Composed: 2:56 A.M., 7-20-14*
Hey. I just wanted to let you know that I just woke up from a dream that I saw you in, but you never looked at me and it felt as if I was looking at a stranger and when I woke up I thought about how it feels as if years have passed since I've last spoken to you when in reality it has been weeks and I feel like I'm losing you and I can't quite remember how your eyes crinkle when you laugh or the exact shade of your blue eyes but I can remember how your smile literally made most of my days and to be painfully honest I've been missing you from day one and I just really want to see you but I feel August is just too far away and I wish I could call you to hear your voice just once, but I won't cause I don't want to annoy you. Anyways, love you. Sleep well.*
My thumb hovered over the send button,
But in the end I knew
You would feel uncomfortable
If I sent this to you
So I pushed the home button,
Locked my phone,
And once again attempted sleep
To see if I could dream of you again.
This was written over a month ago, and since then I have reconnected with this boy, but I just really love what I did here in the middle of the night.