Thanks to my obsession with you I've not been my usual self And thanks to my obsession with you I've not been a good student And thanks to my obsession with you I've not been the best of sisters And thanks to my obsession with you I've not been able to sleep And thanks to my obsession with you I've not been able to think And thanks to my obsession with you I've not been able to focus But thanks to my obsession with you I've at least had happy moments
My life has already far exceeded my expectations Not in the sense I’ve done all I set out to do Or accomplished all my wildest dreams But in the sense it’s lasted longer Than the storybooks said it would And beyond the point I understood And now I’ve all this time on my hands And lists of things to fulfill But most of them tedious, boring Or not really worth my time Not exactly what my childhood dreams projected My life has become something unexpected
What I can't seem to figure out Is that When I look at you My heart lights up It burns bright and fierce Sharp and strong and thrilling And yet My mouth turns down My eyes frown And the singing flame in my heart Burns like shame across my cheeks The gears in my head freeze Even as my heart begins to melt My flesh crawls Even as it tingles At the thought Of you on my skin I want you close Even as I want you far I want to let you in But I can't
loss of appetite broken flight as you leave my sight now i've cried so you might ask me why quite, as if you and i'd spend the night but instead i try to fight the feelings inside that scratch and bite eating away my light and boy, i've strived with all my might thinking that i am worth your time
Isn't it funny That you can be healthy And then weigh yourself And be obese? That you can run four times a week Workout everyday besides And check your weight And have nothing but hate? Isn't it funny That you can look in the mirror And love what you see Then look at the scale And back to your reflection And everything is wrong with you? Isn't it funny That you can be perfectly happy Until you find out your "size" And suddenly you can't stand yourself