longer makes her heart race, stomach churn, or knees tremble.
It is like hearing the door open, and his voice float down the hall as he says,
"I'm home."

— The End —