I remember things that most people don't.
I remember small flowers that I love.
I remember what songs I listen to with certain people.
I remember playing hide and seek with my cousins in a field.
I remember a compliment from a six year old.
I also remember turning down food over and over and over.
I remember stretching again and again.
I remember getting smaller and smaller.
I remember the night my dad told me that I was going to eat protein powder or two pieces of butter toast and I almost started
crying.
I remember my sister asking me if I starved myself and I said no.
I remember my music getting sadder
I remember closing off.
I remember trying to please people.
That's all I live for anymore..
I live for other people.

if love,
is waiting for you
when i know you'll never come

then i definitely loved you

if love,
is wishing for your touch
when i know you never would

then i definitely loved you

if love,
is pouring my heart out for you
when i know you'll never understand

then i definitely loved you

but i am pretty sure,
that is not what love is

i am also pretty sure
that maybe once,
i thought that i definitely loved you
and maybe,
i even did...