You have to understand!
Please,
I need you to,
I could keep rambling,
No I can't my mind is scrambling,
Everything is mixed up,
I need it all to stop,
Take a photo,
Crop,
Shape it differently,
Add a filter,
Make it fake,
Alter the entire thing,
Let the cold sting,
Allow my ears to ring,
Change my thoughts to silence,
I do not need dark guidance,
Let everything sink in,
Try something new,
Or let everything stay the same,
Do not leave the bubble,
Safety nets can only go so far,
Mine could scar,
Yet so could so many other things,
I just need to try,
To see what everything is about,
Maybe I will try to shout,
Show my cards,
I know I won't,
There is no way I want to expose myself,
I like my secrets in my mental shelf,
Sharing can be fun,
Never when something gets done,
Help was what I wanted,
Then I got it and it was no longer appealing,
Things were too revealing,
To an untrusted person,
Pushed into new places,
Seeing so many new faces,
Lost in a sea,
With no real version of me,
Just a shell anyone could see.