I am a lost boy
From never land
Usually hanging with Peter Pan.
Run run lost boy
They say to me
Away from all the reality
-Ruth B.

I wanted to help you.
I wanted to make you happy.
You brought music into my broken world.
I wanted to bring music into your.
Yours was getting darker and darker.
I watched as you sunk down.
Deep into the depression that used to loom over me.
I watched you scream inside.
I heard your silent cries.
I couldn't save you from the darkness
Because I hadn't been able to save myself.
Sweet love I can't promise the darkness will never touch you.
I will fight to keep it away.
I will fight with every ounce in my body to where you don't have to feel the same pain I have for all these years.
Leaving an ex is hard.
Chae killed what was left of me.
You brought new life.
Then she killed what was left of you.
I wanted to be the light but didn't know how.
I had no clue how Emily and you managed to light others up.
You said you were depressed.
Said you needed time.
Sweet girl I understand.
Moving on is hard.
I asked if you wanted me to disappear like nothing ever happened.
No you said.
But it was only because you couldn't do that to me.
Never once did you mention that you wanted to stay.
Now I lay here knowing I ****** up.
Lay here knowing it's not okay anymore.
I'm always going to be in the darkness.
Maybe I can help lead you out.
I'd rather walk in the dark with you
Than walk through the light alone.

Countless nights I've cried.
But now I stand tall, I am very much alive.
Used to be small, I am very much alive.
The world had attacked.
Nobody here to help.
Then Emily came into my life.
She began to show me meaning in life.
I went to church with her.
Talked all the time.
Built up confidence a little more.
Then life opened about her door.
Melody.
The way we met was strange.
Just me being my wierd self.
At mendive you were different.
I said hi in the halls I guess you remembered.
Somehow I just felt like I could trust you.
Then we stopped talking.
We had never rally started.
Just small talk here and there.
No one really taking care,
To the few conversations we had.
Later in school we had both become a bit older.
Some of us a bit bolder.
Friend request on Facebook.
Turned into conversations at four am.
Those conversations turned into new friends.
Then then something else began.
Something I involving me needing to trust.
Trust you.
Yes love I trust you.
I know you know what you are doing.

Your a good good father...
It's who you are. It's who you are!
I am loved by you.
It's who I am. It's who I am.
Your a good good father!