i needed her
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                                                                ­             so i bought her...

she was so beautiful, so moist
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                                                ­                             but i ground her up...

if the police found her i be thrown in jail
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                                                                ­             so i rolled her up...

but i loved her a i couldnt leave her like that
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                                                                ­             so i burned her...

how could i let the smoke of her go to waste
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                                               ­                              so i inhaled...

i loved her so much
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                                                                ­             my *****...

I wish I could be Beautiful like them...
They are Unique and Magnificent in their ways of Oddity.
I am an Aberration.
But in the way they are all Different,
They are the Same.
I am Alone...

Can they see,
As it grows inside?
Do I lie,
Can I cower and hide?
I want it, need it, love it so...
If they only knew, would they really know?

It stopped being, bitterly I cried.
A heart no longer beating.
A flame flickered and then...
Just died.

I admit it, I watch you sleep.
I wonder, in silence, if I hide in your dreams.
I know the sound of your final conscious breath.
I pray in the night you find whole rest,
And return to me in the morning refreshed.

I study you as clouds dance in your head.
The soft brow, which furrows in frustration when your thoughts sour.
Your lips curl sweetly, is it me?

I know I am forgotten as you snooze,
At a second's touch you envelope me.
An embrace so gentle, possessive, warm.
And soon after I drift off too.