when i was young
someone asked
    "what superpower do you wish for?"
no hesitation -
i replied
     "invisibility"

i grew up realising
it came true

I want to obey
Because I know I'll be safe
When I follow You.

When I am on my knees I don't see myself so tall any more
I am looking up from this ground while I lay down my knees on the floor;
With my hands grasp together for a prayer, will my sins be gone?
Never before I called upon our father almighty and be a worthy son.

And so like an hourglass, this moment's counting down all of my lies
I can see my faint reflection from the tears on the ground straight from the eyes;
I became so ignorant that I found only self-righteous beliefs and deceits
Not one that is lifting my soul but one that is all about dragging someone else's feet.

So I am here in this cathedral alone under his crucified body
I saw myself cry as I beg for my sins to be cleanse with mercy;
If only I can bear the cross that our father held to atone for my sins I would
If only I can say sorry to those people I've done wrong and for them to do something good.

Then this must be the sign to start the act of redemption
For I know in this moment I am having a divine intervention;
Have I mentioned along with me is a caliber .37 loaded with a full chamber
I am so glad I found him and made me realized that my life isn't yet over.

I don't know how to tell you,
I don't want to disappoint you
I'm depressed Mom
I wish I could say it to your face
Instead of writing it down
I want to be able to tell you
Because
I'm sick of these voices
Inside of my head
Telling me how fat I look
Or how I'm annoying everyone I talk too
But I try to be happy for you
I smile but do you look me in the eyes?
Can't you tell that there's a war going on in my mind?
I know you see my scars
But you don't say anything
why?
I'm slowly killing myself
And I try showing you signs
So when I'm gone
Don't hate me because I didn't tell you
I just loved you too much
To say it out loud

to live is to be evil just rearranged to be more appealing.