Hold
On
Pain
Ends

He was conceived by two
Junkies and if you do
The math it equals one
Monkey,

Wild little youngster; sold
Dope On the corner and
Bourne in a dumpster

To his enemies he's a
Thief, murderer some one
Who knows no better,
but

To friends he's classified
A real go getter,

And would **** you if
You came between him and his cheddar,

He walks with love and hate
On his heart, and when he's feeling one you can't tell
Em apart,

He was Bourne into the life
Doomed from the start,

Felt life's bite but didn't
Heed life's bark

I have poison in my veins
I am dark matter
I have shadows in the curves of my collarbones
switch blades tucked into my hips

I am venomous
I am a viper
a black widow

and I am so, so sorry, my darling
that you are the only one that I strike

I think to myself

Let me be alone
Over the hilltop
Verging toward
Every last drop

Year has past
Only tonight
Unravel the last

Bitter taste I'll have
Ugly and broken
To understand the laugh

I tried to tell you

Can't fathom the word
Of course it's meaningless
Utterly ridiculous
Longing for comfort
During the hour of us

No one knows
On the nights I cried
The nights I lied

There in bed
Eyes wide open
Love me now
Leave me in bloodshed

Yellow light
Only over other
Useless poems

I'm tired of memories

So long I say
On the my last living day
Remember the last
Reply I gave
Your impression you made

Go on to bigger things
On to the next
On to the best
Don't look back

Because of me
You aren't yourself
Everything I know is gone you see

My favorite person
In the meantime
Keeps reminding me
Another day has past
You didnt see me
Looking at you
And you didn't finish the deed

I'd love to be the harbor boat
That gently tugs, keeping you afloat
Or perhaps even better yet
The soft comfort of your unmade bed

I'd love to be the garden trowel
The one you use when you plant spring flowers
Or perhaps even better still
The lucky coin in your wishing well

I'd love to be the big red barn
With stacks of hay inside to keep you warm
Or perhaps even more than that
The loving purr from you favorite cat

I'd love to be your private Learjet
To take you places that you've never been
Or perhaps given half a chance
The diamond ring slipped on your left hand

I'd love to be your automobile
The comfort you feel from behind the wheel
Or perhaps to tell the truth
I'd love to be all this and more for you