Anxiety please go away
You define me
And confine me
I feel so trapped
You hold me back from flying
Sometimes I just feel like dying
I usually end up crying
Why can't you just leave?
Do you think you amuse me?
Cause all you do is confuse me

I broke last night.
I put on my boxing gloves and beat myself up.
I laid in bed and cried.
I prayed to God I would die last night.
I even wrote a goodbye letter to my family and ex-girlfriend.
But I'm still here.
I guess God has a reason for that,
Although I don't know what it is.
I just wish that plan involved the love of my life.
Why can't I just die already?

you always tell me
poetry is a rhyming game
but I'll never be
good with these kind of games
because words aren't for me
not in these rhyming games
I'm struggling to find the degree
of words that describe the flame
the fire inside me
that words can't contain in a frame.
I
Miss
You.

-r.y.s

Remember when I told you that you don't scare me?

In the back of my mind
Your voice is there
Whispering right
When I want to do wrong

In my long term memory
I see you there
Keeping me calm
Helping me along

In my short term memory
I see last week
How things seemed odd
How things seemed different about you

In this moment right now
I stare at my phone
Nothing appears
Because you've *disappeared