i kind of realized
that i kind of hate you

not because of a broken heart
or some stupid teenage drama story

but because honestly,
all of my life i have been above that

you made me something i wasn't

and i kind of hate you for it

a while ago i wrote
about looking in the mirror
and not liking what i saw.

a while ago i believed
that i could only be
the things that everyone else saw in me
the woman she was.

but broken mirrors still reflect

every little sliver of glass still says, indefinitely,
"this is who you are"

so instead of breaking mirrors
i looked in them
and decided that if i didn't like what i saw,

well, i was just going to have to change it.

i don't have to fall in love

i'm happy

i don't need anyone to "love" me
in order to validate myself

i know that i am good
i am strong and beautiful and kind
i am complex and thoughtful and wise
i am a woman...

and i don't have to fall in love.

its okay
if it is

i don't need you anymore.

so love and be loved my friends!

i am glorious
i am golden
in my heart i am loved

you don't even hafta pretend
to like me

bring on your anger
bring it on!

because i am loved
by myself
and that is golden

taking things
truly
one step at a time

things have been rough
and you caught me at a bad time
but i might just be
better
now.

things are still hard
but the struggle fells worth it
now.

kicking cans
making plans
giving up
letting go

kicking and crying
screaming and trying
panicking in quicksand
sinking faster

let it go
let him go

its all you can do

you can't change a person
you can't make the world yours
all you can do is hear his words
and take them with you
just add another song to your playlist
and let him go